'Yes she did..' Sohalia assented to that. The leg was bound well, but even that wouldn't prevent her from feeling pain if she caught the leg in the wrong way, and her hurried attempt to stand had definately been the wrong way.
She sniffed the air delicately, now that she was settled again and not planning on moving, she could better take in her surroundings and work out what was bugging her. She inhaled the air next to her, and in the dried grass, her ears flicking and then she shot Majesty a look.
'Did you sleep next to me?' she asked, giving him a searching look and ignoring the food he'd bought over for the moment.
Teh Roarie
Sohalia has already had a breeding once though - has Majesty? I forget now XD
Posted: Fri Jun 21, 2013 1:32 pm
When she ignored the basket he wondered for a moment and then went back to eating. But her question made his ears swivel and he colored slightly under his furred cheeks. "You shivered." He said flatly and proceeded to ignore her with another apple.
CitrusCupcake
Yes actually. He's a grandpa now, though he doesn't know it. His wayward son had baskets not that long ago. And the son I own is lifemated and trying for baskets.
'A fine excuse I am sure.' Sohalia replied slightly primly, but she was feeling comfortable, warm and in a better mood after the long sleep, and so her tone wasn't as cold.
She shifted from her spot, and snagged an apple with her teeth, tucking it between her two front legs, and snicking the skin with the edge of a couple of her upper teeth, peeling a long strip from it and chewing on the apple skin. She did that until the apple was completely peeled, and sucked at the apple flesh, the juice helping her thirst a bit.
The mare licked the sticky apple juice from her legs and then looked over at Majesty again after she had relaxed back into the hay.
'So what do you expect from me? I will admit that physically you are not unattractive, but if sleeping next to me was a way of trying to get close..' she shut her eyes for a moment and then opened them again. She was in a reflective mood, though she wasn't sure how long it would last.
'I am unsure if there is any me left to find beyond the walls I put up.'
Teh Roarie
Ahh cool - okay then, so 4 breedings ninja hehe
Posted: Fri Jun 21, 2013 2:19 pm
He huffed and shifted uncomfortably. She thought he was trying to flirt or come on to her. Tree bark would be less abrasive and probably scratch itches better. He munched on his apples in forced silence for a few more moments and then turned to frown at her. He was not one to respond with vehemence but she just seemed to able to bring it out. "Why thank you for the compliment." He snapped. "I want nothing from you. The last female in my life upturned my happy little world, took away one of my children, crushed my heart and made me fear magic. You want to talk about walls?" He snorted at her and then wondered if he should just pick up his basket and eat elsewhere.
'Then why did you help me?' Sohalia retorted. He was infuriating, did he want her to continue to be in the same mood as she was when they had first met? He hadn't seemed to like it then, but now it seemed as though he was being purposefully cruel.
'Okay. You want to play that game do you?' her tail swished in the grass, the dried strands tangling in the long, wavy hairs that were spread out around her hindlegs.
'My father killed my mother. It took me a long time to trust any male at all. I did eventually, I thought I was happy, and he left me.' she said, her eyes looking into the distance as she spoke. Her father had not literally killed her mother, but in acting out of rage he had caused her death, and so Sohalia would ever call him 'murderer'.
'And do you know why my so-called father did what he did? He was obsessively controlling and possessive and my mother gave aid to a human, which was forbidden by the herd my parents were with at the time. So she was punished.'
There. She'd laid bare most of what was behind her cold demeanour, and her fear of human, and human villages. Sohalia kept thinking she had fled her past when she was very young, but it did seem to keep haunting her. Though this time she had bought it on herself, out of some need to show that there were reasons for why she was how she was.
Teh Roarie
Posted: Fri Jun 21, 2013 3:10 pm
His ears laid flat on his head. She thought he'd helped her so she'd like him. He wasn't stupid. He knew she didn't like him and hadn't from the start. And she didn't have to. When she was healed she could go and he wouldn't have to care. "I helped you because it was the right thing to do. Forgive me for not being some unicorn that could have just healed you and left you to your own devices."
But then her story unraveled out of her mouth as if unbidden. He wondered what key he'd accidentally turned. He actions, demure and responses made a lot more sense now. But it still did not excuse her. He was proof that one could go through hell and still be warm and friendly...at least most of the time. "This is not a game Sohalia. We all have things that hurt us. We choose how we react to it. Apparently your way is to be a hunk of solid Ice. How healthy is that and how far has it gotten you?"
