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 Posted: Fri Oct 29, 2010 10:16 am
You know, the hole in the sheet thing could work for me...
As long as I can lust upon my man, I am good. LOL
...and I fail to see the problem of hiding my body, of which I am highly insecure about...
That surely must have been something a smart female ancestor of the patriarchs instilled in their sons.
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Posted: Mon Nov 01, 2010 6:35 pm
Eltanin Sadachbia You know, the hole in the sheet thing could work for me... As long as I can lust upon my man, I am good. LOL ...and I fail to see the problem of hiding my body, of which I am highly insecure about... That surely must have been something a smart female ancestor of the patriarchs instilled in their sons.
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Posted: Mon Nov 01, 2010 6:46 pm
LOL...
Point taken...
I just continue my perilous journey to bring myself back to the place where I could look at myself in the mirror and not want to cry. I used to actually be proud of myself...
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Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 7:46 am
I always take body image the Buddhist way. The body's essentially a clay vessel, it won't last and certainly any looks or beauty won't last either and that's true for all people. When you look at the body as a temporary abode, it's easier to look at the person themselves than the physical image. But that's me, I was always a tomboy and never one to really worry about the way I look, to me there's more important things to get to in life.
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Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 8:06 am
Well, I liked myself when I was at a healthy weight. I was never skinny and I was always a bit "messy", in a nerdy kinda way. I had allot of people make fun of me allot for some of my clumsiness. I am and was never really one to spend much time primping, but... I liked myself anyway.
After my daughter came along, my thyroid crashed, and so did my athletic body. I am not happy with myself because I am unhealthy, and I just don't like the way I am now. I have been doing all kinds of exercise, reducing portions, eating healthier, and just all around changing my lifestyle, but I am having minimal results...
People see my obesity and automatically think I am lazy, and truth to tell, I am so tired all the time anyway, that even if I argued, I wouldn't be able to prove otherwise. My family knows my problem, and they know how busy I am, and their opinions are what matter, but It is hard to have to answer a 3 year old when she asks me why I have such a big belly. Especially when I am still not used to having it.
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Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 9:44 am
Eltanin Sadachbia Well, I liked myself when I was at a healthy weight. I was never skinny and I was always a bit "messy", in a nerdy kinda way. I had allot of people make fun of me allot for some of my clumsiness. I am and was never really one to spend much time primping, but... I liked myself anyway. After my daughter came along, my thyroid crashed, and so did my athletic body. I am not happy with myself because I am unhealthy, and I just don't like the way I am now. I have been doing all kinds of exercise, reducing portions, eating healthier, and just all around changing my lifestyle, but I am having minimal results... People see my obesity and automatically think I am lazy, and truth to tell, I am so tired all the time anyway, that even if I argued, I wouldn't be able to prove otherwise. My family knows my problem, and they know how busy I am, and their opinions are what matter, but It is hard to have to answer a 3 year old when she asks me why I have such a big belly. Especially when I am still not used to having it.
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Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 1:34 pm
Yeah, the doctor was hoping my thyroid would balance back out like it did after my first pregnancy. It took 2 years the first go around, and he said it would probably take longer to do so this time if it was going to.
He didn't want to put me on the meds because once a person goes onto them, a person's thyroid will stop even trying to do its job, but it has been 3 years now, and he told me right after I had my daughter that we would give it three years. He had said that if things didn't straighten out by age 30, then I would get on the meds. So I am guessing that when January rolls around, I will be getting my first permanent prescription.
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 3:28 am
Eltanin Sadachbia Yeah, the doctor was hoping my thyroid would balance back out like it did after my first pregnancy. It took 2 years the first go around, and he said it would probably take longer to do so this time if it was going to. He didn't want to put me on the meds because once a person goes onto them, a person's thyroid will stop even trying to do its job, but it has been 3 years now, and he told me right after I had my daughter that we would give it three years. He had said that if things didn't straighten out by age 30, then I would get on the meds. So I am guessing that when January rolls around, I will be getting my first permanent prescription. My first few years in college was "blessed" with thyroid issues. My thyroid under produced, and I was always burning up. The beginning of my second year the docs irradiated my thyroid, and I have been on synthroid ever since. I am meticulous about exercise, and could probably be called an exercise addict... the truth is that I had so many problems with my weight during those three years that I work out every day...
