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 Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 2:30 pm
Bastarache's smile remained as wide as his lips moved to bring his plague onto words;
"A lot." he chuckled, "I was given the gift of being among the angels... I didn't feel any pain, any guilt, any blame. All I could feel was, endless bliss." he chuckled again, but this time, it was bitter, "Then, I was given the gift of slaying the demon seed... Raven. I tried. Failed. She retaliated. Turned away from me, so I took my own life until she gave it to me again. And after that, the transformation began; we formed the blood cycle and became what I am as of now. Then, one night... she awakened, and let go of me." his smile faded momentarily to place a rather sad look onto his face, "She didn't love me anymore." he chuckled, the insanity returning to his eyes, "As you said... she doesn't love me. And you do..?"
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 2:36 pm
She noded at the explanation. Then, when he asked her the question, she looked up, her eyes wide. For a moment a flicker of emotion erupted in her eyes, the first time anyone had seen her eyes express anything but blankness. For the first time, she'd expressed fear. She felt her mouth open at the question. A nagging voice in her whispered, "Okami..don't forget what you promised, Lolita.."
She stood suddenly, not taking her eyes away from him. "I.." she stuttered, trying to get the words out, "I..I can't, Blue. It's been so long. So much has changed. I..'ve killed my own sister for him, Blue..I've murdered my own blood.." She knew he didn't know who 'he' was, but she couldn't bring herself to utter the word. She couldn't say his name.
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 2:44 pm
Bastarache smiled. His mind was now spreading the blood of his lost mind onto his pupils as they focused onto her; fully diabolical in his expression, there was also sincerity on his face.
"Why ask questions to which I already know the answers..?" he expressed, his fingers continuing their circular caresses on her neck. "The answer to the question I had asked; I had sensed that... someone was there for you. When I burned. When I died. But, I mourn for your loss. Deep inside, sadness grows from the seeds of yours." he closed his eyes as he inhaled a deep breath, catching her scent momentarily, "Enchanting. One blessed with such luck; to have such a diamond belong to him. I applaud his being. But why, then Lolita, why do you feel abandoned..? Alone..?"
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 2:49 pm
She looked down, still expressing no emotion. The fear was gone. She looked down, away from his questionint eyes. "He took his children away," she replied, her voice laiden with sorrow, "To Japan. He was supposed to call..But he never did. I'm alone right now.." She pushed his hand from her and turned, walking off of the pond.
She walked back into the woods, her cloak abruptly turning white as she did so. She didn't want to feel pain. It wasn't fair that she couldn't feel happines but could feel pain. None of this made snese. She refused to get attatched to Blue. Death followed him..she could feel it. Even though he was no longer human, the decay of his body was growing, and she couldn't ber to look at it anymore.
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 2:56 pm
Bastarache chuckled. He disappeared from the pond, only to re-appear on Lolita's left side.
"But who suffers so unjustly while those that sow in blood reap in joy?"
He then appeared on her right side, continuing, "Should faith not be placed in hope itself?"
He reappeared behind her, his hands finding her hair, "Why should such a burden rest on your shoulders, beautiful?"
He disappeared, only to appear in front of her; his smile had faded, and his expression was one that was still struggling.
"I know you do not wish my presence. All this time has passed, and still I make you cry. I know you cannot love me. I know you may not even wish to; for you feel that Death follows me." he smiled faintly, "If you wish to usher yourself away from my, then, Lolita, I take my bow."
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 3:00 pm
She looked down, avioding him yet again. She placed a hand on his shoulder and walked around him, "Leave me, Blue.." She replaced her hood and kept walking out of sight, deeper and deeper into the thick woods. She broke into a run. She had to get out..Somewhere. she reached the edge of the forest and steped into the sunlight, completely vanishing.
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 3:14 pm
Bastarache smiled. His eyes were soft; incredibly. He stared after her, his eyes scanning her steps.
"Wherever you go, may my protection rest with you. May you be a prey to no predator; a subject to no pain; one onto which no damage shall be done. Goodbye, Loli."
He turned away from her trail, and walked towards the other direction; his insane smile shining on his face; only this time, it was more controlled. He started to whistle a melody as he walked aimlessly in the woods, craving for a taste of blood. He pushed the hunger down and continued to whistle, while adding words to the song.
I am the tears in your mouth...
I am the weight on your shoulder
I am the scream that wants out
And my heart just couldn't grow colder...
Now this rusty heart is my gift...
This fallen love is my rift...
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 4:13 pm
Bits of conversation floated up to her as she floated in the air. She ignored them....it hurt too much.
She didn't know long she had been there, when she felt Lolita leave Blue. She sighed as she felt relief wash over her. Her cheeks were cold, from tears shed and she wiped them away and slowly floated to the ground, landing where she had first stood in front of the icy lake.
