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No, really, you will.

When I was in school I thought no one would ever find me attractive. I was never asked out, yet the guys liked me as a friend. They thought I was cool to be around ebcause I liked a lot of the music, games and movies they did. All the other girls were into makeup, clothes, boys and finding out as much as they could about sex so they could act like they were having sex.

I had crushes and hoped one day they would realise I existed and ask me out, but that didn't happen.

I wasn't seriously interested in boys until I hit 15. At 16 I got my first boyfriend who would tell me I was beautiful, sexy, smart, fun, and had a great personallity. Being with him made me realise that having a boyfriend was really no big deal. I realised that when you're young, simply saying you had a boyfriend was the most important thing. Actually having one, getting to know that person, opening up to them, learning new things about yourself and having new experiences didn't cross my mind at all.

I've been with a lot of different guys for different reasons. I know I'm not ugly. It took me a long time to figure that out. It took someone telling me and meaning it (my family didn't count). It also took some intense soul searching. I had too look at myself as a whole, and each little part. Yes, there are parts of me I hate (my weight, my curly hair, my height sometimes), and there are parts I love (my boobs, eyes, lips).
This has been said a million times, but when you get older you do 'awaken' in a way. You understand that all the stereotypes and fatuation with boyfriends and looks fades. You realise what's important in the world. When you get out there, no one cares how many boyfriends you had or your highschool pictures. What matters is how you are, the way you portray yourself and your attitude towards life.

ahhh, if you're looking for pity you're not going to get it! It's not a stupid poem, it speaks the truth. One of the Rules of Love is: Boys are incapable of loving a girl until they have matured. No offence to guys, and it's the same for girls too, but a lot, NOT ALL, of teenage years are based around hormones and sex. And Never say never!!!! You're what? 16? (by what your profile says) I'm sixteen too and guys aren't interested in me at all. Does that make me feel unattractive? HELL NO! xd I know I have all the beauty I need for the rest of my life. You should know that too! Your brain is sexy, hot, beautiful and gorgeous. Every girl is beautiful, you don't need to have C36 boobs and a size 27-32 pants. You just need confidence and you'll find someone. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, the world won't cut you an ounce of slack. So cheer up!

Girls
are like apples
on trees. The best ones
are at the top of the tree.
The boys dont want to reach
for the good ones because they
are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't as good
but easy. So the apples at the top, think
something is wrong with them, when in
reality, they're amazing. They just
have to wait for the right boy to
come along, the one who's
brave enough to climb all
the way
to the top
of the tree.

I have had that on my xanga for awhile now lol. Its so cool and true.

That's a great little thing to read.

I remember throughout my life I was constantly put down by everyone, whether it was my looks, my weight, my level of knowledge... name it, and it was probably used on me.

Then I hit highschool and fell over from shock. Not all the attention is good, but very slowly I'm coming to accept myself because of the environment change. I have people complimenting me, being kind, and (occasionally) drooling over me. It's a flattering and wonderful change, to say the least.

That's a lovey poem.
I used to think I was so icky...
I still have those days where i believ I have been beaten with an ugly stick in my sleep, but I also have tose days where I feel gorgeous...
I do clean up fairly nicely when I do up my ahir and makeup and wear the proper clothing....
But I didn't get a boyfriend until I got that confidence.
In elementary I was extremely shy, introverted and had no more than 3 or 4 friends at a time...
I got tired of it, and went the complete opposite in middle school, becoming an extrovert with a happy exterior although I was still lacking major confidence and self esteem on the inside...
When I entered highschool, I finally realized beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and it doesn't matter what others think...
I had confidence and got my first boyfriend, we've broken up twice and gotten back together for the third time now...
And I couldn't be happier...
He's constantly telling me that I'm beautiful, even on those days when Iam not looking my best to say the least....

