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Raven smiled at her it felt nice being around other vampires though he was still getting over loseing his family the manor here felt like home walking with Aeris he asked "well who else is at the party i rather not get into a fight with Marcus if his here i think getting blood all over the ballroom would be rather rude dont you think" he said his smile becomeing more bloodthirsty as he felt the bloodlust rise once again closeing his eyes he took deep breaths i guess i not as calm as i thought i was he thought

Raven let her led him away he barely heard a word she said till she showed her neck to him with out another thought he lent froward and bit softly drinking shuddering he he kept going to he felt the bloodlust go down sighing he pulled back "thank you as i said before it would be really rude of me to start a fight so thank you for calming me down"

Sajuuk tightened his grip a little around Rose, all this taunting and teasing was getting to him just a little bit. he really should not be provoking all these reactions when his will was not the strongest. "Yes, Father really has had it bad for all this time. I am sure you would have at least heard of her and yes he does speak of all his wives fondly. Might be partly because they actually had the will to put up with him more than anything. Father has changed a great deal since I knew him as a boy. You would not have recognised him at all." Said Sajuuk. Those thoughts did take him back a little bit to the few times he spent with Shadow before everything went to hell. "I might very well talk to Cecilia about all of this once I find out where she stands on it all. I can always find a disinterested third party.... shame Nolaloth is elsewhere right now. he doe snot ever seem to care about anything of this sort." Said Sajuuk. he could feel Rose taking in his scent, her nose rubbing against his neck before nipping at it. At that point he wanted her to have just bitten in but now really was not the time for such a thing. he was using all of his strength to just hold back right now. Sajuuk moved back to her ear once more, "You also make me want to just surrender to desire, to lose control." Said Sajuuk. There was a lot of restraint in his voice at that moment, he was almost willing to just say screw it and go with the flow but there was still that side of him that cautioned against rash action. The old tales came to his mind, the warning of Lilith and the others, the reasons why their kind should never give into temptation and desire so easily.

Cecilia Sat down across from Selena, Uriel sat next to Selena, still clinging to her right now since she did not know what else to do. All of this would take quite a bit of explaining but first things first, "Thank you for the compliment. Your daughter has a nice selection and allowed me to wear this since I had no other clothing here despite my long term status here." Said Cecilia before moving on, "I was basically your husbands show Selena, I was right there, in front of you the entire time and you never noticed me. I have actually been here ever since Shadow came here. You must have seen his amulet form time to time yes?" Said Cecilia, hoping that Selena might make the connection there but that would only work if she knew about the Von Carstine secret of soul trapping. "Of course I have been wanting to see my daughter, it has been killing me to be away from her for so long but some things are infinity more complex than just... anything. When I was young, Shadow was young. We spent much time together conversing of things, many things. We were friends back then and spent much time in each others realms to learn but he eventually learnt of a few things about my family that were to neither of our likings. I asked for his help and well he accepted, letting me in on his family secret and using it to keep me safe." Said Cecilia. Uriel had never heard any of this before and so was somewhat confused. All she knew was that her mother had gone, ran off for no reason other than to pursue an impure union or something like that.

Sajuuk felt Rose walk away from him at this time and was thankful for that. he needed the time away form her right now to clear his head. "Sure, grab me some and I'll be out the front. Going to have a smoke." Said Sajuuk. he quickly walked out the room and out the front door, quickly lighting up his cigarette and taking long drags from it. When one finished he lit up another occasionally rubbing at his shoulders that now held a great deal of tension. he had to think about all of this in a clear manner and not just rush into anything. He had to discover if what he felt was nothing more than pure lust and desire or if there was actually something else there. he was now going to spend time thinking on that until Rose came to get him, then he would go back to the party. None of this was very easy for Sajuuk, he had too much in his head. The old clan stories, the taboo's, the laws, memories, everything. This was going to take a while.

Cecilia chuckled a little, "Yes, it was a very special gift. it was a gift from me that he altered in a way." she said and paused for a moment, "Well, we did not exactly fall in love as most people say it was something a little different. We were just close, very very close. Maybe we would have if things had been a little different you know and I was not under his constant protection." She let out a sigh, everything just got more complex as time went on. "All families do have their secrets, some worse than others really.I would never forgive my family for their secret and they will never stop hunting me. So I left with the Help of Shadow and they sent others out to find me. Shadow has killed many of my kind to keep me safe but he would never hurt my daughter who got roped into joining the search for me by Azreal. I just hope that I can still remain hidden, if Azreal finds me here then everything will fall apart and Shadow will leave his home to keep his word to me." Said Cecilia. All of this weighing upon her.

Sajuuk gave a little smile when Rose came out, he took the punch and sipped at it. His head was not really any clearer right now but he had relaxed a bit more. he listened to Rose, hearing her words. It might be a good idea for the two of them to get some distance from one another but the idea did unsettle him a little bit. While he had been trying to push her away he really did not want her to go too far away. Sajuuk moved closer to Rose, walking behind her, he put an arm around her waist and pulled her into him and rest his head on her shoulder. He had no idea why he did that but he did. "You want go to and visit the homeland? What brought this on?" He said. Sajuuk had a feeling as to why but just wanted to be sure. He took one last drag of his cigarette and tossed it. once done he put his another arm around Rose, "Sorry, you looked as if you might be a bit on the cold side." he said. Really, he was just testing how he felt, taking how he felt when she was this close into consideration, taking in her scent when he could with slow, long breaths. "What will you do in the homeland? Visit a friend, explore a little?" he asked.

