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 Posted: Tue Mar 02, 2010 8:19 am
"Oh... You're one of those people." Deskri had heard whispers about the disease, he was just thankful that he and Insonorise had been isolated with no contact with anyone else from the school aside from Sonnet, so neither of them had caught anything. But it also seemed that a lot of the students had just refused to come back, like Insonorise has. "Deskri, I'm Deskri, and I'm Rasiel's friend.... hopefully." He muttered the last part under his breath, they really didn't need to know what had gone on in the dorm.
"We already know that, I wasn't going to give him pills, it'll just make everything worse." Deskri shot a glare at Syth, he hadn't forgotten who Syth's sister was, and just that association alone gave him enough to dislike the mute girl.
These two are going to ruin everything for you~ everything. Sooner or later he'll look back, feeling eyes on him, and he'll see you chatting it up with his worst enemies.
"Will you stop it already? I'm going to get rid of them..." Mentally, Deskri sighed his irritated response to Kagyaku's teasing.
"Look, he can't see you talking to me, I can't be seen talking to you, so do me a favor and just go. Don't worry about him, I'm going to make it better. If he does see us talking, that's the end of everything...." Deskri scooted a little further down the hill, trying to distance himself from Alice and Syth.
What're you going to do if he turns around right now, hm? You're so obviously associating yourself with them. What're you going to do, run and tackle him to the ground, pretending to save him from his frightening sister with amnesia? That'll backfire. You're screwed no matter what you do at this point. You should've screamed, should've alerted him to their presence if you didn't want him to freak out.
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Posted: Tue Mar 02, 2010 8:50 am
'Deskri...' she repeated his name in her head, as some images of Deskri and Rasiel being in close proximity had popped into her head for a bit, nothing too significant as she would think it. Frowning, she stood up, still trying not to be noticed as she started to move away. "Sorry.." she whispered as she walked down the side of the hill, still keeping an eye on Rasiel, moving toward the side of the lake where she had seen some toddlers playing earlier.
Rasiel sighed and stood slowly, staring out into the lake, still looking as though he was in deep thought. It was now obvious that he had been here before as he moved to a tree right near him and stepped up on one of the uplifted roots of the tree and reached inside the top of the tree branches to pull down a sleek black violin and bow. Hopping back down, he leaned against the tree facing the lake and began to play a sad-sounding song. (Not activating any powers, just normally playing his violin) He closed his eyes as he played and swayed a little. Obscurite was quiet. This was something he only found out recently, that the voice in his head would be put to sleep by his violin playing like some enchanting spell, even though Rasiel intended nothing to happen from his playing. His music and violin were the only things that made him calm in times of stress, besides his usual destructive ways of pills and cutting.
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Posted: Tue Mar 02, 2010 10:57 am
Deskri watched her leave without saying anything. He had no attachment to Alice, with or without her memory, so he really didn't see a point in talking to her any longer. He changed his attention when he saw Rasiel move out of the corner of his eyes. For a split second he feared he'd been found out, that Rasiel was going to end all association with him once and for all, but when he went and retrieved his violin Deskri calmed down.
Tell me that's not a faggoty obsession.
"it's not, there's nothing wrong with being afraid that a friend's going to stop being friends with you... I'd do the same for Sonnet. Now shut up." Deskri glanced back over his shoulder at Alice and Syth before he started moving a little closer to where Rasiel was. He made no effort to interrupt his friend or make himself known at all, he figured it would be better for Rasiel to see him rather than making it so he had to be seen.
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Posted: Wed Mar 03, 2010 12:19 am
Alice had taken Syth by the hand to walk away from Deskri, keeping a close eye on Rasiel. She had stopped for a moment when she heard what he was playing. "I've heard that song before.." she commented, intrigued with the idea that she faintly remembered the music, though she couldn't pinpoint why she knew it. Strange.
