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 Posted: Mon Jun 19, 2006 7:14 pm
Left Behind
In a small room, that seemed to be set away from the little inn it was a part of with its stone walls and open window. With it's old bookshelf full of dusty books and a wooden work table full of bottles and herbs stood a little girl. That little girl was standing upon a wooden stool, with her brow wrinkled as she scribbled diagrams and equations in a shiny blue notebook wtih an old fashion quill pen. Every once it a while she stopped looking over the bottles and dusts that laid before her. After much writing, she finally closed the book and hopped down from the stool. Brushing the imaginary dust from her apron and skirt absently before leaving the small workroom.
Cinderella Winters pattered down the hallway leading away from her mother's workroom. She was not yet allowed to have a workroom of her own, not that she minded. It was quite convient for her right now to share with Kara. As she walked down into the dining area which was open to not only the family, but the the weary travellers she noticed there was a great deal of activity going on. This peaked her interest for there was never a great deal of activity going on unless either they had recieved another sibling, something special happened to a sibling or one of the siblings had gain a growth spurt.
"What's going on?" Cindy asked the nearest sibling.
Perhaps it was another sibling, it had been a long time since they had recieved another brother or sister. Who was the last one? Helen wasn't it? It had been over a month since Helen arrived and most of them had arrived within a span of a week or two apart.
It was Trisha that would answer Cindy's question, "See for yourself, Triton grew!"
Again? Cindy poked her head in, and sure enough a fully grown adult Triton stood before their mother. Their mother... she looked so small compared to Triton's tall frame and strong built. In that moment, Cindy's heart fell. Her younger brother, was all grown up. Though in truth she and Triton where always the two oldest, but when Triton's growth lagged it was believed that she would become an adult before him. Alas, that was not to be the case. Triton was now grown and ready to take on the world as a man not a boy, and here she was still a girl child... not even a blossoming girl, but a child.
There was bitterness in that thought, one that Cindy tried to squashed, but in the end it wasn't quite fair now was it? How long ago was it? Not that long at all....
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Posted: Tue Jul 11, 2006 1:50 pm
July 11th, 2006 Lady at Market
I was finally let to do something kind of all grown up, well it was pretty grown up if you ask me. The nearest town has this huge market about once every week, and I begged mom to let me go and set up a stall. After all what's the point of being able to make potions if I couldn't practice by selling them to people. I only did the basic, no offensive potions though, it probably wouldn't be a good idea to sell them to people.
The most interesting thing though was this lady that was at market. She looked kind of strange, well to everyone else. I think that's normal though, I think.... All I know is that she practices some type of magic, and she also knows a lot about potions and stuffs like that. The best part is....
She didn't treat me like a kid, but like a student, an older student.
She asked me what I had, and how long I've been learning and we talked about all kinds of stuff dealing with magic and potions.
She told me that some people found a way to summon using potions by turning what is left of the body, which has the spirit binded into it into a liquid. It sounds like a neat idea, but I feel kind of sorry for the spirits. It's bad enough you die or you finally find peace in dying, but then you're forced to stick around you know? Maybe I think that way because of what I see with Mommy and Asia. Asia's a spirit, but she wants to stay with Mommy.
There is more ways to bond to another creature I think, it is something interesting I would like to know more about that. Though there is more ways to summon, I guess my more curious question is that even strong? What is stronger? Using a potion to doing it a summoner's way through bonding? Then again there is more than one way to bond.
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Posted: Wed Aug 23, 2006 11:52 am
August 23th, 2006 Spirit Within
I think.... I'm finally getting this whole, old, but not really looking old thing. Before, I would talk and write as if I was a little kid, even though I knew better. I guess, somewhere along the lines I became confused about who and what I was. At the inn the lady returned, her name is Krystic, I remember her... I think... I might have written about her when I was little.
When I was little a lady who could not see and a man who had wings much larger than mine came into the inn. They were amazing, it was probably the busiest night at the inn ever. Even though she could not see, I think she saw a lot more than people realize, because she saw me. Not me as in the little me, she knew I was much older, and only saw that part of me.