He took a few steps back and then stood tall and let himself remember the mare and all the horrible things she'd cause. "My mare was beautiful. I practically fell in love with her from the very first moment. And that was my first mistake. My second was taking her home here with me. She made me so happy and the villagers liked her. When she became pregnant I was ecstatic but she didn't seem so pleased. She grew more distressed as the pregnancy progressed so that the night she was to birth she disappeared with the baskets there where to house our young. I went looking for her and I found her birthed and chained by a voodoo shaman woman. The shaman stuck me and tied me in vines and then proceeded to call me all manor of stupid for giving my mare the very object the shamaness wanted. She took away the mare and one of my baskets. To this day I do not know where they are or the gender of my own foal. I have problems with the son I was left with because of how long it took me to get over the hurt and betrayal. He was basically raised by the villagers and not me."
'I would not let you even if you were.' Sohalia shot back. She had not let a pure unicorn near her in all those years since fleeing from her birth home, and had never used her own healing gift. She wasn't even sure she could anymore.
'Being that way is all that has stopped me getting hurt again.' she said, though because the ice was a front, his tone and words were starting to hurt her and she turned her head away and down, her long mane falling down in a curtain to hide the pain she was feeling, inside and out.
She managed to gather herself enough to raise her head again after a few moments, though much of the fight had clearly gone out of her.
'Yes. That was horrible. You've suffered as well. But your way of reacting to it seems to have been to treat every single mare as if she were your mate. Tell me truthfully, if you were now happy with her, instead of alone and bitter, would you not treat me as I am, wounded and scared, instead of losing your patience with me?' she looked at him, straight in the eyes, her heart laid bear before him.
He had after all, dragged her to this strange place, full of the very people she had done her best to avoid over the years, expecting her to get over a deep-seated fear in moments. How had he expected her to react? Maybe she could have made things easier, but he was not blameless either.
Teh Roarie
Posted: Tue Jun 25, 2013 8:58 pm
His eyes flashed fury. The first he'd felt in a very, very long time. Even after his mate had betrayed him, he'd felt only depression and fear. Now he was angry. He couldn't remember the last time he'd been this angry...well actually he could but it had been over a year ago when his own son had thrown an apology in his face. "If you think that's how I treat my mate then your absolutely bonkers. Maybe you're not used to stallions who treat mares like ladies but that's what I was taught and what I've stood for doing my entire life. I helped you because you were a Lady in need. I continue to help you because you're a Lady in need. But I don't have to like you. And in fact I don't really. I find your abrasive exterior more than distasteful. But I chose to pull you out of the ice and you made me promise not to leave you alone with the humans. Want me to go back on that now? I'll more than happily do what I normally do on most days." He stamped his front hoof down hard and huffed. "I do feel for you being alone and scared and injured but your refusal to be grateful grates on me. I have no doubt something would have smelled the blood and come along to eat you. Here your are safe but scared and on edge. There you are dead. For me the choice seems simple." He snorted at her. "You can leave whenever you want. Neither I, nor the villagers will stop you."
CitrusCupCake
I just...o-o...do you know how hard it is to get that much emotion out of that horse?
'I did not say that. I asked, if you were happy and had not gone through what you have done, would you still treat me the same way?' Sohalia asked, looking up at the stallion. His anger was nothing really, not if she compared it to what she had experienced already in her life. It was the only way she could take what he was saying, by comparing it, telling herself that she had coped with worse.
'You may think you have attempted to treat me like a lady, but only because you have a picture of what a 'lady' is meant to be in your head. I have acted as myself, and all you have done is abuse me because of that. I am sorry that I did not live up to your expectations, that I did not kiss your hooves in swooning gratitude.' she paused for a moment, the exchange was using what energy her sleep had replaced, but it was draining to speak so much after so long a time alone.
'You helped me because you wanted to. Stop trying to turn it around to be all my fault. I have gratitude, I can express it, but why should I when you demand it of me?' she asked, weary now, feeling that she was on the verge of frustrated tears, which was annoying her as well.
'I am grateful for your..the woman. Her skills. I give that freely because she has not asked it of me.'
She looked directly at him again. 'You do that. You go back on your promise. Leave me here when it has been the only thing I have asked of you. Then I would know what kind of a stallion you were. You would be the same as any other I have known. Promise the world and then take it away when the going isn't as sweet as you would like.'
Sohalia shut her eyes then, trembling, eyes wet with tears. She did not know why she kept trying with this stallion. He surely hated her. And she wasn't sure why she cared that he couldn't see what was hidden. It felt like her last chance, to attempt to pull herself back into the world, and let something, someone, scale her walls.
Teh Roarie
She touched a nerve XD But really, she does feel he's projecting his issues on her hehe
Posted: Wed Jul 24, 2013 8:50 pm
His ears swiveled as he listened to her whine. She didn't get it, she apsolutely didn't get it at all and this made some of the anger seep out of him. He huffed and perserved to try again. "Even if I was happy, my mate and sons were here with me and the world was rainbows, you would still irritate me." He cocked his head as the rest of the anger dissipated. "I also still would have helped you and dragged you back here. Yes it would have been my mate to keep you warm last night but I believe we'd still be having this argument and I'd still think you amazing ungrateful and carved out of a glacier. I think, madame, that you've never been treated like a Lady. If you treat everyone as you do me, then you've certainly gotten a lot of irked and gruff out of life."