Rasiel had been playing to the lake as he held his head downward, hiding his face from the world. Tears had slid down his cheeks, staining them lightly with eyeliner. Obscurite was itching to speak, he could feel it, but as long as he kept playing the violin, Obscurite would be quiet. This was a relief to him, as he knew he could at least get some peace and quiet in his mind, even if just for a few seconds. Rasiel really began to get into his music as he moved from the tree and almost began to waltz alone. He swayed back and forth, spinning slowly a few times. The music sounded sad, but was really a bit upbeat to Rasiel. As he took a quick spin, Rasiel opened his eyes to spot Deskri sitting there watching him. A stale note scraped across the strings as the bow slipped out of his hand on fell to the ground. Rasiel's grip went loose as the violin follow suit and hit the floor with a loud THUD as though it was actually made from a thick metal substance. Rasiel was almost horrified that Deskri may have been watching the whole time, or at least enough to see him crying and playing. He lowered his head after a bit, avoiding eye contact as he moved to pick up his bow and violin.
'I was going to tell you... but you wouldn't let me..'
"I'm sorry.." was all he had the courage to say as he turned to walk away, but then had caught sight of Alice and Syth staring at him from the direction he had intended on going.
'Damn, what is this an intervention? Come on, it's so easy to see that they are all working against you. Who knew, Deskri was working with Alice all along.. No freaking wonder..' Obscurite laughed inside his head.
Rasiel just stood there, head down as he contemplated what to do. He considered actually letting Obscurite out, just so that he could hide from his embarrassment. He debated on running as well, but either way seemed like a hostile move. Rasiel was unsure what to do, as he kept his head down, and eyes out of sight.
"Uhm.. Syth. I think we should leave. Now." she mentioned as she began to squeeze Syth's hand tightly. She felt like something bad could happen and she felt a bit scared, but couldn't pinpoint why she felt that way. Alice dragged Syth away, farther out of Rasiel's sight as she then turned to Syth with a small smile. "Let's do something.. I mean, let's find some more people.. I think my brother and his lover need some time alone anyway." she commented with a giggle not really realizing the true situation between the two of the boys. "Oh, look! A tea party!" Alice laughed about the idea as it seemed a bit childish but not too farfetch to try it herself.
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Posted: Wed Mar 03, 2010 8:01 am
Deskri pushed himself up and then forced himself to walk over to Rasiel. All instincts said run in the other direction because Rasiel had spotted Alice and Syth, which meant he had probably also found out that he'd been talking to them. "Rasiel? Can we please talk...? Please?" As he neared Rasiel he slowed his pace to just a few steps until he was a close distance from his friend.
"I'm sorry I watched, but... I really... I don't want to not be friends anymore because bad things got in the way..." He looked down, finding that it was hard to explain why he'd just sat around watching Rasiel when his friend had obviously wanted to be alone.
Like he'll believe that, you should just let me take over. I'll take care of everything myself. You're too stupid and useless to do this right. Kagyaku began pushing for control. One of Deskri's hands moved to his head, as if it would suppress the demon from getting out.
Don't fight it, let me take over! We could use this kid, you know. As long as he keeps his f*****t thing in control, he'll be good for what I need. Understand? He'll rip you apart from the inside out, which is exactly what I want. Let's provoke him, hm? Lets see what he does when provoked. I bet you'll barely make it through. Kagyaku pushed harder, causing a small gasp to escape from Deskri even though he was trying very hard not to react to Kagyaku's efforts. It wasn't the right time to pull all of the focus in on bad things taking over, he needed to deal with friendship problems.
