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 Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 9:42 pm
"Your heart is beating faster." Ariston said, confidently. "Isn't the movement of it effecting you at all?" A heart, being something bound to the body and soul, was a huge factor in the creation of the being. "You say 'What heart' as if it is an easy question to answer. I know you have told me that you are uneffected by other's emotions, but why don't you consider your own?"
He was starting to get flustered, only because he himself bathed in the idea of self emotion, and response from others. He was staring into the eyes of something who had never acknowledged such, to sit and preach obviously wasn't going to change anything.
"Do you want emotions?" He looked at her, suddenly interested. "You aren't blocking them for any reason, are you?"
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 9:51 pm
Heartless shrugged nonchalantly. Her eyes gazed into his with a hint of defiance in them. Not defying him, but defying her own thoughts. She was beginning to understand what was going on, but she was too stubborn to let little things like this change who she was or at least, who she thought she was.
Hesitating slightly before answering gave away her lie, "No. I have no reason to feel. It just causes problems." She had talked to soquili before, why was Ariston any different? He shouldn't be any different, but for some reason he is. What in the world was going on now?
The mare was beginning to feel uncomfortable, feeling that she was losing this debate. She didn't like the feeling at all, and it made her want to turn and run away from him. No, she couldn't show any weakness...
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 9:57 pm
"The problems you speak of are life itself. Are you saying you don't want struggle, friendship, happiness..." He trailed on, finishing with "..love." He wasn't one who was very found of any other love besides the unbounding love for himself, so he could easily relate in that sense. "That is a desicion that should take awhile to make, and it should be shrugged off, Heartless."
Shrugging here and there, he still wasn't sure if anything he was saying was truly making her think. In the end, that was what Ariston was pushing at. Heartless, being a confused Kalona herself, needed to stray away from the internal conflicts and let herself accept her being better. "How can any of this not matter to you?" He sighed a bit, feeling tired himself at the thought of it all.
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 10:06 pm
Heartless muttered, almost with a bitter tone, "Life is cruel." Shaking her head feeling disgusted, she spits at the ground as if to get rid of the taste of what she just said. What was he talking about, all of these happy things? What about the realities? The hardships and pain. "Love is pointless. It only brings disappointment." The mare paused, thinking about something, "Why are you trying so hard to convince me about this? I do not understand that, it should not matter to you how and what I do."
She seemed rather distant and cold at the moment. She wanted to run like she always did. Heartless felt walls closing in on her, and every moment was causing more tension in her.
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 10:24 pm
She was becoming more upset by the minute, and he was suprised at her reaction to the idea of life and love. The fact that she hated life and love in itself meant that she had an emotion towards both. "You know, your action as well as your words just expressed true emotions." He knew something like that might have freaked her out, but he couldn't resist pointing it out. "You literally just showed emotion, Heartless. Obviously, it is a bitter, cold hate, but that's a good step."
She was right, by Ariston's standards it shouldn't matter. Other's relations, besides some close comrads and friends of his, did not matter at all to him. He tried constantly to keep himself distant from the drama and mishaps. Heartless though, was not the same. Her current state of mind was something he was struggling with a bit ago in the sense of identity. If it were not for his friend Wrath, he would not have realized many things about himself. Ariston felt obligded to do the same for Heartless, just because of the slight connection he was feeling. "I just feel like helping, that's all. I felt the same internal conflict a few weeks ago."
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 10:42 pm
Pausing slightly, she hadn't thought of it that way before. She never thought her hatred could be interpreted as emotions. She didn't want to think that because it wasn't something she was ready to admit. Somewhere within her, she was beginning to feel a strong feeling of resent towards Ariston. She did not want to be wrong.
Her mind was swirling with various thoughts. Had she been lying to herself for all of these years? Was she just a fake? A liar?
Turning around it a swift movement, Heartless began to run. She couldn't face all of this, not right now. She didn't want to agree to anything he said, and the walls had gotten too close for her. She didn't want to feel like this anymore so she ran. She ran as fast as her legs could carry her.
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 11:31 pm
Remembering that Heartless was one who disliked flight, Ariston watched her as she darted away. He wasn't surprised, though at the same time he didn't think she would actually do it. Releasing his wings, he let them swiftly carry him up towards the sky and forward, in the direction to where Heartless was running. He was much faster by air then when he ran.
