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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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 Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:09 am
"And I never deserved to be abandoned by you the way you did. I was better WITH you Sommer. Becuase of you; now all I can do is think everyone will leave me. Both my brothers left me. And now you have." She saw him crying and she'd be lying if she said that she herself wasn't starting to tear up as well. But she wasn't going to let him see that. He could probably hear it in her voice though. "You wouldn't have to worry about me Sommer if you came around."
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:11 am
-he shakes his head- it iz a mixed mezzage...come around but I am strong enough I don't need you...I don't know what you want some of ze time..
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:12 am
She shook her head. "No sommer. It's not that hard to get. Come around as my FRIEND; not my protector. I don't need you to keep me safe; I need you to comfort me. It was so easy telling you everything. And I miss that. Do you know how terribly depressed I am Sommer? I keep staring at the water sometimes and HONESTLY just walked out into the middle; and drowning myself. Why shouldn't I? I don't have anymore friends after all. My brother hates me. My mother will probably disown my other brother. What do I have to live for anymore?"
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:13 am
Doez your mothzer disowning your brozther mean you cannot love eithzer anymore? Doez zis mean neithzer will love you anymore? And you have a lot of friendz, zey are all juzt out living zere livez..you should live too..you love life too much to do somezing like zat..
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:15 am
"I can't choose between my family Sommer. Robin would expect me too; mom would expect me too. But I can't. I'd rather die; then have to hurt my family like that. Than have to choose like that." She started to really cry now; letting it show as her whole face seemed to scrunch up as if she'd gotten a whiff of something unpleasant. "What friends Sommer? You've left me. Adonis left me. Dunixi left me. Lucifer left me! Ahser ran away! Robin is never around and when he is all he does is make me feel like the worse doe in the world. And Lawley... doesn't even really count cause he hasn't been there from the beginning. Ember's off doing her own thing. Cliffton is never around. I have ONE friend that is a true friend to me that doesn't like me the way the rest of them claimed to. ONE. What kind of life is that?"
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:16 am
-he sighs deeply and takes a step forward, pauses, almost afraid to comfort her. She may not even want it. He takes a step forward, moves very slowly to give her a hug, allowing her the option to move away if she chooses-
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:17 am
Flora had been holding all of that in for so long; she couldn't help it when she started to bawl like that' the tears just streaming down her wet furry cheeks; too filled with tears to actually stick. She hid her face into the side of his neck and just cried.
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:18 am
-just says softly in her ear- Just cry all you want too...it iz ok....-he stands there quietly, allowing her to cry. Inwardly he feels like he too could curl up and die. He only ever tried to do right and now he felt like a failure even more-so. But he stood there quietly and allowed Flora to cry all she needed too-
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:19 am
Flora wasn't sure if she'd ever cried this much; if she'd ever even really cried. She hated to cry; it made her feel awful. Made her feel like someone was going to see her; and feel upset that she was upset. She wasn't sure how long she'd cried for... It could have been a few hours; it could have been a few minutes. But when she was done... she felt a bit better; like weight had been lifted from her shoulder. With puffy eyes and blurry vision and a sniffling nose Flora nuzzled into Sommer in thanks.
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:26 am
-gives her a tiny smile and steps back- Everyone haz hard timez, and if we all gave up when we did, I would already be dead. C'est la vie, zat iz life. But you need to be happy when you can be...you are a good doe. Robin lovez you, he would not try to underztand you, to comfort you in ze wayz he can if he did not. And if your mothzer and brothzer make you chooze, chooze neithzer. Make an example. Tell zem both zat you love zem and you will not chooze between zem. And then juzt love zem. Spend time with your mothzer, spend time with Lawley. Lizten to zem, be happy with ze time you have with zem. You have to enjoy what you do have n your life, and more will come along with ze good and ze bad...and dezpite what you zink, you would be mizzed if you drowned yourzelf..-tiny frown- I zought zis way too. I zought, Ah I willl go blind, I will be worthlezz, I should just end it now so zat I am not a burden. Now, zink of what you would have felt if I had done zis. Zat is wat everyone elze would have too.
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:27 am
Flora nodded and let out a slightly sad huff. "You don't know my mother Sommer... if I didn't pick; she would disown me too. If I picked her; I would kill Lawley; and Robin would hate me. You don't know Robin like I do Sommer. I can't even speak my mind; or try to tell him what's bothering me... like I can with you; with out him jumping down my throat and telling me I'm too judgemental..." She started to sniffle and tear up again. "How can I get it off of my chest; if I have no one to listen to me that won't hate me afterwards?"
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:30 am
-hard swollow- I wouldn't hate you afterwardz, no matter what you would tell me. Even if it waz to tell me you hated me....and I do know Robin, he and I we talk a lot and spend a lot of time togethzer..
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:31 am
Flora backed away from him; the most pained expression; most betrayed look on her fact that has probably ever been on her face. "So you can talk with Robin... and he can come to you.... but neither of you can be there for me?" She whimpered. Closing her eyes and taking a few more steps back. Not connecting what he might mean but the fact that the two of them have been spending a lot of time together.
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:33 am
-says softly- I can only apologize for myzelf, but I cannot controll what Robin doze...-he says softer- I told you why I have been avoiding you..-he sighs, this was going to ramp back up into a screaming match-
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Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 2:34 am
Flora shook her head; trying to keep herself back under control; she didn't want to start crying again; not over Robin; not again. "He hates me doesn't he... that's why he doesn't come around."
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