Her hair floated around her, as if blown by some unknown force. Her cheeks shimmered in the moonlight. She looked almost majestic...but sad. Blue was no where in sight and she didn't know if she was dissapointed or relieved...
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 4:20 pm
Bastarache appeared through the shadows of trees as he slowly walked over to the icy lake, his mouth still shaping the words of the song.
Tasting the tears in my mouth-
I'm sick of running away...
Taking the weight on my shoulders-
Along these bloody streets...
The hours and days of your life-
I'm sick of predators and prey...
Won't necessarily make you older-
Of being everybody's end.
He then fell into silence, sighting Raven. He smiled; his insanity was, once more, focusing onto her as he walked over to where she was and stood beside her.
"What brings you to this veil of tears, Raven?"
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 4:28 pm
Raven turned, slightly startled. She hadn't felt him come up, nor had she heard his singing.
Her eyes were a bit glazed over as she heard his question, then recognition followed.
"I cry for Loss...I cry for you..." she whispered, without thinking.
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 4:33 pm
Bastarache's smile grew furious underneath his upper lip, but yet, amusement was still in his mad eyes; they were almost glowing with intensity under the moonlight.
"You cry for me..? Why shed your tears over a heartless man when that man sheds none over you..? Why cry after ceasing to cradle me in your heart..? Why cry after stopping to love me..?" he chuckled, "Of all the people among this senseless tragedia, I was the only one that believed release would make you whole? Letting me go; 'for both of our good'? Then why cry over something that is not even lost; but vanished as if it had not been in the first place?"
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 5:10 pm
Sakura was silent the whole time, the shadowed branches hovering of her body, like rose thorns clutching onto her very soul, wondering if they would give her a seecond chance or not..Sakura didn't really care, for she is a sinner, different from Loli, Raven, and Blue. Those lavender orbs she has for eyes didn't watch them talk, no, her focus was more to her finger, which was bleeding slightly. Not frightened that her finger had a mere scratch, she was fasinated how the blood had a red color, like red petals, she felt bliss through her eyes. The black wings that seemed to be hidden in the dark fluttered ever-so gracefully as she placed the bledding finger in her mouth, sucking away her pain..and bliss. The white roses in her hair swayed silently, then her gaze went back to the others, noticing that she was forgotten. Forgotten..thats what she felt for all her years that she's been alive and when she was dead since angels are considered to be dead people. A light smirk covered her face as she thought of the word "Forgotten."
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Posted: Mon May 16, 2005 8:27 pm
Raven shook her head, silently wishing she hadn't said anything and turned back to the lake.
"I had planned to make you hate me...to make you forget me. I lied to you, I lied to myself. I thought if I made you believe I had forgotten my love for you, that I would be able to actually do it. I was wrong."
She swiveled around to face him.
"I have told you before Blue, I could never stop loving you." She closed her eyes. "I thought if you forgot me than you wouldn't hurt anymore. I am tired of hurting you Blue, I'm tired of hurting myself. I love you, I always will. How can I get rid of something that is so much a part of me?"
She shook her head again as she opened her eyes.
"I can't, but that doesn't matter anymore, does it? It's too late..." She felt a laugh bubble up and she laughed out loud, not caring anymore if he knew what she felt.
"What irony, eh? You...me, we are immortal..." She reached up and ran an icy hand across his face. "Time is all we have...and yet I feel that it is too late to change what I have done. I'm so sorry...you have no idea how sorry."
She turned away from him, surprised at her out burst. She had not been able to hide what she had hoped she would. She had let it all flood out before she had been able to stop it. She cursed herself for being weak. If she could have been darker, stronger...if she had stayed the way she was before, she would have never have to put either of them through it, but seeing him with Loli...
She stopped, cringing inwardly as she thought about her. The familiar scent of betrayal rose up and she felt sick to her stomach. He had kissed her before...Loli didn't even remember it was Raven that she betrayed. Her, Raven, Goddess how it still hurt, but Raven wouldn't hate her for it...she'd forgiven her already, but she'd never be able to forget...
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Posted: Tue May 17, 2005 5:39 am
Bastarache closed his eyes and smiled; this time, his smile was not of his vain thirst or madness.
It was a smile of understanding, of peace, of sharing.
"What if," he demanded, ", some things are destined to failure? And what if some things are never meant to be?" his eyes focused onto her; but his madness was momentarily pushed back by his care, "What if somehow... we are different?"
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Posted: Tue May 17, 2005 10:18 am
Raven turned back to face him, surprised to see the madness gone from his eyes. The smile on his face was one not characteristic of him, but one Raven had seen before...one she recognized. She couldn't help but return it.
"Are we different, Blue?"
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