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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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 Posted: Mon Oct 28, 2024 2:51 am
 ⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜The idea of running home was just an escape. He hardly thought Miguel's breakup was because of him. Abel didn't want to leave but at the same time he wanted to stay. He still craved Miguel though didn't expect anything from his official break up. Abel tried to play standoffish as if that would make things better.
Arriving at the right floor, the elevator made a dinging noise as it stopped and the doors opened. Abel followed after Miguel into the hallway and down toward his apartment door. He stood a few feet off though his eyes wandered taking in his marks around Miguel's neck. Abel stopped as they reached the door. He waited as Miguel unlocked his door and entered. Abel followed in after him,shutting the door behind them.
Seeing Miguel take off his shoe, Abel didn't bother. He wasn't sure how long he'd be staying. Abel had already been pushed away. He expected to have it continue. Abel glanced toward Miguel hearing his question. He didn't want to be rude so he responded. ”Sure, uh coffee would be good.” Abel spoke thinking maybe caffeine would help relax him as the cigarettes hadn't.
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Posted: Mon Oct 28, 2024 12:43 pm
By no means would he blame Abel for how things went with Kieran. It was their own fault for waiting so long to have such an important conversation. Jakob couldn't say for certain if they had had it sooner it would have fixed anything, but it probably wouldn't have hurt. He didn't know if they would ever try to get back together together again, but for now it was settled. Knowing that things were over he didn't know if Abel would be sticking around very much longer. He hoped he would, but he also understood that this was not an intended vacation.
Soon arriving on his floor, Jakob stepped out of the elevator and made his way to his apartment. As they reached his door, he paused to unlock it, he could feel eyes watching him. Jakob had no idea just how many marks Kieran had made though there was no doubt that there were likely a few new ones that stood out from the ones made before. Not wanting to call much more attention to himself, Jakob entered his home and removed his shoes. He then looked to Abel, offering him a drink. It seemed like the polite thing to do, especially if he was hoping to have any kind of conversation with him. When the man agreed, he nodded, and moved into the kitchen.
Jakob turned to the cabinets and pulled out the same bag of coffee from last night. He wasn't sure if Abel had liked or hated it, but it was all he had to offer. He went through the motions of changing the filter and scooping out the coffee. He was feeling nervous, much in the way he did when Abel appeared on his doorstep. The man himself wasn't helping much by not removing his shoes and his standoff attitude. The coffee felt like a last ditch effort in delaying him from wherever he was going. "So, um....Your name came up." he started. Reaching up, Jakob closed the lid to the coffee maker, before starting the machine. "A few times." Putting away the bag, Jakob leaned against the counter. This was it, he was going to tell him. No expectations, just the truth. Taking quick glances towards Abel, he waited to see if he might respond first.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Oct 28, 2024 6:52 pm
⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜Agreeing to a drink, he watched as Miguel went into the kitchen. Abel stood off to the side as Miguel went through the cabinets to find the bag of coffee. He watched as Miguel went about making the coffee. Abel too was merely trying to delay. He soon heard Miguel speak, surprised by his words. Abel had expected it though he guessed it was different. He watched as Miguel started the coffee and soon glanced toward him. ”Did it now?” Abel asked as curiosity got the best of him.
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Posted: Mon Oct 28, 2024 7:53 pm
It didn't take Jakob long to prepare the machine, however he took his time as he was clearly trying to stall Abel. Without it, he worried that he would simply grab his belongings and head out now. He had already lost one love today, he wasn't exactly ready to have to say goodbye to another just this second. Starting up the machine, he leaned against the counter as he spoke. Jakob chanced a glance as he attempted to gauge the males' response. Across from him, Abel watched him and questioned him in return. He nodded as he looked away. "Mostly past stuff, like when you and Kieran were teenagers." he continued. "But also, our past, like how you never told him that I was here." Jakob let the unspoken question hang in the air. He didn't want to say the wrong thing and make Abel anymore angry than he was. So instead, he chose to wait a moment to again see how he would respond.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Oct 28, 2024 8:11 pm
⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜Abel couldn't help but be curious as to what they talked about. However he wondered if he really wanted to know. Abel stood watching Miguel as he seemed nervous. It at least made him feel better to see the same reaction. He was probably hiding it better though. Although he was almost one foot out the door. Abel watched as Miguel nodded before looking away. He listened as he spoke about Kirean and he talked about their childhood. Abel wasn't surprised though his next words struck him a little. He found it amusing though in the wrong way. ”Would it have made you feel better if I had?” Abel responded keeping his tone refined as he tempted to control his anger.
