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 Posted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 5:45 am
I've had a great many things happen to me in my 16 years...
I would share them all, but I don't want to burden you all with them.
So just these two will suffice.
I suffer from a few mental problems. I won't disclose them to you, I don't know you all that well. But anyway...
I let them get the better of me and I had a mental breakdown in the middle of school. I was ridiculed, abused, tormented... And it drove me to attempt suicide. Eh, what's a guy to do? xd
Now this one, isn't for the feint hearted. Don't read on if you're heart and stomach are weak.
Last year, I left home. My Father was abusive and I couldn't cope any more.
It was about 11 at night. So, I fled to my Uncle's house. I knew he'd be up, because he'd be just getting back from work. And I got an MMS (Multimedia message) on my phone...
He killed my own cat... And... Sent me the picture...
It was grim. My dad wore huge biker boots. He swiftly ended a 16 year old cats life, with one huge stomp.
I'm not afraid to admit I cried. Hell, I even screamed for hours.
It was vile, and I hope none of you ever have anyone who would do such a thing in your life. My own father... It sickens me.
I still have nightmares. I'm glad he's locked away though. He deserves it.
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Posted: Mon Nov 29, 2010 8:48 am
Karall Esuritio Last year, I left home. My Father was abusive and I couldn't cope any more. It was about 11 at night. So, I fled to my Uncle's house. I knew he'd be up, because he'd be just getting back from work. And I got an MMS (Multimedia message) on my phone... He killed my own cat... And... Sent me the picture... It was grim. My dad wore huge biker boots. He swiftly ended a 16 year old cats life, with one huge stomp. I'm not afraid to admit I cried. Hell, I even screamed for hours. It was vile, and I hope none of you ever have anyone who would do such a thing in your life. My own father... It sickens me. I still have nightmares. I'm glad he's locked away though. He deserves it. ▌▌█ █ ███████████████████████████████████ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
❝Ｓｐｅａｋ Ｕｐ...
For the longest time, I would have very detailed nightmares about stuff like this. Never of a cat getting stomped, but quite a few of them where they were being ripped apart.
It got so bad that in real life I couldn't even look at a cat without wanting to vomit.
So.. I can sympathize in a very weird way.
...Ｓｃｒｅａｍ Ｏｕｔ❞
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ███████████████████████████████████ █ █ ▌▌
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Posted: Tue Nov 30, 2010 11:13 am
 I'm wide awake the more I sleep
My granny dying of old age, and a few years ago, a good friend of mine was killed in a motorbike accident. Easily the worst things ever to happen to me.  You'll understand when I'm dead
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Posted: Tue Nov 30, 2010 11:55 am
'It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights still bright to me oh
You who are is not who've you been, you're still an innocent... ╔══════════════╗ I finally ggot around to posting here :O
This may sound not that bad but it was moving. I mean from the nice and cozy US, to a small island were the tap water isn't clean and no Starbucks!
yeah
Having to tell every friend you know, best friends, friends, frenemies, enemies, that you are moving out of the continent is heartbreaking. Leaving my two sisters behind. Leaving my dog and house I lived in for my entire life. The culture shock from moving from the US.
Not to mention the anxiety of what people would think of you. Judging you on a glance. Not knowing s**t about you and still saying s**t about you, it really sickens me =X
The one good think that came out of it was one person. My best friend. The only thing that keeps me from going crazy. ╚══════════════╝ ...It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32 and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did, you're still an innocent'
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Posted: Tue Nov 30, 2010 8:12 pm
_RI0SAN_ IvyStarling Physically, the worst thing(s) that's ever happened to me, without a shred of doubt, was a panic attack. Not just normal panicking - like a real, debilitating attack that just comes and goes.
They happened on quite a regular basis for a certain time period to me when I was a little kid, and it was always in the middle of the night, so I always just thought they were really, really, really, really bad nightmares.
I just learned in Psychology class that they were panic attacks. 20 out of 24 symptoms on the dot :'D Thank God those days are over now. I have no idea what caused them, but they are - by far, no contest there - one of the worst feelings in the world. That inexplicable sense of utterly consuming, irrational, and prolonged doom, helplessness, paralysis, tension, ridiculous heart rate, fear, unintelligible thoughts, nervous trembling, and just sheer panic - ugh.