I've never told anyone, how I really felt about being small. I mean, it isn't easy. Look at Triton, my little brother an adult and now a father and probably on his way to being a great fighter. Nevermind... how close he's become to his friends at school. Krysitc told me that physical appearance didn't manner, that I had an old spirit, and because I've been around longer, it is my experience that matters most. That my siblings should respect me for that experience, but when I thought about it carefully now. My siblings have never treated me anything less than with respect. Mommy has never treated me like a child since Triton had grown up.
As silly as it sounds, it is me, who has been holding myself back. With the way I talk, the way I write, this is the first time I've written anything as an adult. The hardest part is though is to prove that I am old on the inside. Krystic suggests to prove to others exactly what I am capable.
You know what?
She's right, I should start proving to others and myself I am much older than I look. I am going to start by trying to make myself useful. No more dwelling on what I should be, but on what I could be.
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2006 2:28 pm
Sept 24th, 2006 Like Cinderella
Since I'm going to deal with the fact I'm just a young woman stuck in the body of a child, I figured I might as well show that I'm somewhat older. At least that is my reasoning, which is why I thought to clean up my room and replace a few things. Like perhaps putting my own worktable into my room so I don't have to always use Mommy's. After all it is originally her workroom and even Yue and Yukito work their magicks in their rooms. It's actually quite interesting to see, Yukito has this special globe so he can see the stars no matter what, and Yue has this pretty wand that's actually made out of bone and glass.
Though I'm not quite sure what to put in my room, besides the worktable I mean. I've been to the rooms of all my other siblings, everything to the very uniform and blue Mia, to the misty and surreal Helen's. Everyone's room is like their own little world, like my room has always been focused on the stars and the sky. They say it's because I take the name of this one Cinderella, who had a prince she met with the help of her fairygod mother and the prince married her and took her far away from her evil step mother and step sisters. I don't know why a step mother would be evil... like I guess Mommy is kind of like a step mother because she's not my Mommy through blood.
I remember... taking the book out that I was given as a gift and reading it. You know.... I'm not sure I like the story so much, because... Cinderella never really fought back, if the prince never found her, if it weren't for her mice, she would still be locked up in her room. I remember once, when I visited the school, to come upon something called a radio, and there were songs playing on it. There was this one song.. that I thought fitted just me...
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2006 2:39 pm
Like Cinderella
The song from the radio by Tata Young
When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory
I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself
Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and
mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't
need nobody taking care of me
I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for
me
When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself
I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 1:54 pm
Dec 10th, 2006 How The Time Goes By
Time... I think has a way of slipping by you without you realizing it after a while. Though I suppose, it's better late than never to be writing, besides I have so much to write!
Like the fact that Triton met this elf girl who now goes to the school that Mommy teaches! Her name is Elnara, she's quite nice actually and very very curious. I should know I'm teaching her. Now how strange is that?
Me... the child-like sister, teaching, for the first time I feel like an adult.
Though dear me, I think we confused her a bit what with Triton being barely a year old and me the eldest so much shorter and younger looking than him. But she doesn't seem to mind learning from me, I think it's because she's an elf and is use to people stop aging, at least that's what Triton says. The whole teaching idea was Yukito's, it seems because of the uniqueness of Elnara's abilites ( and the fact she can heal) Kara assigned her to be Yuki's student, which kind of puts Yuki in a new situtation too. In turn, Yuki had me teach her a bit about making all those balms and stuff I do for the school.
That's right, since Mommy figured I should be doing something to make myself useful, she has hired me to make the balms and potions for the school. I get paid, kind of cool huh? I feel kind of more grown up now that I'm given real things to do, it's a relief really. Now if only I can deal with the fact I'm so short.
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Posted: Sun Jan 28, 2007 1:29 pm
Jan 28th, 2007 A Land From Which Our Sister Came
There has been a lot of chaos going on at home, and it all goes around our sister, Elnara. That is right Elnara is now our sister, I don't know the full details because no one is talking not even Nina who normally always rambles like there's no tomorrow. All I know is that something happened and Mommy turned around and adopted Elnara.
Not that I'm complaining, we could always use another brother or sister, that's just the way the family is. Though I wonder where Elnara would fit, normally everyone is in order of when they are adopted, but that's also our age as well since we're all very young when we're adopted. But.... that's the thing, we're all naturally like that, so I'm still the oldest, but that's not only because I'm the first, but I have more life experience. Just like Trisha is older than Triton and Triton is older than the twins and so forth. Elnara though grows normally and she's nineteen, not just physically. As tempting as it would be to make her the youngest, she has more life experience, nineteen years of it, so... wouldn't that make her the eldest?