I have more on the issue to talk about. xD
As if my last post wasn't long enough. :3

Well I remeber beind so jealous of my friend Tanya, I thought she as so pretty. All the boys liked her. I would spend my time envying her, and pittying myself. Eventually I just grew out of it, and more people saw that. I was happier, more confident. People began to like me more. Now I don't feel sorry for myself. I don't need to. :3

That poem is true but I have mixed feelings about this issue because it applies to me. I know, slutty girls end up with bad guys. some of you have found guys that tell you you're pretty so it's easy for you to get over it. What about those of use that don't have that? I was told I was pretty when I was in high school and that was when I was most secure about my looks. Now that there's nobody to tell me I'm pretty, sometimes I don't think I am. I feel that if I'm not so pretty that other people say so, I must not be.

My family never commented on my looks. They never rienforced how cute I was so when people(boys in particualar) started telling me I was ugly in middle school, what else was I suppossed to think? It's not like anybody ever told me otherwise. Then highschool came around and boys told me I was pretty. Sometimes I believed it but most of the time, I thought they were lying. Now more than ever, I think they were lying.

Yeah, I was kind of rambling there. sweatdrop

Except that out of that 1,000 there are people who say it out of spite, people who lie, people who say it because they don't find anyone attractive, people who say it because they're insecure with themselves, people who like black women and you're white, people who like long hair and your's is short...

And the one person who may say the opposite is the only one that matters.

One thing that I have found most important is to take care of yourself and what matters to YOU. If I don't pluck my eyebrows, no matter WHAT else I do, I think I look trashy. However, if they're plucked nicely, I can be wearing dirty, kid-stained jammies with my hair an oily disaster and no make-up, and I think I look good.
Also, when I take a shower, blow-dry my hair and put on nice, clean clothes and some basic make up, I just FEEL better. Being dirty and lazy only makes you FEEL dirty and lazy. Just painting my toenails, even though no one sees it but me makes me happy, because I know my toes look nice.
I've got nice gigantic, red, poofy scars on my face that no makeup can cover... and there's days I hate them and they're all I see when I look in the mirror... and there's days when I forget they exist. But in all reality, guess what? I have a husband who met me BEFORE my face got ******** up... and he still married me and doesn't care. Appearance isn't everything.

In all reality, all that REALLY matters is that you're not so obese that you're handicapped and destined for early death, that you're clean and have brushed your hair, wear clothes that fit you comfortably and aren't dirty, and that you're happy with how you feel. And all of that is just common sense and general hygiene.

You shouldn't do anything for anyone but YOURSELF. Just because the short skirts and low v-neck shirts seem to magnatize some guys eyes doesn't mean you should wear them, especially if you don't feel good in them... because if you're not comfortable, why the hell would you want to where them in the first place? To impress someone who doesn't like you for who you are? So what the hell is the point?

I know everyone's been pushing this, but seriously, all though I know it's REALLY hard to understand, life is entirely different outside high school. There ARE no more social cliques you have to see or deal with. No one you're forced to be around that you don't want to (other than co-workers) and none of the bullshit that you deal with every single day.

Public school in general, almost more than being about education, is one big long lesson in learning this social rule: It's a hell of a lot better to act like yourself and have few friends and be happy than act like someone you're not and have tons of acquantinces who you have to walk on broken glass around so you don't break your 'appearance'.

Chepi... *sigh*
You've currently chosen the road of 'Everyone hates me and I hate everyone. I suck and everyone else sucks too."
You know where that gets you? Seriously? Absolutely nowhere. When you hate everyone and think they suck and you think everyone hates you... um, where's the invitation to MAKE friends or to GET boyfriends? You've shut it all out by assuming that you suck and they suck and everyone sucks. No one is going to approach you if you're going to be a sarcastic b***h without giving them any chance. I bet you don't go to parties because they're 'probably stupid anyway'. You laugh about being pessimistic, but seriously, what you're laughing about is that you've made yourself your own worst enemy and put up a wall to the very things you complain about not having.

And guess what? It's a normal teenager thing, and when you get older you'll realize how ridiculous it is. I know because I've been there, and so have other people I know.

I'm only 21, but 5 years ago was SO long ago now. I'm barely the same person, if only in name and general appearance.