Even now, when I stare into the darkness of my room, I can still feel those lingering effects of a panic attack. I don't think I'm on the brink of panic attacks - it's just that I physically can't forget them, no matter how long it's been.
I've had them as well. I can't even think about it without fear overwhelming me and feeling like I'm going to have another one. I can sincerely 100 % relate to what you went through. I'm sorry you had them. heart
I'm sorry you know what they're like as well ><
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Posted: Tue Nov 30, 2010 9:47 pm
since I've got it on my mind right now, I'll share another incident.
when I was 17 I was being raped by a 15-year-old girl. I turned 18 during the time she was still doing it. she would sodomize me at random, make me do things with her in public that I hated and which terrified me, abuse me, neglect me for months at a time... if ever I wanted to talk to her she'd either say she's busy, or that she's in a bitchy mood; the latter meant I could talk, and then she'd treat me like s**t.
she became pregnant, and gave birth to quadruplets, which she left with me. she denies their existence. I couldn't handle it, I tried to take care of them, but it drove me ******** crazy... I would have urges to kill them that were even stronger than my own suicidal urges, which were exponentially increased themselves. so I left them with my girlfriend of the time.
shortly after me and my girlfriend broke up, I demanded my kids back, but my mistress (the abusive girl) started an under-the-table custody battle. in the end, I had a friend of mine legally adopt them. her and I later began a romance, and were going to marry (and she would have another husband, so we'd be a Polygamist Family, which I was more than pleased with).
unfortunately, when I turned 20, my fiance turned on me, jealous of a meeting I had with my former mistress when I was supposed to call her. she had since denied me my children, and has been saying for this whole year up until just last month that I had abandoned them, and don't count as the father.
it is one of the longest, and most painful, of all things to have ever happened to me. it not only is a story of how I was wronged, but how I am a failure as a parent.
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 5:18 am
Chieftain Twilight since I've got it on my mind right now, I'll share another incident. when I was 17 I was being raped by a 15-year-old girl. I turned 18 during the time she was still doing it. she would sodomize me at random, make me do things with her in public that I hated and which terrified me, abuse me, neglect me for months at a time... if ever I wanted to talk to her she'd either say she's busy, or that she's in a bitchy mood; the latter meant I could talk, and then she'd treat me like s**t. she became pregnant, and gave birth to quadruplets, which she left with me. she denies their existence. I couldn't handle it, I tried to take care of them, but it drove me ******** crazy... I would have urges to kill them that were even stronger than my own suicidal urges, which were exponentially increased themselves. so I left them with my girlfriend of the time. shortly after me and my girlfriend broke up, I demanded my kids back, but my mistress (the abusive girl) started an under-the-table custody battle. in the end, I had a friend of mine legally adopt them. her and I later began a romance, and were going to marry (and she would have another husband, so we'd be a Polygamist Family, which I was more than pleased with). unfortunately, when I turned 20, my fiance turned on me, jealous of a meeting I had with my former mistress when I was supposed to call her. she had since denied me my children, and has been saying for this whole year up until just last month that I had abandoned them, and don't count as the father. it is one of the longest, and most painful, of all things to have ever happened to me. it not only is a story of how I was wronged, but how I am a failure as a parent. jesus...
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 5:43 am
I saw one of my friend dying. He jumped off a bridge.. I was 14.
