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She said nothing, only stared down at the water. She'd give anything to see herself..To know what she looks like. She shut her eyes, ashamed to be part of something so dark. She was raised as a demon, and will forever stay a demon.

She stood finally through all of th outward silence and the screaming inside of her pearcing her heart. She walked out onto the water, her feet hidden by the cloak. She was obviously hovering because the water remained still. She then reached the canter f the pond. She bowed her head, still afraid to accept what she was.

((don't mean to be rude wonderland ^.^ Raven's just having a hard time))

"Loli," she said softly, "You don't have to be afraid of what you are. You have only to fear what you will become because of it. The latter is your choice."

Her eyes had followed the girl out to the middle of the lake and Raven felt pity for her. To be so young and so sweet...then to have your life changed. Raven had been what she was...always. She had never had a choice. She was dead and yet living, able to heal, to hurt...to love. Raven almost envied the girl. At least she knew what she was. Raven would never know.

She shook her head, still staring down at the water. Long moments passed, full of only silence. She finally looked up at him. "No," she said softly, "No, I want to see me. I am all I have, Blue. You have Raven..You can see her. What's to say that I am truely real? I can't see myself..I could..Never..See myself." She bowed her head again, this time releasing a solitary tear. The droplet fell into the water, creating a ripple. "Funny," she thought, "Even something so insignificant as a drop of water could affect a whole pond.."

She hend extended a hand, her pale, slender fingers griping onto is sleeve. She kept her head bowed, not wanting him to see her face. "Nlue," she asked innocently, "Why..am I so alone?"

Bastarache chuckled. His eyes turned to her, and yet, his focus was distracted by Sakura's words. He laughed; a cold laughter that eventually made the water grow colder than before, and then, he spoke, "You are quite the little push towards the light, aren't you, Sakura..?" he laughed again.

His eyes then turned to Lolita; filled with that sickening expression of his violence fetish producing amusement, "I have Raven..? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA that is the most amusing thing I heard. What I have, is a handful of nothing. The night, the loss, and the darkness. All melted into a twisted ceasar salad... and the main course, is always when all I have is all I have. You, on the other hand..." he chuckled, "You have shown progress by keeping your nose out of books and ignoring the ones that move their lips in rhtym." his voice lost it's amusement slightly, and then, became a bit more considerate, as he continued, "Count your blessings first. When it comes to the curses, be glad you can only count as much as your blessings." he chuckled again.

Raven looked up as Loli mentioned Blue having her. She shook her head.

"No, Loli. You are wrong. I am alone, Blue is alone... You, on the other hand, are not. You have more to live for than you think..." She was about to say something else, but changed her mind as she felt, for the first time in a while, a tear roll down her cheek.

She turned away from all three of them, but still listened as Sakura spoke and it was all Raven could do to keep herself from bursting. Sakura was right. For everything light there was a dark side and visa versa. If only Raven had learned that before she let darkness take over her completely...

Raven walked away, hid herself in the shadows and leaned up against a lifeless tree. Then she let the silent tears come, relief flooding through her. For once, she knew what she was feeling...because it was her that was feeing it.

Bastarache felt a slight pain disturb his everlasting smile. His face was clouded and his expression changed to one that was not the slightest bit amused. He disappeared and appeared in front of Lolita, blocking her way.

"My apologies." he said, his voice serious, and caring this time; not slighest bit amused, "Intentions hardly meet words, Lolita, they hardly do. My intent was not to repel you... My apologies." he chuckled, but it was very much like his old laughter; bitter and resentful, "I have broken you yet again, as you had dared me to." his eyes focused onto her, but yet, the amusement was no longer in them. A serious glare shattered on her hidden face, and it was also gentle... almost afflicted, "Why don't you share a few more minutes with me here by this sanctified pond..? The One Above the Clouds know that... I missed your presence."

Though, as her warm eyes watched Loli walk away, away from teh darkened forest, she felt like she was the only on that Blue hasn't brokened, since she has nothing to be ashamed of. Her gaxe then went towards at Raven and couldn't help but smile, tears, tears are somthing that is made of light. Today, she can feel that Raven has learned something, something very valuable.

"Blue, maybe i'm the enemy of dark..but..i could be the enemy of light as well, but, never judge a book by its cover..you may be disapointed" she said, over time, it seemed like Sakura become mature, but the only thing that was different from Sakura was that Feena was no longer part of Sakura.

Raven wiped her eyes as she felt the change of emotion in Blue, then in herself. Envy...jealousy...she pushed it away. She swallowed, forced it back down. She didn't want to feel that way anymore and even after what had happened earlier, she still couldn't rid herself of all of the "darkness" because he was still there...

She felt the pang of betrayel as she thought about Loli...and remembered.

"Goddess..."

She was going to lose him...again, but there was nothing she could do to change it. She wanted to save them both from pain, but instead she had hurt them both more. She got rid of who she was with Blue, but not how she felt. She made Blue what he was when he could have been an...angel. How much more pain was she going to cause others now that she realized how much she was capable of.

"None..." she said aloud. "Not anymore..."

She then spread her wings, as they seemed to groan in protest. Every muscle in her body ached.

"Goodbye." She whispered to the wind as she shot up into the night sky.