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((Hahaha, oh my. Poor Saul.))

Saul had somehow hoped it had been her on the phone as he often hoped that, indeed, she'd come back. He knew how ridiculous that was and how sad, how empty of a person that would make someone, waiting and waiting and never living, but that's what he'd become and now listening to her voice on the phone was enough to wreck him. He wasn't aware of what face he had made but Leah stood up from her chair and put a hand on his shoulder.

Maybe he was crying, or looked like he might have been ready to. He wasn't completely aware of it, of what was going on with him physically because his emotions, which had been put to so little use over the years, were there to remind him he was human again.

"Saul?" Leah was saying carefully.

He stood, phone in his ear with her still speaking and left the kitchen. Leah stared after him and gave Abel an upset glance. Her hands were clenching the ends of her sleeves and she was biting her lip. She sat down and became quiet. Somewhere in the apartment a door opened and closed.

He sat by the window of his room, his forehead resting in his open palm. He waited for her to finish, not merely because he never got the chance, but because he wasn't sure he was capable. He stared hard at his free hand dangling between his legs. It was shaking.

When she finally did finish it took him a moment to find the will to speak. He had to choke down his question to see her, please, please could he at least see her, but he held it back. Inhaling and exhaling deeply he rubbed hard at his face, rubbing from his chin to the back of his neck.

"You haven't changed a bit." He said trying to keep his voice steady, but it broke. He sighed, wincing. He felt his face ache. "This isn't fair." He said. "How can you expect me to..." He shook his head, his voice frustrated and tired. "You told me to forget about you once, if that didn't work I don't think anything will." He paused, tried to speak again, stopped.

"You shouldn't give up." He said simply. "It's the only thing... the only thing that ever made me think you really did feel something." Saul rubbed at his eyes. "If you hadn't cared... hadn't felt anything at all, why would you have run away? If that's all you've ever had... that isn't something you should let go." He laughed this time, dryly. "But maybe that's just me... I hate letting things go."

He became quiet again and waited. There was more he wanted to say, things he wished he could yell at her, but he kept them all within himself. He could have said he loved her, or that he missed her, or that he needed her, but it wouldn't have made a difference.

He had once said that it was all right if she didn't love him... now he was wondering what he had been thinking.

((hahaha, omgggg he's sooo saaaad. HE'S SUCH A SENSITIVE BOY, LILITH!))

((I'm SOOO going to bed after this... I should be sleeping. Like. Fo' real.))

Leah had drawn her legs to her chest and was resting her chin on her knees, eyes down. She watched as Abel sat down and leaned back over his chair, sighing slowly. She chewed at her lips, eyebrows turned up.

"It's that girl." She said quietly. She looked up at Abel's reassuring smile and looked down again. "He never told me EXACTLY what happened, but you know, it kind of really sucks!" She declared. "It's why me and him swore of ladies..." She flushed. "Well, I mean for me obviously men... well, not OBVIOUSLY since obviously women can like women if they'd like to, though I much prefer men... but all I'm saying is, together we've decided that being with someone is too much trouble." She nodded firmly.

"Being with someone has done nothing but make people like me and Saul miserable." Leah glanced out the kitchen door after her friend. "Especially Saul. I've never met a more miserable guy in my life... I mean I'm not HAPPY about how things turned out, but..." She trailed off, blinked at Abel and then became quiet.

"Sorry." She said; embarrassed. She dropped her knees and sat in a more formal fashion, eyes again on her feet.

((hahahahaahahahah, sooo awkward.))

Saul shut his eyes at her words, grinning bitterly. "Yeah. I guess." He replied. "But I can still complain about it if I want to. Never stopped me before." He leaned his head against his window, grey eyes especially pale with the light that fell through it.

He smiled slightly. "Didn't even think you'd thought about me." He said jokingly. He even smiled just barely.

He waited and then: "I act like you're amazing because I think you're amazing. It's love, I guess. Don't... you're not terrible." He paused, rubbed at his eyes again. "Maybe only terrible because of what you do to me." He smiled. "But you always did little things..." He seemed to be searching his thoughts. "I dunno. Maybe you're right. Maybe I was just putting those things there... but you were never emotionless to me."

Saul quirked his mouth. "You thought of me." He said.

((D:!))

((Post before classes! Hahaha, I wonder where Cain is... *tilts head* Maybe he's terrorizing a small child... like taking his lunch money or something.))

If there was one thing Leah wasn't used to, it was being completely listened to. That threw her off slightly, made her look at Abel more closely, as if she were expecting him to laugh at her suddenly, or to tell her how ridiculous she was. She stared when nothing like any of those things happened. He responded to her helpfully, logically... as if he really cared.