After that, my best friend died in an accident 2 years ago after 2 months coma. Since he lived in Canada and I in France, I wasn't with him, I couldn't do anything but waiting for he gets better... He never did :'(
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 7:08 pm
Lady Kira X Chieftain Twilight since I've got it on my mind right now, I'll share another incident. when I was 17 I was being raped by a 15-year-old girl. I turned 18 during the time she was still doing it. she would sodomize me at random, make me do things with her in public that I hated and which terrified me, abuse me, neglect me for months at a time... if ever I wanted to talk to her she'd either say she's busy, or that she's in a bitchy mood; the latter meant I could talk, and then she'd treat me like s**t. she became pregnant, and gave birth to quadruplets, which she left with me. she denies their existence. I couldn't handle it, I tried to take care of them, but it drove me ******** crazy... I would have urges to kill them that were even stronger than my own suicidal urges, which were exponentially increased themselves. so I left them with my girlfriend of the time. shortly after me and my girlfriend broke up, I demanded my kids back, but my mistress (the abusive girl) started an under-the-table custody battle. in the end, I had a friend of mine legally adopt them. her and I later began a romance, and were going to marry (and she would have another husband, so we'd be a Polygamist Family, which I was more than pleased with). unfortunately, when I turned 20, my fiance turned on me, jealous of a meeting I had with my former mistress when I was supposed to call her. she had since denied me my children, and has been saying for this whole year up until just last month that I had abandoned them, and don't count as the father. it is one of the longest, and most painful, of all things to have ever happened to me. it not only is a story of how I was wronged, but how I am a failure as a parent. jesus... :shrugs, and grunts.: .... what can I say? my life is interesting...
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 9:05 pm
Chieftain Twilight Lady Kira X Chieftain Twilight since I've got it on my mind right now, I'll share another incident. when I was 17 I was being raped by a 15-year-old girl. I turned 18 during the time she was still doing it. she would sodomize me at random, make me do things with her in public that I hated and which terrified me, abuse me, neglect me for months at a time... if ever I wanted to talk to her she'd either say she's busy, or that she's in a bitchy mood; the latter meant I could talk, and then she'd treat me like s**t. she became pregnant, and gave birth to quadruplets, which she left with me. she denies their existence. I couldn't handle it, I tried to take care of them, but it drove me ******** crazy... I would have urges to kill them that were even stronger than my own suicidal urges, which were exponentially increased themselves. so I left them with my girlfriend of the time. shortly after me and my girlfriend broke up, I demanded my kids back, but my mistress (the abusive girl) started an under-the-table custody battle. in the end, I had a friend of mine legally adopt them. her and I later began a romance, and were going to marry (and she would have another husband, so we'd be a Polygamist Family, which I was more than pleased with). unfortunately, when I turned 20, my fiance turned on me, jealous of a meeting I had with my former mistress when I was supposed to call her. she had since denied me my children, and has been saying for this whole year up until just last month that I had abandoned them, and don't count as the father. it is one of the longest, and most painful, of all things to have ever happened to me. it not only is a story of how I was wronged, but how I am a failure as a parent. jesus... :shrugs, and grunts.: .... what can I say? my life is interesting... It's bloody stressful D; Or at least it would be for me.
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 9:45 pm
Lady Kira X Chieftain Twilight Lady Kira X Chieftain Twilight since I've got it on my mind right now, I'll share another incident. when I was 17 I was being raped by a 15-year-old girl. I turned 18 during the time she was still doing it. she would sodomize me at random, make me do things with her in public that I hated and which terrified me, abuse me, neglect me for months at a time... if ever I wanted to talk to her she'd either say she's busy, or that she's in a bitchy mood; the latter meant I could talk, and then she'd treat me like s**t. she became pregnant, and gave birth to quadruplets, which she left with me. she denies their existence. I couldn't handle it, I tried to take care of them, but it drove me ******** crazy... I would have urges to kill them that were even stronger than my own suicidal urges, which were exponentially increased themselves. so I left them with my girlfriend of the time. shortly after me and my girlfriend broke up, I demanded my kids back, but my mistress (the abusive girl) started an under-the-table custody battle. in the end, I had a friend of mine legally adopt them. her and I later began a romance, and were going to marry (and she would have another husband, so we'd be a Polygamist Family, which I was more than pleased with). unfortunately, when I turned 20, my fiance turned on me, jealous of a meeting I had with my former mistress when I was supposed to call her. she had since denied me my children, and has been saying for this whole year up until just last month that I had abandoned them, and don't count as the father. it is one of the longest, and most painful, of all things to have ever happened to me. it not only is a story of how I was wronged, but how I am a failure as a parent. jesus... :shrugs, and grunts.: .... what can I say? my life is interesting... It's bloody stressful D; Or at least it would be for me. indeed. it keeps me up at night.