[;__; hurrr this sucked. I'm sorryyyyy~ -flees to school- ]
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Posted: Wed Mar 03, 2010 9:01 am
Rasiel kept his head down, almost as though he had already sunk back into his own little world. His thoughts were calm but monotone as he talked to himself in his mind, figuring out his options at this point. He moved to walk away but stopped, as though he reconsidered the idea of leaving. Something about Deskri made him want to stay, want to know everything he had to say, to cling to every word that left his mouth. But with his strong views against those kinds of feelings, he was at an impasse. Rasiel stood there, watching Deskri through his hair, trying to listen to the words he spoke, but Obscurite was becoming to loud, to riled up for him to quite hear him properly. He caught the end of it, something about the bad things, and then it sort of hit him. The bad things. If Obscurite could sense when people were there around him, then maybe they could communicate to each other, bad thing to bad thing. That dawning revelation still didn't solve his conflicting feelings problem, but it did give him time to realize that maybe the bad things were only playing with him, as per usual. He was almost enraged, but kept his emotions in check while standing there, though he was giving off a sense of anger from his body.
'Even if that's true, how do you know that Deskri's bad thing's not as strong as Deskri, and Deskri in fact the real bad thing. I can hear Deskri's thoughts. He wants to lure you close to him, and then hurt you..'
'I wouldn't so much mind..'
'What kind of thinking is that? Don't you want to protect yourself, and what you are? You think you're not gay, then prove it.'
'I'm not-... not gay. but how?'
'What would mother think to see both her children are fags.' Obscurite burst out into laughter.
Rasiel was determined not to be like his older sister. He didn't want anything to do with her, he hated her, and if he could help it, he'd probably let Obscurite kill her. It was no skin off his back. But what if Deskri really had been ******** with him this whole time. Making him feel secure and wanted just to rip out his heart later. The idea made him shudder, what was he thinking. He acted as though he cared deeply for Deskri. Well, he did. But not in that kind of way. Deskri pulled a hand to his face as though he was experiencing a very bad headache. At that point, Rasiel had lost it. He couldn't keep his thoughts together with all the conflict in his mind. He reached into the compartment in his violin and pulled out a small white bottle labeled "for the pain". He open the lid, tilted his head back, and dumped all the remaining pills within the plastic bottle into his mouth. As usual, whatever stuck to his tongue, or landed in his mouth would happen to be his dosage for the day. Swallowing hard, he sat down, letting the pills take hold of him. "..i promised i wouldn't.. i'm sorry.." he whispered to what seemed like nobody as he sat there waiting to feel the rush of sedation and eventually would probably black out again.
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Posted: Wed Mar 03, 2010 3:57 pm
The waiting was agonizing, Deskri wanted some sort of answer or clue as to how Rasiel was feeling or what he was thinking, but he wasn't getting it.
Keep resisting me and I'll have to push you harder than ever before, Deskri. Do you want me to do that? It'll hurt, but I won't make it feel good like usual. Kagyaku was growing angrier with Deskri's determination to keep him suppressed while Rasiel sorted himself out. By the time he realized what Rasiel was doing with the pills, it was too late. He'd already taken them.
"Rasiel!" He wasn't thinking anymore, instead he rushed forward, grabbing Rasiel by the arms. If you had let me take over he wouldn'tve had the time to take those pills! You're always making the wrong decision, and now look what's happened. Maybe he's overdosed and he won't ever wake up again. Kagyaku spoke in a serious tone he only used when he really, really meant something. The calmness of it usually drove Deskri into a frenzy of panic or some other strong emotion and it usually resulted in a lot of his own blood being shed, this time however Deskri tried to keep control of himself. Rasiel needed help, that was for sure, but what kind? What if he didn't want help? What if he really did die and he hadn't done anything for him? His thoughts were racing at a million miles an hour, each one coming up with new extremes or solutions, but each one was denied.
"I-it's fine, it's fine, whatever makes it better..." The words were coming out before he knew what he was saying. He often used the excuse "it makes it better" whenever he was doing something bad to himself in the past, so why shouldn't Rasiel be allowed that same excuse? Besides, he found that it helped to be told that whatever he was doing wrong was fine... To be told that he was forgiven for committing bad acts.
He's going to reject you anyway, you know. You're a f*****t, he's not. He hates faggots; I can see it. We're the same, you know, me and him. THE SAME. We hate people like you. You're a ********' freak of nature, no matter what they say. So why are you even trying? Do you like it? Do you like it when people take you down, and then kick you? It'd all be over if you'd just LET ME HAVE CONTROL!
