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 Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 4:43 pm
Otto whined, his eyes squeezing shut as he shook his head. "They ain't just words." He insisted stubbornly. He didn't want to break the spiky shield he'd made between himself and the things he'd done. He didn't feel like himself anymore. But Ripley was right about one thing; just words or not, they did hold a lot of power.
Ripley was being so stubborn about this. The man did worry for him, in his own stone faced way. Otto tried to summon what semblance of courage or bravery he had to say what Ripley thought would be a good therapy exercise.
"...I had sex with a man.." He grumbled, muffled as he possibly could into a sleeve.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 4:44 pm
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 4:47 pm
"AUGH!" Otto griped from within his shell. "You never said I had to say it loud!" His voice cracked, as it was ought to do when he was overly upset over something.
"This is stupid." The ball of Otto wrapped tighter still.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 4:49 pm
"Say it." Ripley said again, his voice eternally calm.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 4:50 pm
"I hate you!" He whined some more.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 5:06 pm
"You usually do when you know I'm right." But he continued to stare expectantly.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 5:10 pm
"I had sex with a man! THERE! You happy?!" He still didn't look up from his delightful ball of shame.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 5:11 pm
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 5:30 pm
"Why!? It's not making me feel better about it!" He wasn't quite so mumbly or quiet anymore, his face reddening once more.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 5:37 pm
"You need to be able to say those words and feel fewer stigmas attached to them." Ripley insisted; a little misguided he might have been, but at least he believed in what he was saying. "You cheated on your girlfriend. That is the only thing you did wrong last night. It's not wrong that you were trashed, or that your partner was a man, or that you even liked it. The only thing you did wrong, and the only thing that needs apologizing for, and the only thing you should be uncomfortable with, is that you cheated." It wasn't often he spoke so much at once, but he felt it was important.
"So, say it again, and continue saying it to yourself until you realize the other partner's gender means nothing."
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 6:00 pm
Ripley was probably right. Probably. Yeah okay he was right. His ultimate point, that he'd cheated on those he loved, was what hurt a lot more. It hurt more now that he wasn't so focused on his unwanted personal discovery.
Otto's tight ball of shame started to loosen; high tension uncoiling in deflated upset.
"I had sex with a man." He repeated once more, miserably. "I cheated on the women I love." That point, he felt, was what he really ought to focus on. It was a lot more important.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 6:34 pm
"There. Now that you're beating yourself up about the right thing~" He pat Otto's shoulder, feeling honestly bad for Otto (while simultaneously being aww, baby's first mistake! in the back of his mind). "If there's anything I can do, let me know."
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 6:41 pm
Otto gave a mournful sigh. Baby's first BIG mistake, indeed.
"If there's anything you can do, let me know." He retorted with a huff.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 7:09 pm
"I object." Ripley frowned a bit. "I helped you find your real problem." Being stubborn was something he could do, and poor Otto had been quite the brunt of it.
"Aside from that. I have a lot of alcohol if it goes south." He said, completely serious and with a pointed look to one of his top shelves, which had a decent line of booze - mostly whiskey, really.
"Also, you smell like sweat, sex and self-imposed shame. I can tell you to go clean yourself up." He managed to stop himself just short of calling him a pervert for fun. But it was only barely. "Just like you can tell me to go with you, for company." He forgot to promise out loud that he wouldn't join, but it was there, silently.
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Posted: Sat Jan 03, 2015 7:37 pm
Ripley's sass made Otto groan. But it also helped ease him from his tensity for a bit. Talking really had made this easier. Tenya was right.
<> The weapon felt heeded, and respected. It had been a long time for her.
"Ugh.. no booze. Booze made this all happen to begin with." He grimaced, absolutely dreading another drop of alcohol.
Now that Ripley mentioned it, Otto could stand for a shower. Or two. He wanted to wash away the grime, and the night, off of his skin. A few layers deep. "No, that's okay." He replied seriously, moving to stand with a small wobble. "I'm okay to be by myself for now."
"You... kinda helped. I guess."
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