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Posted: Thu Dec 02, 2010 2:19 am
Well lets see...
I had to move from Sydney, New South Wales, Australia into a small town in the Nothern Territory called Alice Springs which is still in australia but just in a different state to sydney. Its one of the hardest things ive had to do, i had leave my friends, my dad, my eldest sister and my grandparents to live with my mum parents my mum and my sister. Its all cause we lost money, my mum was sacked my dads company he was starting was build from almost nothing. But after a while ive gotten used to it, I was 12 at the time.
Then i found out a couple of months ago that my mum was once in a mental hospital not wanting to live anymore, but this was i think before i was born. It actually effects me quite alot cause i sometimes think wat happens if she needs to go bak? if life it gets too stressful.
Anywayz wen i was in year 2 my dad came home drunk and abused my mum. My mum had a bruised eye for quite a bit, and my dad was taken by the police for bout 3 days. Sad thing was my sisters were in tears that night i was just standing there watching no tears no nothing :/ My dad palmed my eldest sister in the mouth then strangled my other sister but shes ok. My dad never touched me i was actually kind of lucky we moved.
Though i reackon one of the worst things of all is not being able to tell my new friends here in Alice bout why i actually moved here, what's happened in my life. Its hard going to skool everyday all happy then coming home knowing that theres always alot of s**t going on.
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Posted: Thu Dec 02, 2010 10:49 am
xXxdark_heartsxXx Well lets see...
I had to move from Sydney, New South Wales, Australia into a small town in the Nothern Territory called Alice Springs which is still in australia but just in a different state to sydney. Its one of the hardest things ive had to do, i had leave my friends, my dad, my eldest sister and my grandparents to live with my mum parents my mum and my sister. Its all cause we lost money, my mum was sacked my dads company he was starting was build from almost nothing. But after a while ive gotten used to it, I was 12 at the time.
Then i found out a couple of months ago that my mum was once in a mental hospital not wanting to live anymore, but this was i think before i was born. It actually effects me quite alot cause i sometimes think wat happens if she needs to go bak? if life it gets too stressful.
Anywayz wen i was in year 2 my dad came home drunk and abused my mum. My mum had a bruised eye for quite a bit, and my dad was taken by the police for bout 3 days. Sad thing was my sisters were in tears that night i was just standing there watching no tears no nothing :/ My dad palmed my eldest sister in the mouth then strangled my other sister but shes ok. My dad never touched me i was actually kind of lucky we moved.
Though i reackon one of the worst things of all is not being able to tell my new friends here in Alice bout why i actually moved here, what's happened in my life. Its hard going to skool everyday all happy then coming home knowing that theres always alot of s**t going on. well, start small. you needn't nessesarilly ever have to tell your friends if you don't want to, but you should find somebody you can talk to about this. maybe a Councilor at School? oftentimes in Highschools and Colleges there are Students who have Office Hours for just that kinda thing; someone to talk to, to de-stress. I understand the feelings like you have to keep it to yourself. but the truth is that it's not that you can't talk to people about it. I wouldn't suggest just randomly popping off with "ok guys, here's something about me you didn't know." instead you should let it come out naturally, when the time is right. I won't try to convince you to tell your friends about it at all, it's up to you if/when you want to share this with your Friends. but I do suggest that you find someone who you can confide in, who can keep a secret, to talk to about it. it will make you feel better.
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Posted: Sat Dec 04, 2010 1:16 am
Chieftain Twilight xXxdark_heartsxXx Well lets see...
I had to move from Sydney, New South Wales, Australia into a small town in the Nothern Territory called Alice Springs which is still in australia but just in a different state to sydney. Its one of the hardest things ive had to do, i had leave my friends, my dad, my eldest sister and my grandparents to live with my mum parents my mum and my sister. Its all cause we lost money, my mum was sacked my dads company he was starting was build from almost nothing. But after a while ive gotten used to it, I was 12 at the time.
