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Shannon didnt accept the hand that Jack had extended. She really didnt want to be rude but then again she didnt want everyone treating her like they had treated Claire while she was pregnant. There was always someone around asking her how she was feeling, did she need anything, so on and so forth. Shannon didnt want that kind of attention. She stood up slowly and ran her hands down her tank top and skirt to straighten them out.

Just as she was about to walk out of the curtained off area she turned to Jack. "Jack, if you could just dont tell anyone about this. I dont need everyone on this damn island to know i'm pregnant." She took a pause and looked down at the ground. "You dont exactly get a medal for getting yourself knocked-up.." She said, her voice still quiet even though she felt like screaming every word she had just said.

Jack stood up and dusted off his knees. He looked up at Shannon as she spoke. The words that left her lips were so self degrading, Jack wondered how Shannon had ever found it in herself to say them. It broke his heart to hear her so upset with herself. Jack walked over to her and nodded.

"It's none of their business what's going on, Shannon. I'm sworn to secrecy, mum's the word," Jack said honestly.

He almost let her leave before stopping her. He wasn't about to let Shannon mentally kick herself for things that were beyond her control.

"Shannon, wait. You can't just go around antagonizing yourself. Sure, right now it might feel like you've made some horrible mistake that will ruin your life, but one day you'll look back on this and might realize that this was a blessing. You can't burden yourself by feeling like you're completely useless because you didn't think for a moment. It's not going to be easy for the next several months, but you're a strong woman and you have to know that I believe in you. You have to believe in yourself. I'm not going to tell anyone, but you know that eventually they're going to find out. You can't hide forever, Shannon. You're not just going to wake up tomorrow and realize this was all some nightmare. The others and I only want to help you. What is it that you don't want everyone else to know?" Jack asked.

The whole spiel had come out a little more pathetically than he had intended, but he hoped it would strike a chord with Shannon anyway.

Boone looked back towards where Shannon and Jack were alone. He still couldn't hear what they were saying and couldn't see them well enough. He sighed and rested hie head back.

Shannon was tired. Physically. Emotionally. Mentally. She just needed to sleep and to think. Just be alone for a while. She hadn't ever felt so empty at anytime. Shannon didnt think that it was possible since she was pregnant but it was her heart. She was just empty and tired. And angry. Almost as angry as she was tired.

Shannon took a deep breath and sobbed harder. She was tired of trying to be strong. She needed to cry. "What dont you understand about I dont need help, Jack?" Shannon asked hoarsly,not really meaning it to be a question. her eyes flutting closed but then open. She did need help but there wasnt any way she was going to say it. "I've made it this far on this ******** island and I dont need help now!"Shannon was still crying and she brushed her hair that was matted to he face away.

Shannon finally did wipe the tears away. She knew she should'nt have flew off like that. But she did have to admit that she felt much better. As awful as it sounded she did. She took another deep breath as she sat down with a thud on the plane seats.

"Jack, i'm sorry to yell like that but," She was sobbing harder and loudly again. "I just had to let it out. I cant do this. Not here. Especially not here." Shannon put her head down in her hands. Back in the 'real world' Shannnon could've given her baby away. But what would that have solved? She definitely couldnt live with herself then.

"I.."
Boone trid very hard to remember. He barely remembered his fall. He sighed and looked back to Charlie.
"A-All I can remember was him telling me..telling me that there was no survivors on our plane.."

Shannon sat there in silence for a moment trying to gather her thoughts and emotions. She felt an odd tugging that told her she should tell Jack the truth about the baby. She decided to start out by making one thinf clear.

"You know Boone's not my real brother. We're step siblings. My dad and his mom married when he was about ten and I had just turned eight.." Shannon stopped, thinking that Jack had already guessed what she was gonna say. If he did she just wanted him to get it over with. She expected something like, 'Wow Shannon youre a twisted little whore!' But then rethiniking it she expected herself to say something like that. She expected more of an uneasy, 'Go on..' from Jack.