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 9:59 am
His vision began to blur as the world started to fall apart. He could feel himself falling, feeling weightless, like he was just flying away, falling infinitely into dark abyss. He looked up to the sky and the setting sun as it melted off of it's usual blue palette with purples and oranges. Deskri seemed to care for him, which made his heart flutter slightly. He enjoyed the caring of his friend, since he cared probably almost as much. But Rasiel shook his head, remembering that it was completely unacceptable and his mother would hate him for sure if he ever fell in love with someone of the same gender. He couldn't do it, he just couldn't bring himself to accepting his feelings for Deskri. He couldn't accept the fact that Deskri could even love a monster like him. He figured that his feelings may have been one-sided and ruled that Deskri would never love him like he did. He felt alone, isolated, and darkness rose up into his mind. His heart swelled in pain from thinking about how much Deskri probably didn't actually care for him. It wasn't fair. He should have just found a girl to settle with, that might have been so much better. At least then, his mother wouldn't hate him in the end. He so desperately wanted his mothers approval, without realizing that she had already accepted Alice's new found love and was actually coming to be okay with it. No, even if he knew, he wouldn't believe it.
'You want help?'
'No, why would I even want your help?'
'Because you want to get away, you want to find someone else, you want to be free from your naughty thoughts. I can help.'
'How.. can you help me..'
'Does that mean you want my help?'
'No..............yes.'
Rasiel had closed his eyes for a few moments and then opened them again, standing up with a small stumble, picking up his violin. "Just leave me alone. I don't want to talk right now.." he commented as he decided not to announce his presence to Deskri. He began to walk away, trying to find anywhere else to go but here.
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 10:26 am
"Will you just shut up already?! I'm tired of hearing s**t from you!" Deskri looked away as he spoke to Kagyaku, the demon was shouting in his head loud enough that his own thoughts wouldn't be heard over the ruckus.
It was a miracle that he'd even heard "Rasiel" speaking over it. "What do you mean, leave you alone? You just... you're going to pass out sooner or later and I can't just let you walk off to get eaten by some rabid animal wherever you fall!" Deskri started off after Rasiel, his anger at Kagyaku was fueling his actions, making him more reckless. He hadn't even bothered to stop and think that Kagyaku had purposely driven him in this direction.
"What upsets you so much about it? Is it because I'm a guy? I can't help that I was born male you know!" He was bound to get hit sooner or later, but he didn't particularly care about that. "Is it because they insisted that I wanted more?" He was making the assumption that Obscurite had said the same thing as Kagyaku had. His anger was burning out as the reality really sunk in. He'd been telling himself that Rasiel wasn't gay the entire time, but this really hammered it home. "I... You really can't be friends with someone like me? It's not like I want anything from you other than friendship." He felt the tears making themselves at home in his eyes, but he refused to let them fall.
There wasn't any sense in crying over something he already knew as going to happen, no matter how much it hurt.
Fuuuuuck, you react so strongly to rejection. I love it. Go on, push him more. Say it out loud; exclaim your freak of nature status! Stop hinting at it. And you're so wrapped up in your lies that you insist you only want friendship to his face! Oh you're going to get yourself ******** over real good sooner or later, when he finds out you don't want to just be friends.
"Please just give me an answer... We said we were going to be friends forever, but if... If this changes it, I'll go away... I'll avoid you, I won't see you ever again... I promise it, just please give me some sort of answer." He choked a little, causing his footfalls to become clumsy as he followed after "Rasiel." He never did notice the change, and he wasn't going to either unless Obscurite said something particularly off.
Liar. You won't even try. You'll move out of the dorm, but you won't bother hiding your existence from him any more than you do now!