She was easy to spot, since for their entire discussion he was used to her figure now in the darkness. It stood out reletively easy, and he realized that she didn't blend in as easily as she wanted. It was probably because she wanted to blend in.
Once he was a slight step behind her, he continued watching her movments, wondering what was bothering her so badly.
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 11:36 pm
Feeling the wind billow through her single braid, Heartless continued to run until she reached the lake. She felt unusually exhausted and she lay down behind an abnormally large boulder within it's looming shadow. Shuddering slightly, the mare felt so vulnerable at the moment and she felt sick almost disgusted with herself.
She didn't want to think at the moment. Sighing, Heartless continued to lay there. She was sure that he wouldn't follow her.
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 11:44 pm
He watched her settle down behind a rock, and from the look of her eyes she hadn't noticed him yet. Her expression was emotional, which would explain why her body was so confused. The connection hadn't been made entirely, and Ariston was aware of this. He went through the same thing, and until one is able to move on, it is more painful then before ignoring emotions.
He landed at a spot towards the rock, and silently folding his wings back together, he walked towards Heartless. Looking at her in such a way, he realized what a fine creature she was, and how she deserved more credit for everything she did. Being a Kalona, she still was herself in a sense, not abiding by 'Kalona ways', and right away he was interested to know her from that. Most Kalonas he met dispuised him for not 'representing the blood'. He only wanted to know others who represented themselves.
Heartless was capable of such, she just needed a hand for now.
When he was extremely close to her, he put on of his wings almost barely on her back, and just stood there comfortly. He was quiet, only so she would be able to think to herself.
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 11:51 pm
Closing her eyes, Heartless sensed a soquili coming her way. Oh what now... She didn't even bother to look up. She kept her head down and her eyes closed not wanting to deal with anything. Maybe she'd wake up and then this would have all been a dream.
Feeling the wing on her back, Heartless whipped her head around and snapped at it. When she saw it was Ariston she just lowered her head, her eyes still glowering with a glint of distaste.
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Posted: Sat Mar 03, 2007 11:57 pm
Seeing her reaction, he decided to remain completely still, though looked away from her so his gaze wasn't disturbing hers.
"Heartless, are you alright?" He said, quietly. "I seem to have made you feel worse, and I am sorry." He remembered sulking, feeling worthless and untrue to himself. The daily criticisms as well as painful remarks from the other Soquili effected him badly in the beginning, until he found a way to shrug it all off.
He wished for Heartless to do the same.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 12:08 am
The kalona mare said nothing in return. She did not want Ariston to comfort her. She would get over this like nothing happened and would return to the way things were before. All of these silly complications were exactly the reason why she wanted to escape from this... emotion filled world. So... distasteful.
She was at a loss for words. What was she supposed to say to him now that she had already run away. Everything was so difficult now. How could she had left things to get this horrible?
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 8:56 am
Ariston stepped away and sat his body a few places behind her. The grass was soft, and he was starting to feel a bit tired, for it was very late in the night. He brought his gaze back on her, and sighed once again.
"Are you just going to sit there and sulk?" He didn't understand sulking or hiding, so watching her confused him very much. If she had realized that she was actually feeling emotions all of this time, he wasn't sure why she was so upset about it.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 9:03 am
Heartless turned to look at Ariston once more. "I do not want to feel. I don't understand why you want attention so much. Everybody just turns on you in the end. Nobody truly cares about you, so why put yourself in a position like that in the first place? That's how I see it. It's been a long time since I've felt this way, and I'm not quite sure why you, of all soquili, have made me like this. For all these years, I've kept silent, and now I can't even slip away into the shadows."
Sighing to herself, Heartless lay her head down on the ground. What a troublesome night...
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 9:08 am
He remained away from her, and shifted his gaze towards another area once again. "How do you know nobody truly cares about you? What am I, nothing to you?" He shook his head out of a dazed confusion. "I thought you might enjoy knowing that you are more then what you keep saying you are, Heartless. I can understand that having the strength to look past some things is hard to have, I wish I could lend some of mine. If others don't care about you, there is no reason to care about them."
To be hidden for so long, it was completely shocking to Ariston to do such a thing.
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