Life experience is always more important than physical age as we have proven time and again. Speaking of which, Yukito tells me that there are a lot of plants there in the land Elnara comes from, he also says there is an elf who looks to be very young because he is so short. Kind of reminds me of me. Maybe when the twins are finished getting the portal (one that doesn't land you everywhere willy nilly I shall go and study the plants.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 9:13 pm
May 8th, 2007 Preparations On The Way
I write this now, in a hurry, so if my future self ever reads this, please forgive me for poor handwriting, because I really don't have that much time to write. Everyone is busy, Yue and Yukito have finished the last remaining details on the portal and now preparations are on the way. The whole family knows you know.
They know about Elnara's mother, Serenity, and about how she was driven away. Triton had made a promise to Elnara's friend to get rid of these people, so now he, Yue and Donovan will be entering the portal as soon as some details are met.
I can't go though... well I can and I can't. I can go to research the plants for my potions, but I cannot take part in this journey. Mommy says I can, and it makes sense, I'm too small and a big target. Still I'm going to try my very best to help even if I can't be there in person. I'm going to spend my time making healing potions and since flashlights I think are not trustworthy because of those little things called batterities, I'm going to make light potions as well. I'm not really sure what else I'm going to do, I have to work with Yuki on that one.
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Posted: Wed Aug 15, 2007 5:46 pm
August 15th, 2007 Growing Flowers
Two months ago, or about there Mommy came home with some new plants, one of his some sort of healing plant that can be used raw. I tried to see if they can be grown around here, kind of figured it might not work. It didn’t work, it lasted a while, but I don’t think the plant is going to reproduce itself anytime soon. So… I’m clipping leaves every once in a while and seeing if I can still maybe make it grow, but, there’s something just missing about the plant. I want to see where they grow, just to understand what it is about these plants.
I asked Mommy to let me try making potions out of it, a bit nervous about that. There’s not a lot of the plant, so I have to be very careful experimenting. I think I really need to take a trip there, but then I have to make more fire and other potions. I hate being short, because to travel being this tall is like saying come get me.
Though right now, would be a bad time to travel, maybe in the future. Maybe after I get more potions and learn how to make more stuff, and have a few more tricks up my sleeve. I should work on sleep power, but hope I don’t breath it in while I’m working on it.
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Posted: Thu Oct 25, 2007 3:21 pm
Oct 25th, 2007 ---- What Shall I Do Today?
The point, I believe into educating one’s self is to take the time to expand your experience. I know for a fact that Mommy (and yes after all this time I still call her Mommy), use to travel. Now the problem is, I’m very young looking (not that it’s bad thing), and shorter than even Mommy herself (which is an issue), so traveling is now a problem. Honestly though, how can I even begin to learn more about being a better potion’s master if I cannot even travel?
Maybe I should take up alchemy, it is only a step up from potion making anyways. At least I would have something to learn before I go completely mad from boredom. Don’t get me wrong, I do have things to do. I am now officially in charge of providing the potions and powders for the school now that Mommy has little time to do so. Having a lot of brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews does keep one busy if you want to spend time with them all. In addition I do get paid for it, though I have very little to spend on. My own supplies do not count because being supplied with ingredients is part of my working deal (there are advantages in working of a large school).
I suppose I could teach, but as much as I’m use to being short and young looking, I am not going to push my luck by teaching other people. I should travel, I really should. Perhaps I should invest in some more offensive potions, I know…
I think… I shall improve a potion from my childhood.
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Posted: Wed Jan 02, 2008 2:23 pm
January 2nd, 2007 --- Finding One's Place and Growing Up Too!
How silly of me, I took a trip and grew and I forgot to write all about it. Well I suppose that is what happens when you’re always on the go, and forgetting to take your journal with you on the first trip. Normally I’m not quite this scattered brained, but this time is different.
At any rate, I finally was allowed to visit the Borderlands where I met Aliya and Adonai for the first time. They’re Ulani and Ulrich’s children, the people who played host while Elnara was taking her first trip back to her home. Donovan had decided to do a bit of hunting (of the slaver, freebooter and highwaymen variety) there. I guess even for someone who is in love like Donovan, it’s pretty hard to settle down. It’s not like he goes out of his way to take bodyguard jobs and Mommy doesn’t travel as much as she use to. So there really isn’t much need for his skills. I doubt he would have any patience in teaching so that is completely out of the question.