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 11:06 am
Freya looked back to where Walter had walked to, expecting to judge how much longer he'd take based on the assumption if she saw him yet. She looked back at Hayden. "We gotta be quick, okay? This is impor'nt." She turned away and looked back one more time with a guilty face. She apologized to her dad in her mind, promising she'd come back as soon as she could.
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 12:38 pm
Rasiel's heart continued to sink as he could hear the words that Deskri spoke from inside his mind. But he couldn't do anything about it, his body kept walking away. No matter how much he screamed, his mouth would never move. Obscurite was in control now, and he couldn't stop him. He began to approach the side of the lake with people at it, some toddlers, Alice, and Syth. This could be bad, what if Obscurite hurt someone, he'd never live it down.
Alice had been talking to Syth about what to do next when she noticed Rasiel walking towards them. She didn't really know what to do, if she should walk away somewhere else or possibly talk to him. She noticed Deskri trying to stop him and heard the mention that he may pass out and something else about Deskri being a guy, maybe wanting more.. She wasn't sure what the context was, but something told her she should try to help calm Rasiel down. Regardless of whether it was true that he would pass out or not, for whatever reason their may have been, she didn't want to take the chance if he did. Taking a step forward to stand in front of Rasiel, "Where are you going? Is everything okay?" she asked, obviously looking worried because at this point, she still cared about her brother. "Is there anything I can do to help, Rasiel?"
Rasiel stopped when Alice got in front of him. He grinned a bit as he stared at her, then looked to Syth. "You again.. What, just can't get enough of me?" he commented as he then looked back to Alice and began to glare a little.
'Who the ******** is this?'
'Stop it! Don't hurt her! Don't hurt anyone! Just let me out!! I want to talk to Deskri!! He's my friend! I don't care about my stupid feelings, I just want to be is friend! That's all!!! Please, let me out!!'
'Maybe I should show her a lesson..'
'NO! STOP IT!! DON'T HURT THEM!!!'
Obscurite grinned once more and then swung his arm back and brought his violin crashing down on Alice's head. "Let that be a warning! Stay the ******** away from me, b***h!!!" he exclaimed, almost growling in anger. He then turned to Deskri and reached to grab his shirt collar to pull him close to his face. "Do you want to be hurt next? Maybe you should learn a lesson here, f*****t. I don't want to see your face again." he growled and then let go of his shirt collar.
Rasiel felt a sharp pain in his chest as he heard the words he would never want to say come out of his mouth. He felt like it was over. There would be no redeeming himself now. Obscurite was probably convincing enough that Deskri might go away and never come back again. The thoughts that terrorized his mind just sent him deeper into the darkness as he had given up complete control to Obscurite, no longer even trying to fight to get back his body. His body was Obscurite's now. Rasiel didn't want it anymore after what he had done.
Alice was taken by surprise with the violin as she hit the floor hard. She struggled to sit up as she winced in pain, holding her head. "What the ******** is wrong with you?! I don't even remember you anymore, so why the ******** would you do that?! I hadn't done anything to you since I've been back!! s**t!" she yelled as she growled, her teeth extending and her eyes fading into red. She was becoming more enraged by the second, almost about ready to tear his head off. "Why don't you just grow up and accept who you are?! Deskri cares about you! And so do I!! Quit pushing us away, dammit!! We are TRYING to help you!!!" she continued to scream as she sat on the ground, still trying to regain her head. 'Jesus, what the ******** is that thing made out of anyway?! That damn thing hurts!!!' she thought, still growling out of pure anger.
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 1:31 pm
"Okay! I think I losted him over..uhm..." Hayden glanced around the lake, eyes momentarily landing on the group of people that seemed to have appeared from nowhere. (I'm gonna have him notice them since everyone else seems to note the toddlers hangin' out in the area. XD) "Tha's my big brother!" He exclaimed suddenly as he pointed to Deskri right as the older meta was grabbed by the collar. "Wha's that boy doin' to my brother!?" Hayden, even though he thought his big brother was mean, was not about to let some big kid bully his brother.