Then i found out a couple of months ago that my mum was once in a mental hospital not wanting to live anymore, but this was i think before i was born. It actually effects me quite alot cause i sometimes think wat happens if she needs to go bak? if life it gets too stressful.
Anywayz wen i was in year 2 my dad came home drunk and abused my mum. My mum had a bruised eye for quite a bit, and my dad was taken by the police for bout 3 days. Sad thing was my sisters were in tears that night i was just standing there watching no tears no nothing :/ My dad palmed my eldest sister in the mouth then strangled my other sister but shes ok. My dad never touched me i was actually kind of lucky we moved.
Though i reackon one of the worst things of all is not being able to tell my new friends here in Alice bout why i actually moved here, what's happened in my life. Its hard going to skool everyday all happy then coming home knowing that theres always alot of s**t going on. well, start small. you needn't nessesarilly ever have to tell your friends if you don't want to, but you should find somebody you can talk to about this. maybe a Councilor at School? oftentimes in Highschools and Colleges there are Students who have Office Hours for just that kinda thing; someone to talk to, to de-stress. I understand the feelings like you have to keep it to yourself. but the truth is that it's not that you can't talk to people about it. I wouldn't suggest just randomly popping off with "ok guys, here's something about me you didn't know." instead you should let it come out naturally, when the time is right. I won't try to convince you to tell your friends about it at all, it's up to you if/when you want to share this with your Friends. but I do suggest that you find someone who you can confide in, who can keep a secret, to talk to about it. it will make you feel better. I would talk to a counceller bout everything but i feel more like i should tell a friend why i here, But i dont because i could be risking having a rumor or something going round and i do because maybe they'll understand more bout me. Plus my mum doesnt really want me tellin anyone. There is my cousin i could tell as i dont think she knows the proper reason why im here.
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Posted: Sat Dec 04, 2010 1:26 am
xXxdark_heartsxXx Chieftain Twilight xXxdark_heartsxXx Well lets see...
I had to move from Sydney, New South Wales, Australia into a small town in the Nothern Territory called Alice Springs which is still in australia but just in a different state to sydney. Its one of the hardest things ive had to do, i had leave my friends, my dad, my eldest sister and my grandparents to live with my mum parents my mum and my sister. Its all cause we lost money, my mum was sacked my dads company he was starting was build from almost nothing. But after a while ive gotten used to it, I was 12 at the time.
Then i found out a couple of months ago that my mum was once in a mental hospital not wanting to live anymore, but this was i think before i was born. It actually effects me quite alot cause i sometimes think wat happens if she needs to go bak? if life it gets too stressful.
Anywayz wen i was in year 2 my dad came home drunk and abused my mum. My mum had a bruised eye for quite a bit, and my dad was taken by the police for bout 3 days. Sad thing was my sisters were in tears that night i was just standing there watching no tears no nothing :/ My dad palmed my eldest sister in the mouth then strangled my other sister but shes ok. My dad never touched me i was actually kind of lucky we moved.
Though i reackon one of the worst things of all is not being able to tell my new friends here in Alice bout why i actually moved here, what's happened in my life. Its hard going to skool everyday all happy then coming home knowing that theres always alot of s**t going on. well, start small. you needn't nessesarilly ever have to tell your friends if you don't want to, but you should find somebody you can talk to about this. maybe a Councilor at School? oftentimes in Highschools and Colleges there are Students who have Office Hours for just that kinda thing; someone to talk to, to de-stress. I understand the feelings like you have to keep it to yourself. but the truth is that it's not that you can't talk to people about it. I wouldn't suggest just randomly popping off with "ok guys, here's something about me you didn't know." instead you should let it come out naturally, when the time is right. I won't try to convince you to tell your friends about it at all, it's up to you if/when you want to share this with your Friends. but I do suggest that you find someone who you can confide in, who can keep a secret, to talk to about it. it will make you feel better. I would talk to a counceller bout everything but i feel more like i should tell a friend why i here, But i dont because i could be risking having a rumor or something going round and i do because maybe they'll understand more bout me. Plus my mum doesnt really want me tellin anyone. There is my cousin i could tell as i dont think she knows the proper reason why im here. I gave you my advice, and I stand by it.
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