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Posted: Wed Nov 10, 2010 5:30 am
Aakosir Eltanin Sadachbia You know, the hole in the sheet thing could work for me... As long as I can lust upon my man, I am good. LOL ...and I fail to see the problem of hiding my body, of which I am highly insecure about... That surely must have been something a smart female ancestor of the patriarchs instilled in their sons. It isn't only in America like that. Many European women have image issues because they're always looking what's "in" in America and what the American people are doing. Many young girls think that they are too fat even when they aren't. They think that being extremely thin is attractive and when you have the healthy weight or a good weight they make fun of you. In every magazine for women you always find a diet-plan. I also think that it's the blame of the media. The media really has a huge influence which ist kinda scary.
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Posted: Sun Dec 05, 2010 7:19 pm
Eltanin Sadachbia Yeah, the doctor was hoping my thyroid would balance back out like it did after my first pregnancy. It took 2 years the first go around, and he said it would probably take longer to do so this time if it was going to. He didn't want to put me on the meds because once a person goes onto them, a person's thyroid will stop even trying to do its job, but it has been 3 years now, and he told me right after I had my daughter that we would give it three years. He had said that if things didn't straighten out by age 30, then I would get on the meds. So I am guessing that when January rolls around, I will be getting my first permanent prescription.
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Posted: Sun Dec 05, 2010 7:24 pm
Reik8 Aakosir Eltanin Sadachbia You know, the hole in the sheet thing could work for me... As long as I can lust upon my man, I am good. LOL ...and I fail to see the problem of hiding my body, of which I am highly insecure about... That surely must have been something a smart female ancestor of the patriarchs instilled in their sons. It isn't only in America like that. Many European women have image issues because they're always looking what's "in" in America and what the American people are doing. Many young girls think that they are too fat even when they aren't. They think that being extremely thin is attractive and when you have the healthy weight or a good weight they make fun of you. In every magazine for women you always find a diet-plan. I also think that it's the blame of the media. The media really has a huge influence which ist kinda scary.
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Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2011 8:45 pm
I've been discriminated more for being white than being Mexican (I'm biracial). It's sort of ironic that I've been called 'honky' 'white trash' and 'half breed'(because I'm half Mexican, I'm only half a human) more than anything for my Mexican heritage.
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Posted: Tue Aug 30, 2011 10:55 am
Holy crap, it's been awhile since I saw this thread...
I have actually come a long way... maybe I should update!
Anyway... I continued through the holidays, last Thanksgiving and Christmas staying pretty strict about how much and what I ate, and continued reducing portions, and stayed away from all the sweets.
It was probably around the time of the last posts here that I started researching thyroid boosters and taking several supplements that was supposed to promote thyroid health, namely kelp and kelp supplements, and anything that contained iodine. I also stopped eating things that were supposed to hinder a thyroid, such as broccoli and spinach...
When I finally made it to the doctor in March to check my thyroid, it was healthier than had it had ever been when I had had it checked in the past! So I had a full physical done and joined a gym.
By June, I lost 40 pounds (I was 289 pounds)... and although I am not really losing much weight anymore, I am still losing inches around my waste and toning my back and thighs. I have gone from a size 22 down to almost a 16 at this point and I still have 40 pounds to go by next March.
I am working on an overhaul of my diet actually this week, because so far I have found when I hit plateau, I just need to tweak my diet a little to get the ball rolling again.
So anyway, like I said, I have come a long way, but I still have quite a ways to go. My goal is to be a size 12/14 and weigh in at 185/195 by March 2012, because that is where I am supposed to be to be healthy.
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2011 9:19 pm
One time when this kid learned I was Native American he was like,
"OH,so you live on a rez? (reservation)" I punched him in the face. I was so tired of people thinking I'm rich because "Natives have the cosinos" and? what? I don't get any profit from them.
Racism is always gonna be here. It's impossible to control.
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Posted: Tue Sep 06, 2011 12:29 pm
N a t i v e W a t e r One time when this kid learned I was Native American he was like, "OH,so you live on a rez? (reservation)" I punched him in the face. I was so tired of people thinking I'm rich because "Natives have the cosinos" and? what? I don't get any profit from them. Racism is always gonna be here. It's impossible to control. That's not racism, that's ignorance. The kid wasn't being racist, he didn't mean to say anything bad.
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