"We got'a save 'im!" He looked to Freya, half expecting her to follow as he started a clumsy run to "save" his big brother from the strange boy.
Deskri froze up as he was grabbed and then threatened. He was in denial, Rasiel wouldn't threaten him like that... No matter how upset he got. Kagyaku took the opportunity to take command, and did his best "Deskri" impression just to mock Obscurite. "Oh yes please, go right ahead and beat me, you'll only turn me on." A manic grin spread across his face as his eyes shifted colors. "You'll have to be more convincing than that, Obscurite! This slave of mine wants exactly what you offered; I've got him well trained to seek it out, you know." The eyes shifted back as "Kagyaku" grabbed his head and took a step back.
"What does RASIEL have to say?!" Deskri, while he couldn't see what was going on when Kagyaku was in charge, could hear bits and pieces when his demon wanted him to. It was then that he noticed Hayden running full speed toward them. "Oh s**t..." With his attention changed, he was no longer paying attention to what "Rasiel" was doing. "Hayden stay away! You can't come over here!" He waved at his little brother, hoping to deter him from coming any closer, but it only seemed to spur him onward.
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 2:36 pm
Obscurite's eyes flashed a yellow color then he grinned evilly. "So you must be the infamous Kagyaku." he spoke as his smile only widened. "You think it's fun to ******** with my pet's mind? You know you confuses him, his brain can't handle complex ideas. So, let me just handle his toture. You stick to your job and I'll stick to mine. Unless..." Obscurite moved closer to Kagyaku, grinning wildly as he stoked a finger across Kagyaku's cheek. "...Unless you want to work.. together. I'd be willing to make an except for you.." he commented menacingly as he approach ever closer, almost close enough to meet bodies together.
"What the-... What the ******** is going on?!" she exclaimed with anger, becoming enraged even further with her confusion. She managed to stand, off-balance, and ready to almost fall over again. She then saw her brother get closer to Deskri. 'Wait.. my brother is gay?' she thought, noticing his movements resembled that of someone who was interested in that kind of way. It didn't too much surprise her since she was a lesbian anyway, but it hadn't come to her attention that he might have been interested in the same sex too. Though, his actions were a little odd, she couldn't tell the difference since she hadn't fully remembered Rasiel or ever met Obscurite when she didn't have amnesia. 'Wait.. they're both gay. So their lovers.. or gay enemies. I don't get it.' Alice seemed to stare at the two boys with an odd expression on her face, one of confusion and intrigue.
Obscurite took a hand under Kagyaku's chin and brought his face really close to his. "So,... what do you say?... Want to work together?.."
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 2:48 pm
Freya looked over at the two boys, running as she followed Hayden. What a weird scene they stumbled upon. She didn't know either of them, but they were getting really close like they did in the movies. Boys could do that to each other? She kept herself behind Hayden, blushing a bit as she didn't know if this was something she should be watching.
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Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2010 3:01 pm
The eyes returned to red, Kagyaku had decided that it was better to address Obscurite himself rather that let Deskri relay the information. "What's so complex about masochism, I wonder? Is your pet mentally stunted?" Kagyaku laughed, but it didn't sound like something that could come from Deskri's body. "Keep the faggotry out of it. I have no interest in Deskri's disgusting obsessions." Kagyaku brushed Obscurite's hand aside, eyes narrowing with obvious distaste.
"We can work out a deal. You give me what I'll want and I'll give you what you want." The smirk from the last time Kagyaku had taken over returned to his face. Deskri was desperately trying to take over again, which was apparent in the way his eyes kept gaining flecks of gold in them. Each attempt for control was thwarted swiftly by Kagyaku, who really had been holding back before.
"Wha' shud we do? I dunno how to save my big brother...." Now that they were within a good distance from the group of teenagers, Hayden looked back to Freya for ideas. He hadn't used any of his powers aside from that time back home when he'd turned the radio up with his headphones... "That oth'r boy is creepy."
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