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these are some of the things that I was worried about, society is not always so accepting of certain factions that promot things that can be seen in negative way. There is little way to stop the actions taking place without just leaving. A movement such as you have started has brought about a massive structural shift in your schools system, people that support your actions will try to stand up for you while others will be too scared. and Of course there will also be a majority of people that will have a problem with it and then they will take the negative actions that they think are nessecary. There is no right thing to do at this point, I can't offer you any advice because you are in much deeper than I will ever be and you do live with diffrent circumstances.

As for victor, it seems as though he IS going a slight bit overboard, as though he thinks that because he has started something like this, that EVERYONE is ok with it. Homophobic people do not care about us as human beings soometimes and our actions as exersising freedoms can and usually is taken out as a strike against the boundries of right and wrong, though loving a person, not a sex is not wrong, They have been taught that it is and then we become considered wrong all the time, human civil liberties are taken away from the gay community because some man, hundreds of years ago made it that religion is against homosexuality, though from all seeming points, that is not true.

You're making me nervous? Why do you doubt yourself?
It sounds like you aren't safe the way things are at all. I can understand fearing for your safety. But I don't understand being afraid to get people in trouble who deserve what they get.

I do remember. I remember I didn't care. People dumb enough to believe rumors never concerned me. I remember I was out, and when I heard them whisper "he's gay", I got in their faces. "What of it?" and( to boys) "Don't worry, I won't hit on you. I have good taste in men."
I can see it's a little different for you. But... are you violent? Do you think people will believe you attacked someone?


Now THAT is dangerous, and, in my opinion, foolish. It will only get worse. If you don't protect yourself, how can anyone in this group you're forming feel safe?

Just be careful. And don't think it's not a big deal, it IS. What you're doing always is. If you feel you're being mistreated, there are bigger names than teachers to turn to. Why don't you write the ACLU and ask for resources and advice on your situation?

Am I violent? Well this is confusing.

Im not physically violent. I dont start fights but if someone starts one with me, I cant walk away. My step dad raised me as a boy and it was, 'Ill whip your a** if you get your a** kicked by anyone, older or not.' in my house. o.o;

Now, am I of a violent mind? Yes. In the entirety. I am fascinated not only by the psychological horror movies but the gorey ones. I have always been obsessed with death and anything related. Vampires, ghosts, ghouls and the whatnot.

Sitting in the doctors office for an hour alone, I ended up with a song about cannabilism. ^^; Serial killers, as despicable as they are, are the most fascinating things. Violence, honestly, enthralls me.

I NEVER act out on my thoughts. As much as I would like to see the jerks at school dead its not my place to pass their Final Judgement because they are human beings too.

A couple of times that girls have went, 'Its ok if you like girls, just dont hit on me' Ive replied with, 'Dont worry, I think you're disgusting repulsive and unatractive.' ^^; They werent cute by my standards...

Its not that I care about what the rumors say, I care about what people say to my face. I cant stand up in class and tell them to shut up when they're sitting on the other side of the room talking about me.

Heres an example; theres a kid at my school who's always being harassed. Its gotten so bad sometimes that he has yelled at them to stop and then the teacher yells at the kid being harrassed! He cant confront them or say anything because the guys doing it are sports team members, 'good' students, and always deny it. This happens at least once a week.

Those are the same people harrassing me. You just simply cannot complain against the teachers pets, sport players, and 'good' students who then talk about the teachers behind their backs.

People will believe that I attacked someone no matter what. I do not look violent but Im quiet and I carry that aura of 'Dont ******** with me because Ill ******** back with you.' Excuse the crude language. It honestly doesnt matter that I look and act like everyone else on the outside, except a little more disheveled.

On a side note; grandmas been telling me to ignore the jerks since..kindergarden? I think that was the first time someone shoved me around at school. XD Ill have to tell grandma shes wrong.

Silly, theres nothing to be sorry about. It hasnt gotten worse, Ive just become more aware of the situation then I had when I was all happy and hopeful. Im just looking at it seriously and stating my concerns.

Ill be careful as always. ^^ Thank you guys so much for your support and guidance. Your concern reminds me when Im upset to not start anything. Ill keep ya updated. ^^

Question; Would wearing handmade shirts supporting my cause be too much trouble?

I could paint a target on my back..! Or..shoulders?