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*shrugs* I'm pretty much just going with how I grew up knowing the terms. Oh well.

Eventually I'll have to list out a couple of my familiars or whatever, though, by now most of them are just friends that stay because they like me. But....there are a LOT of spirits and beings around me at all times so it could be a while before I get a small list of them together. sweatdrop

agreed. I propose we feed the topic some caffinenergy drinks!

But for now, nothing recently has happened.

mrr? well Cu's normally not around much, but she's been checking in on me everynow and then. nothing out of the ordinary over here.

... well apart from her random rants about her name now.. *rolls eyes*

hm.. well it's not common for guides and their guided to merge.. are you sure he hasn't just hidden himself in your mind/become internal?

Well heres my expierence with my familier, when I was four I remember a stick moving behind my bed, and hearing wispering and lacy wings flapping one night, my life goes horribly and I wake up realizing I was nothing to anybody and I was lucky to still have my head on my shoulders, then I take a leap into bellieving in this sorta thing, and thats when he comes along and tries introducing himself while I'm swamped and trying to fix my mind while speaking proper english, then I flip he uses tk, and I figure familiers are idiotic jerks who dont really know what there doing.

note to anyone into psychic expierence, anything that has a head has a brain and is therefor another pimple on the face of our concious race(s).

but maybe I'm just angry.

and as far as I think i know theres, Lear a tall angel guy who should leave me freakin alone annnd a shamen guy who dissapeared.

yeeeeeah thats great.

tell him I'm sorry and it wasnt a good time in my life, you know whith my life being an excuse and all rolleyes as well as the psychological detachment thing, great day for telelpathy isnt it? : )

1. I thought he was insulting me for like a month so i started making exceptions cause I couldnt take the heat.

2. since I thought he was insulting me I came to the conclusion he must not like me

3. I had alot of pressure coming from all areas of my life having someone hear my thoughts was not my highest priority, espiacally if they knew about my past that I wanted to get away from.

4. the information I was givin was incorrect, he said he was the only one around, now hes saying the moody guy (does he have a name? and whats he around for?) was there to, however hes still left out the tall angel, who also still remains nameless. stare

5. I didnt want to talk yet cause I wasnt ready, at all, I would like to get to know him but, first give me some evidence when your around, (so I dont have the unerving knowing that "uh oh what if someones listening eek " sorta thing that I greatly suffered from before) and secondly I would like to be there friends if its possible he'll (or they) will except an apology.

6. I dont think hes an ignorant moron niether do I think all familiers are, confused I wanted some mental space to chill out, recover from a few things, heal and get to know myself a bit more, not to mention just normal life stuff that I was busy with and start my life out someware new, not: "GOH AWAY FOREVER!!" although I was pretty exhausted from that whole sitchuation.

7. I called him an ignorant moron cause hed bin messing with my mind, and my will power, and who knows what else (I felt some pretty funny junk) after he deflated my willpower I literly started going crazy (like hilucinating and stuff) and plus I had to get up at 5:45 in the morning to do 8-9 hours manuel labour for about 2 1/2 more weeks in the back country to earn money, something I had never done in my life from my "excuse of a past" I CANNOT afford to have people that are here to "help me" make mistakes that could typicaly endanger my life, (I knew a kid on my own work crew that had his fingers cut off from not paying attention) this also proved he DID NOT know what he was doing.


I have lost alot of trust, hope, faith and bellief in myself, since this whole thing accured soo as far as doing anything psychic, doesnt sound to likely right now.

oh and one last thing: DONT MESS WITH MY WILL EVER! its what my entire system is practicly built on since I was isolated growing up for 12 YEARS

*sigh* Familiars appear when you need them the most, Enigma. They do not come when you do not need them - they come when you need them to guide you through your trials. Not whenever you decide you're good for them to come, they come when you need them.

Also you should learn the difference between your mind and their mind. Lear says his "password" so to speak with you was he would "wrap you in warmth". He said not once did he suddenly spring upon you. That time over MSN it was your panic that induced him to act, not his own preferences. The "shaman guy" agrees - Lear wrapped you in warmth when he was around or would leave a specific scent behind. [They're trying to get me to smell it but since they haven't named it yet, I refuse to smell it. I'm allergic to strong scents and would rather not have something like an asthma attack to aid you.]

*sighs* You really should know their names, each of them spoke them to you and presented themselves to you in a proper introduction. They said they did it while you were dreaming, thinking that would be the best way to speak to you that you would remember later.

You so owe me. -_- I hate having to hunt down and speak with other people's familiars/guides/what have you. xP I'll try to make it simple for you to understand, but keep this in mind - I understand a lot more about hardships than you seem to believe. After all, two of my familiars appeared when my sister was trying to kill me - and the first time I died for it. Granted, they guided me back into my body, but the point is - they still got me killed. I didn't boot them out of my life and insult them, etc., though. Instead, I got information on him and slowly came to trust him. Now, I wouldn't go anywhere without him.

To your comment of, "who also still remains nameless" it is not MY job to tell you who your familiars are, what they do, why they are there, or give you any help on them. Its your job to pay attention and take names when they are given. As to the angel guy...he hasn't introduced himself to anyone, and Lear was under the direct impression you wanted to know about who was your FAMILIAR. Not about watchers, nor guardians. He said there are very specific differences between them and if you ask about guides or familiars, he said that's what he'll tell you. Nothing more, nothing less. He says as far as that goes, he is the only one around. He says he is also the only one there to interact with you as a familiar or a friend. Gihead and Ranean want no contact with you unless absolutely necessary.