Still, it was fun being there with Ulani while Donovan went off and hunted the bad guys. It’s so weird to say hunt when you know its people he’s killing. I’ve thought about it, but after being told about Daeron from Triton and having this sense these people did something to Elnara (even though I don’t know what). I can’t really condemn what he’s doing. Really anyone who preys on others who did nothing but try to live their life does deserve it, and it’s not like they’re going to change. Such is the way of life, a hard way that most of us wouldn’t like to admit.
Oh, but I’m getting off track, my growth. Well, Adonai asked his mother if I could join them on this flower blooming watch. There are these flowers that bloom at night only once a year, and they only last for that night. Which might explain why they can only be found on that one rock instead of all over the place. After all, flowers are pollinated once they open, and once they are pollinated they form seeds. (Nice to know those botany lessons are coming in handy). Anyhow, if that being the case, unless there was a special type of insect that appears at night and is attracted to the flower. Which wouldn’t be hard, the smell, which is so amazing by the way, would attract an insect pretty quickly. However, I don’t know, since as it turned out it was a full moon that night. Out of all of the full moons in all my time in existence it had to be that one I grew to. Poor Adonai, I really scared him and I gave Aliya and Ulani a good fright too since they didn’t know what just happened to me.
I had been back in the Borderlands though after that to help out with the Ranch. Specifically I had been there to give supplies and toys and the like. Mommy also packed in a fluffball which is a Fluffy Cat not yet born. For the children she said. Now that I think of it, it’ll be almost time for me to start on another batch for the Ranch. All the profits are in Four Lands currency, and I can’t keep just making things like this. Perhaps I should ask Donovan if there is a way I can take some of that gold and get supplies there. Though I don’t know if they have the supplies I need. Or perhaps I should take the gold and buy something to trade in Gaia to get the supplies needed.
I also should think about working on special pain killers and the like in case anyone gets seriously hurt. Even though Ulani technically has the healing gift (and I don’t know who else) has the healing gift there might not be much need for them. I do need to make more health supplements as I’m told by Donovan some of the children were very malnutrition. Though… I would like to work on painkillers in case there is no healer, but I had to get around this problem of weight. What I need to do is come up with a new height to weight ratio for the elves there…
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2008 3:06 pm
February 17th, 2008 --- More Projects
It looks like it is that time again for growths, something I don’t mind anymore. Granted, it helps that I grew myself all those months ago. Though the growths seem very odd this time around. It is hard to describe, but it seems to me as if everyone grew backwards, the youngest ones had grown more or less. Celebor grew too, another teenager around the house. Well actually we have three, if you include Kali and Serenity.
Though I don’t think Celebor’s mind has caught up with his body though. Still, he has to get use to his body first, he keeps falling. I keep thinking he’s going to seriously injure himself soon.
At the current moment though, I’m working on some new potions. I’m hoping to try and improve the pain reliving potion that mother created. There has to be a way to adjust the dosage enough so it would relief pain without muddling mind. Of course muddling the mind is how the pain killer works. I guess, my main concern is to do it in such a way so there could be save dosage for the elves. Since the problem comes from they are lighter than they look, it would be far too dangerous to mess with the dosages, and so coming up with a much lighter version would be better.
Otherwise I have no pressing new potions I would want to research on. Though potions for health at this point are the only new things I can think about making. It’s not like I need other type of potions. I wonder what else I should do until then.
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Posted: Fri May 09, 2008 9:21 pm
May 10th, 2008 --- Past Ranch Visit
It was good to visit the Ranch after so long, so much has changed that I wish I would visit more often. I know I should, but I never seem to get around to it (though for the life of me I don’t know why). Unfortunately Adonai wasn’t there this time around, it seems like he’s been off traveling and while I’m not quite sure, but I think it really bothers Shael. She is one of the people who live near the Ranch.
While the medical supplies had been updated it seems that without Adonai no one can really use them. I hadn’t considered this, which is a bit of a problem. At least though, there is always a need for more bandages and creams, I’m not sure about medicine, though I’ve replaced all the old ones for new ones. I’ve also dated them, but the only one who can read that is Adonai. On the next trip I’ll ask mother to check and make sure to replace anything that needs to be replacing.