At first she was so startled by the feedback it didn't seem she was even going to reply, but suddenly she looked up, her face flushed. "You're talking like you don't have that same option. You CAN'T be any older than I am. You can't tell ME to keep trying and then not do so yourself. It's impractical! HYPOCRITICAL!" She said of him. "If YOU'RE not going to keep trying than neither am I."

And then she settled back in her chair. "And I'm an independent woman now!" She nodded. "I take care of myself." She looked up at him shyly suddenly."But maybe... you could cook for me sometimes?" She smiled in return, unsure but honestly. "That would help." She fiddled with her fingers and felt vulnerable.

"You know, maybe if I ate more I'd actually get boobs or something!" Leah declared to rid herself of this feeling.

((lol. Yeah. Not ANY OLDER than you, Leah. She's so helpless. It's kinda adorable. FFFF.))

Saul laughed when she called him pathetic. "Yeah. Thanks. I really needed the reminder." He pulled at his hair and then listened as she spoke more. It made him feel light when she admitted she was glad everything had happened. This did more for him probably than she could ever know.

"I'm glad he came too." He admitted. Of course he was glad he came merely just because Abel was Abel, but there was also Lilith. He'd never associated Abel with having being able to speak with her, but now he realized, in a way, that might have been the greatest thing Abel had done for him.

The young man jumped a little at her next remark. Removing his face from the window he focused his pale eyes downward. Seeing her brought a full on smile to his face. It almost made him a different person, made him look younger. He rested his fingers on the glass.

"I hate it." He said, still smiling. Truth was he couldn't care less, truth was he thought she would always look good. He was quiet, wondering if maybe this was the last time he'd see her.

"Where's Cain?" He wanted to know.

And it was in this moment there came a loud knock at Saul's front door.

((I FOUND HIM.))

((Hahaha, What a conversation that would be.

Them: Yeah. Uh. Cain?

Cain: Yeah?

Them: No one is home.

Cain:...

Hhahaha.))

Leah seemed surprised at his laughter. She sat back in her chair a little, face a hilarious picture of shock. She wasn't sure if she was meant to be offended by this, or maybe she should be hurt or uncomfortable, but the way he was laughing was so kind and honest that she picked up on it. She started slowly at first, but then seeing him trying to hide it made her laugh all the more loudly. She put her hands over her mouth.

"You're CRAZY!" She said of him, her face alight with her smile. "I oughta HIT you for laughing at me!" She sat up in her chair pretending to look indignant. "Laughing at ME of all people!" She pretended to frown at him.

"You'd better be sorry!" She scolded and then she flushed happily at his agreement to cook for her. "All right." She said. "Deal." She jerked her head up when there came a knock on the door.

"Who would-" She started, and watched Abel go to the door. Leah had turned in her chair to see him better, brow furrowed. She stood slowly from her chair at his reaction. "Who is it?"


Saul smiled at her words and shook his head at her. "Good." He said.

At her words about Cain he frowned to himself thoughtfully, but stood slowly from his seat at the sound of the knock on the door. At her words he closed his own phone and made his way back to his front door where he found Abel standing. Leah was still at the kitchen table looking concerned.

"Being here isn't usually this exciting." She said anxiously.

Saul moved towards the door and peered out himself. Cain was standing there, arms at his sides. He was staring directly at him, almost as if he could see him through the peephole, even though Saul knew that was impossible.

"Hey Saul." He said.

Saul pushed himself away from the door.

"I just want to talk to Abel." He called. His voice was calm, non-threatening. "That's it. Just let me talk to him. I can't make trouble. Think about it... I'm already in for it as it is."

And Saul knew he was right. He looked back at Abel. "You don't have to."

((hahaha, WHATCHU WANT, CAIN? WHAAATCHUUU WANT?))

((Hahaha, so true.))

Saul seemed like he might be ready to stop Abel form going out the door, but the expression on his face made him hold his tongue. He stepped back instead and looked back at Leah who was still standing, one hand to the back of her chair. Slowly she sat back down and Saul waited by the door, arms crossed over his chest. If something went wrong he wasn't sure he could do much, but he'd sure as hell try anything he could.

Cain backed up when Abel walked out, maybe to convince him further he was only there to talk. He was eyeing him carefully, pale eyes sharp and as calculating. His whole body language had always been predatory, however his arms were by his side, palms out in a yielding gesture. If anything, he seemed almost wary of Abel, or perhaps something else.

"Long time no see, angel." He said in a low voice. He grinned briefly at his previous question and shook his head. "I know we don't have a good history. I can't blame you if you don't even want to look at me." He shrugged, looking uncomfortable.

"Once I did something to you... and it did something to me." He looked away. "I've never felt remorse for my actions. I've always been too..." His face contorted, more like his usual self, but it vanished from his face quickly as it came. "Angry." He managed to look Abel directly in the eyes.