All right, onto your familiars that you seem to think hate you and mean you harm...

Name: Lear
Age: This one is a bit iffy. He comes off as appearing about 14 or 15, but his age is muuuuuuuch older. He feels...60-110. He's very wise, even if he does come off as childish and immature. He molds his personality to suit the level of the person he's with.
Appearance: Roughly 5'4", brown hair, blue eyes. Pale skin. He wears earth colored clothes - a tunic, leggings, boots and a jacket. He also appears to have a hat that he wears for special occasions. It looks like a "robin hood" hat.
Purpose: To guide you through your "psychological traumas" and to enable you to become a strong, trusting, and true person.
How he tells you he's around: A strong feeling of warmth wrapping around you, as if you were getting a biiiiiiiiiiig hug. Or, the scent of....some sort of flower. I still refuse to smell it.
Ways of Communication: He prefers dreams, but uses telepathy only when feels it is truly necessary or when the other person starts communication first. He says he'd rather not take a dive into the swirls of your mind unaccompanied or without permission as he'd rather not become crazy, so he fairly well steers clear of your mind until you speak to him first.
Special Note: He says he only listened once, and that was when I was there as well through the MSN conversation. Also, he says that day you were at work...he wasn't there. He was at home, with Gihead, discussing what to do since you clearly did not like them, nor trust them. Gihead agrees on this matter, as does Ranean, though Ranean agrees rather begrudgingly.

Name: Gihead MacDiarmid [Aha! No wonder I couldn't understand a bloody word he said - he speaks gaelic as his native tongue, english as his second. -_-]
Nickname you gave him: Shaman like guy [he's no shaman]
Age: Unknown. And I got a delightfully nasty look for asking. xD
Purpose: "To watch, to listen, to record." [His words, not mine.]
Ways of Communication: Emotions, when he feels them. He feels very...detached, withdrawn, dark...but he's not. He's kindhearted and caring, but his job dictates he have little to no actual communication. His job and his purpose with you is quite definetely to watch, to listen, and to record. He is a recordkeeper, but as a Watcher he will also step in when "the cords of Fate begin to wrongly twist", as he put it. He is definetely not there to aid or guide you and so would prefer to remain "out of the loop" in your future possible communications.
Special Note: He says he's not stepped a foot into your head and wouldn't without direct orders from his superiors. His job is, again, "to watch, to listen, and to record". [If he repeats it one more time, I'm decking him. -_-] He doesn't like Lear too much - says he doesn't like it when people can change so suddenly on him.

Name: [Since there's a long string of events with him just about the name, I'm just going to type you what happened, as it happens. This way, you know what he's like and why Lear excluded him.]

When I ask, he says, "That is none of your business. Nor is it hers if she hasn't the care to remember it nor learn it herself." So I ask again and I get a reaaaaaaaaaaally icy glare. On the third inquiry he glared at me, then slapped my astral self. [Sheesh, for an angel he sure isn't very nice. -_-] On the fourth inquiry...he growls at me, mutters under his breath, then leaves.

...five minutes later I've tracked him down a second time and he quite promptly slammed me into something on the astral. Dunno what it was, but it made my back hurt in real life, so it was something hard. He grabbed the neck of my shirt, and essentially told me to mind my own business, that I should not be involved with other people's familiars in such a manner, and that it is in no way my job to ensure that you know anything about him. I believe he also has an underlying fear I would then in turn use his name against him later, and so he refuses to give me his name willingly.

So I mutter something back and now have a name for you. And no, I won't tell you what he muttered or what I muttered.

His name is, Ranean ti'Narsun.

Nickname you gave him: "Angel guy" which he says he quite utterly despises. He dislikes human nicknames and pet names to the utmost. But, I'm calling him Ran for short. Much easier to pronounce and type. xD
Age: I get a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally mean look for asking. So he's OLD. Really old. xD *has now nicknamed him "Old Man Angel" and is getting some really mean glares each time but is making sure to say old man angel at least once every time she addresses him*
Appearance: Snow white skin, biiiiiiiig pale blue wings [so pale I thought they were white], blue eyes and....silver hair.
Purpose: To guard you. He wants no friendship nor affiliation with you besides protecting you. That is his job and his duty, he'll fulfill that and nothing else. He says, "Especially none of this silly familiar friendship Lear is talking about. He's a fool of an elf."
Special Notes: He's not exactly friendly. And he really hates the nickname Old Man Angel. A lot. xD

On a side note of my own: Lear has a really sweet, warm alto voice. It is young sounding, but you can feel the weight of the years as he speaks. Its sort of singsong sounding, as well. I like listening to him talk. xD Gihead has a gruff and deep sounding voice that reminds me of a grandfather. Ranean...doesn't really talk. But when he does he has a deep, singsong voice. If you hear those voices, separate from your own, in your head it is them. If not, its not them.

I hope that was helpful, but please Engima, next time ask them for who they are. I really do hate intervening in what you should be taught to do yourself. sweatdrop

If you'd like, I can also do a proper examination of the entities at your place, but I already have a feeling I won't like half of them.