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He leans over an hugs her agianst hisself trying to come here.He looks into her eyes and says"If you ever need any company or confort you'll always have me to come to."

(I'm back.)

"Its already to late for me but not for you my demon's and past already eat at me, but you still have a chance you can still get your revenge.I can't ever since I took this sword I can't die I can never be free to die but you can get your revenge and die in peace."He looks into her eyes now filled with sadness hate, and pain."Its ok to cry to let out your sarrow and pain just never let go of your disiar."He says with a smle on his face still holding her."Everyone crys humans or not, even I have cried."

(Its fine.The shower was good even though I was tierdand no I didn't fall.Also I already read that.)

"Its always been to late for me I can never go back to the happier days when I came to this place, the only good things I ever done was bring what little joy I can and protect the very few who ask for my help or need it."He looked into her eyes to try to figure out wat she is thinking but theres to much hate,pain and sadnss to even guess what she was thinking.He could tell she just wants the pain to go away."I wish I wasn't living,I wish I had died that day with my love instead of being saved but I can't change the past no mater how hard I try.so I only live to make sure no one ever has to suffer like me,but as for killing they guy that kiled your family or just getting revenge may make you happier to just swhow him what hes done to you."He turns his head away and says"The life that your living right now isn't worth living till you find happieness then it will be worth something to you,I've learned that a long time ago but I never want happieness agian because someone will just take it away from me like last time."

You could here the pain in his voice when he said that."If you don't vry it will just build up till...it breaks lose and you...might do something you'll regret like I did and thats something you never want to happen.You need to let it out, if you cry it doesn't mean your weak,it shows that your not a monster like everyone thinks you are, that you still have a soul, and that you where a human."

((ok))

"Do you think I can go back to those happy days still...." Jasie pushed herself away from him. "I'd rather die then go back to those days... who said anything about going to the happier days, I know those days will never come back or do I want them... they would only cause me more pain in further knowing that their death would soon come again and bury me further into the black abyss I'm currently at and drown me in it." you pain might be deepth then mine or worse, I don't know... all I know is my pain is never ending, it's a pandora's box of traps and daggers ready to lash out at my heart and cut me. I still remember their faces from the next day as I had to bury my family... it's forever imprinted in my mind and haunts me in nightmares, along with that night. we both have horrible things, one more horrible then the other... we're both creatures of the night, well come out in the night and cursed with the memories of loved ones forever lost and gone to us." Jasie looked away breaking their eye contact. "I breaks my heart to hear others in pain as I am, and wishing for dead, I could never give them." A tear rolled down her cheek, "I hope you know I don't cry for me, but for you and your lost." Jasie said looking back in his concerned and pain filled eyes. "Revenge means nothing to me anymore, and besides my sorce, told me he was killed 12 years ago by a hunter who was a lycan. So at least he suffered somewhat." Jasie looked away. "happyiness is a word with no meaning to me anymore, and if I ever found happiness with someone... I'd rather die then make something of it, yet I would at least like to feel love again, but the pain of lose is to much and greater a burden of pain and guilt to ever live with. so I know how you feel... well in that area." Jasie went to him and touched his face and caressed it. "Your never alone, not if I can help it Devilboy." Jasie lended down and kissed him on the cheek. "To try is to fail, with me. I never win when it comes to my family and my pain. and crying... even if I did, do you think they or anyone would ever care or even say... Hey, she has a soul... so lets show some compassion and care. They'd still try to kill me and say I'm a monster so why cry, it only releases more pain and hate for yourself and what you couldn't do and... what you casued with your stupid love." Jasie said with totally pain and tears falling from her eyes, she didn't even know she had released or leg go off her tears. Jasie fell to her knees and screamed. "WHY!!!"

Jasie looked into his eyes regreting some of the things she said. "I know I should find happyiness, but my heart feels as if I have no right to have it. but I feel as if the right person is out there, I just haven't found them yet or have,... and don't even know it yet." Jaise said while looking off in the distance as if looking already but with a heavy heart.. "If I fell inlove with someone like that... what will stop his pain or grief if I die?" Jasie looked back at his as she said that, as if saying it to him. "I know I should feel others pain, and I should feel my own... but I just can help myself sometimes... it's like a weakness within me and when I see the pain in them... a piece of my heart that's still their," Jasie pointed at her chest," is still there and beating for them, wanted to help them with ever beat within me, just to try and save them... save them from themselves." Jasie sad with sadness in her eyes. "I'm sorry for crying for you or at least in pain for you and what you've been through! I wish I could take your pain away, so you could finally live in peace... but I know that's not my place and I'm sorry if it seemed like I was trying to." Jasie looked at him as if she could see right into his soul. "I'll find love again, I know I will but I don't know if that person will have the courage to love all of me, even the dark parts." Jasie whispered in a certain sadness yet not. "Monsters..." Jasie laughted in wondering who oin the hell did they get this far with their feelings but remembered what she once said to a lycan. "We all are monsters yet, now it seems like we all are just sinners, than that. and that where like everyone else, but with little flaws and things extra with us... "Jasie laughted, "More to love my mama used to say, the more to a person, the more you love them. " Jasie smiled so bright in remebering that. "We all need acceptance and to be loved... nomatter who it's from. I envy you for finding love that wasn't tainted by their betrayal." Jasie smiled and looked within his eyes. "Love will find us again, your right! I just need to break free from my pains cage that's holding me back from it." Jasie ran up to Devilboy and hugged him. "Thank you."

((sorry for the long posts))

"I know I'll find someone, even if it is someone as great as you, I'd be happy." Jasie said sweetly. "I just hope their words and everything are as great and comforting as your words are to me." Jasie said while leaning into him and resting her head on his shoulder. "Jasie looked up at Devilboy as he talked about never living in complete peace with that sword by his side. Jasie looked at it and touched Devilboys face as she looked back up into his dark brown eyes. "And why is that? Because what it represents or what it makes you remember?" Jasie said with kindness. "My mother was a wise woman, I just wish I would have gotten to know her better. Thanks... but a little bit of darkness could also be a curse to have. But thank you for saying otherwise!" Jasie hugged and smiles at him for trying, she knows he's trying and she's just making things difficult as always. Jasie chucked a bit, then hate and disgust showed in her eyes and she looked to the floor. "I'm sorry, I just... I didn't laugh at anything you said, it's something I remembered." Jasie said calmly and in a quiet manner. Jasie listened with great detail as Devilboy talked about his long ago love. "Ohh, I'm sorry... and I'm sorry for your loss! It seems like we both had problems in love. But I'm truly sorry that you lost her." Jasie said sincerely with sad eyes and hugged him tight. When Devilboy kissed her cheek and said your welcome, Jasie smiled and curled her face into his neck and hugged him tighter.

(Ok ^^)

Jasie heard the door looked over to the new comer. Jasie noticed she had a hood covering her and she seemed lost yet soemthing was troubling her. Jasie heard the girls stomach growl deeply with anger as if it hadn't been feed for days or so. Jasie longing to stay in Devilboy's arms for the rest of her life, and just feel his warmth radiatiting from his body, to her's. Jasie was fighting was she wanted, and the consern showing from her eyes, for this girl. Jasie looked at devilboy, and then at the girl. Jasie's eyes shifted to the floor and off in the distance somewhere with the look of worry.