"I don't know why I feel the need to..." He furrowed his brow, the usually dangerous demon looking awkward and out of his element. "I'm sorry." He said after a long drawn out moment and then: "If you can help Lilith I want you to help her. People like me DESERVE what they get. I need to be put away. I NEVER stop feeling this way, but Lilith doesn't need this. She's better than this."

((CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. CHECK OUT THAT ACTION!!!))

((Hahaha, that's right, Abel. BE THE BIGGER PEROSN. THE BIGGER

PERSSSSOOOOON.))

Cain was not sure how long he would have to wait, or how Abel would respond, but he did something he was not very good at all and that was being patient. He seemed tense enough to almost start to pace, or harassed enough to speak again in a far less reserved manner, but then Abel finally replied. Cain sighed with maybe relief, he wasn't sure himself.

"There's no REASON to help me if even you can't find it in yourself to forgive me. I don't blame you. I wouldn't forgive me either." He laughed bitterly, but it came out funny, choked. Cain wouldn't understand it then maybe never, but considering Abel had maybe thought to help him, touched him. His eyes burned and he didn't understand why, merely wiped at them to remove the sensation.

"I don't have any right to ask your favors. I don't have any right to ask ANYONE favors, much less someone like you... I can't help what I am anymore than you can help what YOU are, Abel." Cain said, and he glanced at his sister, knowing somehow she'd be there. "But you've got to help her. I'll do whatever. Just..." He moved forward but backed off. He rubbed at his arms and managed to make eye contact again.

"Please."

He looked to his sister with the expression of a brother trying to take care of their sister. "You know as well as I know... this is not what was meant for you."

((OH MY. HOW TOUCHING THIS ALL IS! Hahaha, and people are over and I keep getting distracted... Also, I have no classes tomorrow and I feel as though all I'm going to do is work on homework D: ))

"Tch!" Cain said of Abel's forgiveness and now truly couldn't make eye contact. He shoved his hands in his pockets, unable to know exactly what to say to something like that. He remained silent instead, unable to cope with the situation.

When his sister came by his side he seemed slightly more comfortable, sure she would know what was most appropriate way to respond, wanting to know what she thought and if she disagreed he'd MAKE her agree to it, as was his nature as crude and primitive as it was, it was all he knew. He seemed distantly stunned at her words. He shifted, uncomfortable again and then gave a somewhat would be fearsome smile at her blow to his shoulder.

This made more sense to him.

He knocked her with one of his arms to show his affection, nothing more. He made a strange expression at Lilith's embrace. Though, at the angel's expression he gave a laugh, though it was less cruel than his usual laughs though just as rough.

When Abel opened the door Saul was standing just in front of it, as if he had been waiting just for that moment. Catching sight of Lilith so close made him oddly quiet and blank. He cast his eyes briefly on Cain whom shrugged and scratched at his hair. They exchanged a nod, maybe of understanding or maybe of just acknowledgment and then Saul moved forward, though he seemed unsure of what to do with his hands, and seemingly had forgotten how to walk.

It was hard seeing someone he'd not seen in so many years and had spent so much time thinking about and then suddenly they were there. He slowly smiled, a smile only Lilith could probably bring to his face, but then moving quicker probably than he had in years, because grief makes people slow, he filled his arms with her, holding her tightly.

((hahahaa, he's suuuuch a puppy. Huuuuugs make hiiim haaaappyyy!))

((Hahaha, I was right. All I did today was do homework and go running... I'm suuuuch a paaaarty animal. FFF. And LOL. Cain is just soooo maaaanly.))

Leah had been looking out into the hall with wide eyes. She smiled when Abel turned to her and then she laughed. "I'm so lost." She admitted, but seemed pleased for Saul. "I feel as if I've missed some things." She looked to Cain briefly and his gaze was enough to make her turn around in her chair and stare anywhere else.

Saul laughed a little at Lilith's remark from against his chest. He rested his own on the top of hers his smile so broad and peaceful it made Cain pull a face and make his way inside. He sat down at the table and started eating off the remainder of Saul's plate.

Leah looked at him, startled and looked back at Abel, her face shocked.

Saul didn't seem to mind that Cain had to leave, and probably would have been proud of it if he had noticed at all. Despite Lilith's nature he never did feel how cold she truly was and having her there again to hold, even if he had been able to feel it to its true extent, he probably wouldn't have minded it anyway.

He grinned at her remark about her make-up and pulled away slightly. Saul didn't think it was possible for him to cry with her remarks and instead grabbed her under her chin and kissed her once before letting her go. He pulled away very slowly however, holding her hands before breaking contact.

"I'm so glad you put up with me." Saul said quietly, smiling.

((ahahaha, b'aaaaw. He's so happy he cant' STAAAND IT.))