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Posted: Mon Oct 28, 2024 8:39 pm
Jakob had no problem recanting the conversations he had with Kieran. Though a part of him was doubting he really interested in what he just mentioned. It wasn't even like Kieran had told him all that much about a teenaged Abel. Just enough to help answer his questions. Standing there, Jakob was indeed having trouble reading Abel right now. As per usual, he was keeping his emotions in check and in turn was forcing Jakob to choose his words carefully. If he was angry, he really didn't want to piss him off. Continuing, Jakob spoke about Abel keeping secrets. Again, he was unable to tell if what he said upset him any. When he was questioned, Jakob shook his head. "God no, we were a sinking ship long before then." he said, "I'm just trying to understand why you keep secrets like that or what you said at breakfast." Raising his head, he did his best to show that he wasn't angry or upset. That he wanted this to be an open discussion.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 1:27 am
⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜Indeed Abel was hardly interested in the past between Kirean and himself. He remembered it all and it was behind them. They were better friends than lovers. Abel had protected Kirean but now he found it hard as he came into his own right. He didn't try so hard anymore. Abel wondered if he had, would things had gone differently between Miguel and Kirean. He knew however that he hardly cared.
At the moment, Abel had to keep himself in check. He wasn't looking to argue much less hurt Miguel. Abel watched as Miguel shook his head and responded. He was surprised by his next words; as if Miguel really wanted to discuss that at the moment. Abel shifted as he stood there. ”What does it matter?” He commented, hardly thinking it was relevant. Abel kept things to himself because it was easier than to tell the truth. Even now he wondered if such words should have been kept to himself.
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 2:32 am
Indeed, Kieran and Abel’s past was hardly the point he was trying to make. That was a topic for another day, though even then he wasn’t sure how much it was needed. He already knew quite a bit about their teenaged selves. It may not have been a day by day itinerary, but it was enough. If any other questions or concerns came to mind he would easily ask one or both concerning parties.
The last thing he wanted to do was fight. He was already so tired from fighting with Kieran earlier. Fighting with Abel would only exhaust him further and he didn’t want them to part angry. When Jakob spoke, he couldn’t help talking badly about his previous relationship. Unfortunately he knew it to be true and probably for a lot longer than he ever cared to admit. Instead, he tried to steer the conversation back to his original point. Across the kitchen Abel shifted his weight and questioned him in return.
Frustrated, Jakob groaned. ”Because I love you!” He said, without thinking. His breath caught in his throat. He hadn’t meant to say it like that, not all at once. His heart pounded in his chest and he could feel his cheeks start to burn. Beside him, the coffee maker gurgled as it began to pour the hot liquid into the waiting carafe. Turning away from Abel, Jakob moved to grab a mug from the cabinet.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 8:02 am
⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜For an open discussion, it was hardly going well. He didn't understand what Miguel's point was. So he kept secrets from Miguel, such as things from Kieran as well as his feelings for him. Abel continued to avoid the questions with questions. He wasn't so sure he wanted to know what Miguel's questions or statements meant. Abel didn't want to fight with Miguel either.
He was surprised by Miguel's sudden outburst. Abel watched Miguel as he soon turned away from him. A few questions went off in his head. He hardly believed such words. Abel merely thought Miguel tolerated him. ”No you don't.” He spoke a little accusatory. Abel thought Miguel was just telling him what he wanted to hear. If Miguel loved him, then he wouldn't have made him feel like an idiot in the restaurant or even the hotel room with Kirean.
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 8:49 am
Jakob had tried to keep the conversation civil and make his points clear, but it seemed he was doing a piss poor job in even that regard. It didn’t help that Abel was angry and getting more so by the minute. What was the use of talking when the other party wasn’t interested. He felt stupid and was getting frustrated with himself. He wondered if it was better to just let him leave.
When Abel questioned him, Jakob said the one thing he’d been trying not to say. Embarrassed, he quickly turned away and tried to busy himself with any available task. While taking down a mug from the cabinet, Abel spoke behind him. His words were like an unprovoked gut punch. Setting the mug on the counter, he kept his back turned to him as he fought back his emotions. God he was an idiot. He couldn’t make things work with Kieran because the love was too far gone, and he couldn’t make it work with Abel because apparently he didn’t love him at all. Good to know.
