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This.Is.Hard.And.Men.Fail.To.Realize.That.

Seriously.

All I wanted was some dumb soup. Walmart didn't have it, the sub place didn't have it, Walgreens didn't have it. So, I didn't get it =(

I reaaaaaaaally wanted it, too.

I even called my mom to find out the name of the soup.

Well, so we bought a bunch of fruit snacks(I feel like Mike was getting upset about that. I mean yes, a box of fruit roll ups costs $2 or $3 but I really wanted it!). Now I feel icky.

My back is killing me. I streched my back by putting my arms into the air and leaning back and I hurt my tummy a little, which is now showing a little bit =D

So, I don't know. I am sore all over and all that's gonna help is a back massage but it's 2 am =(

http://www.babiesonline.com/articles/pregnancy/pregnancycramping.asp

It also could be round ligament pains, but when in doubt call your provider or call a nurseline to be sure.

Mike might be feeling a little underappreciated and stressed out. I'm not excusing at ALL what you're going through, hey, you're the one carrying the baby! Sometimes though, guys can get a little stressed out with all the babying. I know I had to tell myself to let my husband know how thankful and lucky I was. Sometimes with the high maintenance, it can take their toll. Maybe give him a day "off" so to speak while you go to get a massage! (Make sure to find a place certified in prenatal massage!)

With my last pregnancy, it was a LOT harder, but I had to stop myself from being overly needy. Not to say I didn't feel like s**t, but I know I hate it sometimes when my husband gets sick. The emotional rollercoasters don't help a crap either and I think guys underestimate too, that hormones totally reek havoc on us!

There are websites, books for expectant dads. Maybe look into a support group for him. He might just be overwhelmed and not understand what all is going on, physically and emotionally.

Hang in there!

That just wasn't fair! >.>

I hadn't eaten anything all day. The only thing I did eat was some ice cream and it came up about a minute later, no kidding.

So, after I puked up the vanilla icecream, I decided to take a nap from like, 3pm till about 6pm. Somewhere around 9pm, I decided I was ready to eat. I had already passed up a pizza that made me sick just smelling it. I actually had to ask Mike to leave the room while he ate it >.<

So yeah, I decided I wanted a Big Mac. And I really, really wanted it. So, I asked Mike and he said only if I came with >.>

It's so cold out and I'm exhausted as it is! It was probably about 10 degrees or less with wind chill. I begged him to go and he wouldn't.

So, I asked his friend if he would and I said I'd pay him $50(I really felt like I needed the dumb Big Mac)and he said he'd do it on his bike. That meant alot to me. Mike said no because he didn't want to pay him. So I asked Mike if he would go then and again, no.

I was pratically in tears around 12 am when I was feeling really weak and shaky. I woke him up and asked him to go to Taco Bell for me. Again, no. Hell, I was bauling before he got out of bed to help me look for food and I only asked him to help me because I was feeling so damn weak.

crying

I do not understand how he can go from being so sweet like lastnight to being so mean and not willing to get me something when I hadn't eaten a thing all day!

He may be having a hard time dealing with the sudden changes but I'm the one carrying this baby and worrying about if I'm eating enough and suffering through a headache!

I almost fell on the stairs eariler because I didn't step on a stair right. I stepped on the tip of it(where it goes downward onto the next step)and nearly fell backwards. I grabbed the wall so quickly. If he fell or even tripped, no big deal for him. Worst thing would be a bruise(there was only about three stairs from the landing and it's a big landing. Unless he or I fell and then rolled, we'd be okay, assuming that's how it happened)but I have to worry about so much >.< Only reason I was downstairs in the basement anyway was cuz I was hungry and when I'm hungry, I have a harder time sleeping. All I asked for was a stupid burger...

And what's worse is I called my mom today, twice, and she never called me back. I just wanna talk to my mommy and I can't call the house after 10pm because my grandma is working 90+hours a week and I can't wake her up. Although I don't know why they don't turn the phones off upstairs at night >.>

Sorry for the ranty thing, just stressed by everyone/thing.

Thanks^^ I'm feeling alot better and able to actually keep things down now, which I'm grateful for.

The reason I got upset was because McDonalds was way too far for me to walk. I got tired and exhausted from walking about three blocks, and it's at least 6 away.

Lately, I've just been asking him for something if he's already up and it's inside the house but I'm so exhausted that I can't walk all that far and his parents weren't available at 12am xP

I'm not eating that well because there's just nothing in this house that's either okay to eat(either it's someone else's food or I can't eat in for one reason or another). But I'm moving home in a month or so and my mom has promised to cook me whatever I want^_^ And she's been really great since we told her. She calls me every few days and asks me how I'm doing and tells me what I should be doing and eating. She's excited that I'm coming home.

Nope, I don't. And I don't have a car or money to pay for it.

Mike's working on getting his license, though.

And not to sound like a total b***h, or like I'm trying to gang up on you, but if you can't/won't get your licence, I'd start looking into finding people to drive you places if you ever have an emergency or need to get someplace asap. Your family, Mike's family, a close friend, another family member, etc. As Savina said, it's not practical to take a screaming baby on a bus if you need to get to the doctor or a hospital or something.

Well, I'm glad you've got people being supportive. That makes a HUGE difference. Since we're Navy and get moved against our will, I've got no family here and it makes things tough.

I want you to know that everything I say to you is intended to be helpful. I have your best interest at heart.

That said, since you're only 12 weeks pregnant, I think you should REALLY look into some student loans and try and get some basic college under your belt before the baby comes along.
It's fantastic that your family is so supportive, but there will be a point when you really need to get out on your own and pay all your own bills. You can't keep living under someone elses' roof if you really want to step up and be the totally responsible parents that you need to be.

I don't remember if you've been to the doctor or not yet, but if not, you need to go... NOW. I was as pregnant as you are when I found out, and they did some uber-tests because I was far enough along that stuff could have been way wrong by now.

Just take care of yourself.

Just checking in with you. Update, girlie.