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"Yeah I think about him." He turned pink when she touched his hand but he just held hers back, especially when she began to look like she may share. "When it first happen all I could think of was what horrible thing happened to him. Did some serial killer get him? Some sicko pervert? Was he kidnapped?" Bix stopped, the prospects of it were all awful. "Now that I am here.. it could have been a monster or something. But.. I mean I mostly think of what he might look like or what kind of stuff he might be into." Bix shrugged. "Would I have come here so easily if he was still around?"

When Molly started about her sister he simply squeezed her fingers, letting her know that she could share with him. "Had? What was she like?" It was a better, nicer question than asking what happened to her.

Bix just smiled as she talked about her sister. He wouldn't push to find out what happened. She'd tell him in time if she was okay with it.

"Yeah Nicky was outdoorsy. He was that energetic kid that loved being outside. Our dad.. it was his real dad and he looked just like him and they loved all the same stuff. When I got old enough to have my own computer I didn't really want to go out and do that stuff anymore but Nicky was all about it. He was really the only thing that could get me to include myself." Fishing and hunting and mudding. Bix was a nerd and tried to 'civilize' himself but Nicky never let him avoid it long. He was a kid who liked to have fun and his big brother had been his hero.

Bix wiped his eyes a bit. He wasn't crying, wasn't even moist in the eyes, but he felt that tingle of sadness there. "They're better off. Maybe we aren't but they are better off not in this world where there's real monsters. Kids like them are the only things that can make me hope heaven.. or something.. is real. Does that make sense? I am not religious or anything but I'd like to think he's somewhere nice instead of here."

"There's gotta be." Bix gave her a smile, something neither of them had done much during the last few minutes of conversation. "I mean I am happy here too. I have better friends here than I had at home. Plus there are people like Before and Tori who never were allowed to anything for themselves until they came here."

He laid down now, putting an arm behind his head and looking up at the sky. "When I came here I wanted to forget my life. Be someone new because I didn't like who I was very much." He still lacked confidence but was improving a bit. "Even started going by another name. My real name is terrible though. I don't regret that part." He laughed. "My name's Ferdinand, by the way. My mom and brother called me Ferdi and ... it's just a terrible nickname." He blushed a little.

"But I wouldn't have met all you guys if I hadn't come here. I wouldn't have met my weapon. It's all so cool!" He gave her another bright smile. "Did you know they have Excalibur here?! And Merlin is a weapon too." Obviously, from his interests, Bix lived for this stuff.

"Malla.. ya know I will stick with Molly." He grinned. Bix had turned on his side now, propping his head on one arm. His free hand still lingered on Molly's and he didn't pull away. In fact the less he thought about it the better he was at not blushing or making any sort of big deal about it.

"Yeah! Dr. H took us to this cave under the facilities when we first woke up. Apparently Arthur was one of the first hunters and Merlin was this Halloween person who gave him the sword because he had the magic to turn monsters into weapons... at least I think that's how it goes." It was a little muddled, he hoped he was telling the story right. "So Eventually they realized Merlin wasn't a good guy and turned him into a wepaon too but no one can weild him. He's this gnarly staff and it just... it feels bad. You can't even get near it. Robert tried to near both of them.. even Excalibur is just too much. Apparently they help power all of the facilities and the technology. Cool right?"

"Yeah they have to be pretty powerful too. Because Merlin is clearly like.. active without being bonded to anyone." They weapons they were used to turned into tablets or were simply inert, unpowered, when not bonded to a hunter. "Felt so... bad too. At least the Merlin one." He couldn't remember exactly where it was though. The walk there had been winding and impossibly long.

"Don't remember how to get there though. Sorry..." He finally looked down and noticed their hands. He suddenly became super conscious of it and his hand seemed to stiffen a bit. He kept it where it was but it was suddenly as if he had no idea what to do with it.

Bix also turned a little pink but he pulled his hand back and fiddled with his braid, the nervous habit that never went away. He fiddled with the tuft of hair and stared at it, the most interesting split ends in the world.

"No more books." He looked up at Molly when she spoke. "But I have my old wallet. It's weird looking at it now." He pulled it out of the bag. It was leather and beat up and had spider man stickers all over it. He opened it up, the cash long gone, but started pulling out cards and pictures. There was a college ID, the text worn mostly away, but an awkward looking Ferdinand. They must have done it in a crowded room because he was looking off camera and looked like he was in the middle of talking. "That was me as a freshman." He was rounder in the face, younger looking. You didn't notice how they'd aged or matured on the island until you saw a comparison.

"I guess so.. huh. I hadn't noticed much." He poked himself in the cheek with his finger as if he would notice a difference. Bix then just shrugged and dropped the ID onto the sheet. He pulled out a 'frequent sushi eater' card from a restaurant with a few holes in it... and then another from the same restaurant. "I used to forget to bring it and then they would give me a new one. I think I have a couple of these." He chuckled and scratched his head.

"Oh here!" He pulled out a folded picture with a few others stuck in the middle of it. The large folded photo was of him. He was skinny, maybe 16, and sitting behind the wheel of an old beat up red pickup truck. There were anime characters hanging from his rear view mirror and shotgun on a rack behind his head. "The shotgun is fake. it's a nerf." he laughed. "That's my truck though." The hood ornament had been replaced with an Autobot symbol from Transformers.

"Ummm lessee.." He dumped them out on the blanket and spread them out. "Well this is a dunkin donuts receipt." He crumpled it and stuffed it in his pocket. "This is my freshman homecoming picture." He turned bright red because it was a picture of him in a group of boys. He was only 15 and he had braces and he was a tiny thing. "I didn't grow till the next year."

"Umm these are some friends prom pics. We didn't keep in touch as much when I went to college but they stayed in my wallet." Because he didn't clean out his wallet, mostly. "And this is my senior prom picture." He was wearing a brown suit, not a tux or anything fancy. His family couldn't afford it. His date had a nice orangey-brown dress that matched though. She was on the heftier side and grinned. His smile seemed forced. "I really hated those kind of pictures."

Bix made a mental note to acquire a camera for Molly.