Beside him, the coffee machine gurgled and hissed as it came to a stop. Without waiting for it to cool, he grabbed the carafe by the handle and poured some into the mug. After replacing the carafe, gingerly picked up the steaming cup and brought it over to Abel. ”Here’s your coffee.” was all he said. Without excusing himself, Jakob left the kitchen with the intent to go wash his face. He slipped and into the bathroom and covered his mouth with his hands as the flood gates started to open. His eyes welled and his body shook, he didn’t want Abel to know that he was crying again. He turned away from his reflection, not wanting to see what an ugly mess he’d become.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 5:12 pm
⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜Abel wasn't to be loved, he was there to provide comfort. He couldn't even remember the thought of being loved. Abel couldn't even understand his own feelings of love for Miguel. He cared for him and didn't like seeing him get hurt. Abel couldn't help his possessive need to keep Kirean from Miguel. He had seen how bad their relationship was, if it could be called such. Abel though wanted them to work things out. It seemed they had by coming to a conclusive end. He hadn't expected it though perhaps he did. Abel wasn't happy about it though.
He didn't understand why Miguel was now telling him such words. It was hard to believe him when Miguel never expressed himself before. He didn't think Miguel hated him but love was new and strange. Abel couldn't help the accusation. He watched Miguel as he had no retort, only proving his beliefs. Abel expected a response but got none.
Standing there, he watched as Miguel poured him his coffee. Abel took the cup of coffee as Miguel practically shoved it at him. He held onto the cup as Miguel left him standing there. Abel watched as Miguel left heading to the bathroom. He was hardly interested in the coffee as he stood there awkwardly holding it.
Abel had every intention of leaving but he hadn't yet. He moved to set his coffee down on the counter. Abel followed after Miguel knowing he wasn't running away to use the bathroom. He entered to see Miguel crying. Abel didn't understand why however. He came up behind Miguel as he slipped his arms around his waist and pulled him against him. Abel wanted to question him but thought against it.
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 5:53 pm
It wasn't his intention to feel anything for Abel, the first time they met he remembered being deeply disturbed by his actions. His second impression leave much room for improvement. If not for his many fights with Kieran, that opinion likely would not have changed all that much. Instead, he had found getting closer and slowly getting to know him. With how absurdly bad this day had been going, he couldn't entirely blame Abel for not believing that he might feel something for him. Still, the words hurt and Jakob wasn't feeling very social now.
Jakob didn't know what he had been expecting by blurting that out. He couldn't even think of a proper response to Abel's accusation against him. After pouring his drink, he was quick to leave the room. Aside from being upset, he was cranky, his head hurt, and he felt like the world's biggest fool. The apartment too small to run away, but he thought he made it obvious he wanted to be alone. Standing in the bathroom, he covered his mouth as the tears burned his eyes and slid down his cheeks. He couldn't even look at himself.
With his back to the door, he hadn't seen Abel come in. He felt the males arms wrap around him and pull him close. His first instinct was to push him away, if he didn't love him then he didn't deserve his comfort. While his second was to pull him closer. Jakob was tired of feeling miserable today and just wanted to be held. He wanted to sit and breathe and not think for the rest of the day. He was tired of being told that he was loved but could not have it in return. Swallowing, bit his lip as he glared down at the floor, willing himself to try and find some sort of calmness in the man's embrace.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 8:02 pm
⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜Abel honestly cared less what Miguel wanted. If he wanted to be alone then he should have told him to leave. Seeing Miguel crying, he assumed he was likely the cause. He felt like an a*****e but honestly didn't think he could apologize for not understanding. Abel watched as Miguel stared at the floor as he held him. He could see his face in the mirror even as he looked down at the floor. Abel shifted as he turned Miguel around. He found it awkward to currently hold him like this. Abel crushed Miguel against him as he held him. He didn't want him to be the cause of his hiding.
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Posted: Tue Oct 29, 2024 9:02 pm
Deep down he knew that he really didn't want to be alone right now. His cranky brain just wanted to throw another tantrum and destroy what was left of his relationships. A lot of good that would do. As Abel held him, he neither said anything nor pushed him away. He just stood there glaring all while feeling sorry for himself. Behind him, he felt Abel shift and allowed him to turn him in his arms. He didn't dare look up. He was still feeling the sting of rejection and knew his face was a mess. Jakob was surprised by the sudden hug. He moved his arms around Abel's waist to cling to him, his hands clawing around his shirt. Burying his face, Jakob held on to him, breathing in his scent.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 31, 2024 6:47 pm
⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜Turning Miguel around, he pulled him closer. Abel felt Miguel's hands practically clawing at him as he held onto him. He ran his hands over Miguel's back as he held onto him. Abel wanted to ask him questions but thought against it. He rested his chin against Miguel's shoulder as he held onto him. Abel hadn't been rejecting Miguel, he just didn't understand. He knew Miguel felt feelings for him but to suddenly announce his love after breaking up with Kirean only concerned him. Abel didn't want to believe it. He had told Miguel he loved him this morning but it had been forced out of anger. However that didn't mean it wasn't true.
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