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Posted: Fri Oct 10, 2008 1:04 pm
October 10th, 2008 -- New Home
If I had to say one thing about this new move is that this new place is hard to get use to. It is not that the grounds are uncomfortable. It is better than what the inn had been, there are so many chances now for all of us. What makes it so hard to get use to, is the lack of noise. Not that we’re generally a noisy family and we’ve always managed not bump into each other regularly in the inn, but it is knowing that when you come home, you are the only person home, except for the family in the building over.
True, I could have chosen to stay in the main house, but Yukito was interested in having a medical centre of sorts and I wanted to open a potions shop near by, and since I do provided creams and lotions it only made sense I would be near the place where Yukito will check up on the family. The new medical centre is also only a small walk away from Yukiko’s flower shop where some of the herbs for what I need can be found. Yukiko has promised to grow other types of herbs I could use which will save me from having to buy them from a supplier. Future shop aside, at least I know Yukito’s family is close so I won’t get too nervous at night.
I should also remember to visit the Borderlands… it’s been a very long while…
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Posted: Thu Feb 05, 2009 2:09 pm
February 5th, 2009 -- Teaching Rhea
It is one thing when I forget to write in my journal it’s another thing all together when I’m not sure how to date my journal at all! It might seem bizarre, but it is true, mainly because I am no longer living at home. Initially my plan had been to start a potion shop on the clan grounds, the building had already been set up and I had moved in there however… Mother and Donovan came back with an opportunity that I couldn’t say no to on many levels.
Adonai had long since grown up, this I knew and he married Shael the only child to have stayed at the Borderlands after being rescued. This I also knew, what I didn’t know was that it took a miracle (literary) for them to have their first and only child Rhea. Rhea is special in that there seems to be very little limit to her gifts, when I first came here she had the gift to make plants grow and the ability to sprout wings. However, after being taught by mother it had seemed that she could learn magic the way we did here in Gaia.
That… actually I found out in the coming weeks wasn’t the case, Rhea is an empathy, which according to this world is defined as a person who can take everything into themselves, not just emotions. This was why Rhea could do magic the way Mother could, it was probably a mixture of taking in Mother’s will to create magic in that particular way, and maybe to an extent her own magic as well. Of course it begs the question if Rhea’s flower growing and wing sprout are separate gifts, or if they are part of her empathy…. Judging by her story of the way she was born, I’m guessing not.
But it would also suggest Rhea has more than the usual two gifts, because I already know that she has the gift of languages (from Shael). More than two gifts or not, Rhea is a very strong magic user, and she has no limits, which means she needed a teacher. This, was a problem because it was unusual for elves to have a teacher in magic unlike here in Gaia, Mother could not stay, not being pregnant, and Yue and Yukito could not have been asked to stay away from their families for that will possibility be years. So, I was asked, and I accepted.
Not only was this a chance to really do something, but it was quite obvious that without a teacher, Rhea could get into a lot of trouble.
Unfortunately even after realizing it was empathy she had as a gift, teaching her was not any easier. Fortunately there was help, in the form of Aragost who gave me direction and gave Rhea a way to channel her powers. Ulani who helped teach Rhea the staff (since that was what she was using to channel her powers), and of course Rhea’s parents Adonai and Shael who helped me adjust and did whatever they could to help Rhea. Unusually enough, help also came in the form of Mother.
Christmas it seems has long since pasted and Mother decided to give Rhea a Fluffy Cat of the angelic variety. If you’ve seen Wish, you will know that angelics and demonics are the largest breed except for the dragons and griffons. This is good for Rhea in more ways than one, it allows her to be a kid for once and angelics are guardian type cats, anyone would have to think twice before doing anything to Rhea with a full grown one around.
Time is passing quickly here, and the lessons are getting somewhat easier. Especially meditation, I had been worried about that at first hearing how Mother’s first attempt turned out, but Rhea is getting better. She’s starting to be more her age, and her energy level is more normal (though she still at times seem to pull energy out of nowhere). We (as in Adonai and his wife) had been planning to the Eastland to visit Shael’s siblings, but it will be put off for a year because of the cat and because of Rhea’s abilities. Hopefully the year after we’ll be all ready to travel.
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