His ears twitched breifly as she expressed gratitude for the medicine woman but he didn't comment. He did however chalk it up as one meager victory.
She was projecting someone else on him. He cocked his head to other side as she impassionately described a stallion that certainly wasn't him. He'd never promised anything he couldn't deliver in any small amount of time. He watched quietly as she visibly shut down and shut him out. She really was tired, and he felt for her...but he did need her to understand their current relationship. His voice was quiet and gentle as he asked, "Is that what you want Sohalia? Do you want me to be sweet and give you the world?" He shook his head and wuffled softly, he continued in the same quiet and gentle voice. "People and Soquili are like snowflakes. Expecting one to be exactly like another is impossible. I am not those who broke your heart, nor do I wish to be."
'But you are..' Sohalia said, her eyes opening again, her voice cracking.
'You are being cruel, and hurtful..and hateful to me. So I was rude, so I was abrupt and didn't want your help. You. Were. A. Stranger.' she said the words clearly, carefully, though her soul was feeling battered by this point. Was she arguing with him or convincing herself that she was worth attention, worth being treated better than he was doing right then?
'You dragged me to a place I didn't want to go, a place full of those I quite clearly told you and showed you that I feared. But still you took me here. You did not once seem to appreciate that I was injured, that I was scared and how that would affect my state of mind. You talk to me again and again about how I am acting, and not once have you stopped and looked at yourself.' she let out a shuddering sigh.
'How do you expect me to be when you constantly tell me how awful I am? Am I supposed to thank you for that? Because all you have made me do is cry..I already hated myself. You never needed to help me do that.'
Teh Roarie
=P
Posted: Sun Jan 12, 2014 4:29 pm
He blinked quietly and listened. She was still projecting but since it was now closer to him and how she felt about the current situation, he would tolerate it. "I do not believe I said I hated you. What I actually believe is that under your hard layers is a mare of worth. But you are afraid of her so you put up walls."
He sighed and shook his head. "I'm aware you are afraid of this place. But if you want to get better you're going to have to stay here and heal. These are my friends and they will not hurt you. But if the so much as try they will see my hoof and they know it." She seemed to think him an awful, stubborn and pushy mule. "If you think I have been acting poorly I can apologize."
She looked broken and not just her foot so he decided to quit the argument. "You need sleep. I can get some herbs from the healer to help you sleep."
'No you never said those exact words. But everything else you have articulated hasn't shown that you think well of me.' Sohalia replied, her voice as low as her energy and spirits.
'If you believe that..I don't know. Maybe..I have three beautiful children, I must have done something right at some point. For a short time..' her voice tailed off, and she laid back, a tired feeling sweeping over her again even though she'd not long been awake.
'I accept..and I..' she swallowed thickly, about to do something she so rarely did, but she didn't have the energy to stay cold and angry. 'I am also sorry for my behaviour also. You have..opened your home to me, and I am thankful for the attention to my injury.'
She nodded at the suggestion, and tried to get comfortable again, moving her dressed hoof carefully as she did so. 'I think I will be able to sleep without that..please stay with me again though.' she asked.
Teh Roarie
Posted: Thu Jan 16, 2014 9:53 pm
Maj's brows winged in surprise. The ice queen was melting? What a turn! Not only had he somehow by some miracle gotten through to her but she'd apologized. He blinked a few times but quickly schooled his expression. "I am sorry Sohalia that my assistance has cost you. Perhaps if another had come along it would have been different. But you are here now and I will try to take care of you."
Quietly he stepped forward to be closer. He knew she probably did not want him to touch her but she didn't appear to like him all that far away either. "I am here and I will remain right here. Sleep please."
CitrusCupcake
Time skip? Or wake the next day? Or what? Your call.
She was very aware that her actions presented a conundrum to the stallion; she had wanted nothing to do with him the entire time and actively wished herself elsewhere, yet the thought of him leaving her side made her feel panicky.
'I don't think so. My state of mind..it wouldn't have mattered who had come along.' she admitted, her head now nestled in the hay, her eyes half-lidded as she slowly slid into a state of sleep.
The hours crept by, and at one point Sohalia jerked awake suddenly, her heart pounding in her chest, startled by something, a noise maybe. She couldn't work out what had caused it, and Majesty was still there, a comforting presence in the dark, and the sound of his even breathing eventually lulled her back to sleep.
The next time the mare awoke and was aware of what was going on it was clearly morning, the shelter was bathed in the morning sun and she could hear the distant sounds of birdsong. She swallowed, realising her thirst, and began to move, trying to get to her hooves, although she had little idea of where and how far she was from a source of drinking water.