"Well, it is nice to find someone who actually understands what I am going through even if it is just a little. You have no idea how hard it was for me to convince him to let me out and wander around, to meet people. Now I kind of know why he was always so hesitant. It really was too dangerous for me to be walking around here." Said Cecilia. She was happy to see her daughter and all but still very afraid of everything. "Thank you for the offer but I cannot allow you to do it. Shadow knows the pain of being on the run all the time, unable to settle down. This was his first home since he started to help me and I do not wish to spoil that for him or anyone else.... " She paused a moment. "I wonder where Azreal is, he normally never left Uriel's side. He sort of acted like a bigger brother to her." as soon as she finished Uriel spoke up, "He is away, far away with a funny dragon man. Gone to the sand to fight he who is sand." Said Uriel, it did not make terribly much sense but Cecilia managed to get the jist of it.

Sajuuk could not help but smile just a little bit. It was very thoughtful of her to do such a thing even though he would still rather have her closer by than their home realm. "Thank you for considering it. Though if you do go please do let me know before you leave so I can see you off." Said Sajuuk. He did not wish to say that he did not want her to be going so far away but he did not want to stop her. Maybe some time with her new found roots would be good for her to, she would need to understand then to understand herself more. he listened to everything else she had said and was very happy that she was beginning to understand what he was saying unlike the rest of the times they had spoken. For the first time he felt that she actually understood him and that was something he rarely got to experience. "I can see that you are taking all of this very seriously now." he said, holding her closer to him, tighter to him, "I figured you would be cold. You are a little under dressed after all." Sajuuk knew that Rose understood why he was close right now but he did like having the excuse for it. he did wish to say much more but now was hardly the time for such things. he wanted to warm her like she did him in so many ways but he still had to figure out what was just pure desire and what was not. he just stood there when she fell silent, holding her with his nose basically in her neck. "An maybe what?" he asked after a few moments of silence.

"I have seen you, known you for the same length of time Shadow has. I do know what you are like but neither of us would allow you to follow if we did run off. Shadow knows places to go that you would be unable to follow but unfortunately those places are where they reside, the things that I am running from." Said Cecilia. She really had no idea how to tell anyone that she was meant to be a sacrifice to a soul eating monster, the very ones that fought against the old gods as seen in Rosaline's vision. How could she say that the thing got so close to actually killing Shadow because of her and now he was questing to destroy possibly the last one with Thor, or would be doing such a thing after he had spent the quality time with his wife. "Yes, Shadow knows pain in many many ways. Maybe that is why he loved you so much. You could understand that part of him, that nomadic side, the vagabond that had wandered long and slept many years away. You were probably the only one that could." Said Cecilia without actually thinking. She covered her mouth, such things were often very touchy subjects around people. "Yes I do not need to worry right now, I am actually very thankful but he will be back unless he was to fall in combat." Said Cecilia. She did not exactly like the idea of Nolaloth and Azreal off in some other place fighting something with a name like he who is sand but it would give her some peace for a little while. Uriel looked to Selena and nodded, "Yes, the funny dragon man. He went away as a biiiiig dragon to help in a fight. Poor Nagash, his home being taken by evil people. nasty nasty evil people." Said Uriel, trying harder to get Selena to sort of understand what was going on with Azreal and that he would not be back for a very long time unless things rapidly changed.

"I will not stop you from doing what you think is right, regardless of my own personal feeling on this." Said Sajuuk, his words echoing Shadow's in a way, something he once said to a wife of his long long ago. They never understood those words that he spoke. They kept saying that yes he could stop them but that was not the point. Shadow was letting them make up their own minds and act as they wished to rather than have him dive in there, argue over their choice and try to convince them otherwise. "I always need a reason to hold you, be if the cold or because I want to, there will always be some reason behind it." he said simply, calmly, quietly. He ended to be this close right now in order to understand and if she chose to go then he would truly understand what it was to miss someone presence or if it was just the sensationalism causing these effects. "We will see if I do miss you if you go and if not I will still find my answers." Said Sajuuk, he had a little thought now, just a tiny idea. "Do you fancy a small walk through the gardens? the moon is full and they are very nice during this time. The party will be going on for quite a while after all." he was hoping that she would accept, get in some time before she left.

"Actually, yes that would stop you form following. trust me, Shadow had gotten very very good at avoiding all sorts of people." Said Cecilia, it was next to impossible to find Shadow when he was really trying to disappear and now Cecilia realised that she really had hit a nerve there with Selena. She may not have known it but Shadow did really love her, he understood part of him but not the rest and so he seemed to run around, having people accept parts of him rather than the whole being. "It would not be smart for us to travel right into the arms of our enemy but it is just an example of how we could have escaped without being traced, that is all." She stopped there. She did not want to think any more about what was after her and those that were risking their lives for her, including Selena's own son Marcus. Uriel took over for the moment, "I dunno what they look like, never saw, never saw. the younger you knows, she does." Said Uriel, She was getting it into her head that Selena and Rose where two different people but the fact they looked so alike was difficult for her. "Azreal will no be back for long time. Mummy safe from bad people now." Said Uriel.