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I remember as early as two or three years old being aware that there was 'more to life than the television.' I would try to get up and walk around the house and actually 'learn' something other than what the television was programming me to do, but my mom's idea of discipline was sitting me back in front of the television and going, 'Sit down and watch the TV.' I always knew the TV distorted reality as well, because I remember I would watch TV because it seemed I had no choice, and I was actually aware of it slowly distorting reality for me and the effects it had on my psyche and mode of thought. After prolonged exposure to McDonald's commercials and the way they show people dipping fries in the ketchup and stuff, it actually changed the way I saw my own ketchup at home. As trivial as that sounds, it was still something I knew I couldn't fight; it was just something I was aware of that at least disturbed me.

I also remember wanting to stand up in high school and go, 'Guys, we need to stop watching American Idol. We're living wrong.' But it seemed like too much to take on and I didn't want to be the 'crazy/eccentric' kid.

I was always aware there was something wrong. Growing up, I always wanted to do right. I watched a video that says the television teaches us to do 'what we want to do anyway,' meaning that instead of going out and improving the world and doing right in what I would call a missionary sort of way (helping others with their problems, for instance, or lending counsel), which is probably hard sometimes since we're all isolated and dealing with our own problems (including low morale), we sit back down in front of the TV and do nothing.

I was apprehensive about starting school as a child, too, because I always knew there was something wrong with the way we were living. I knew the programs I still enjoyed watching were numbing us, programming us, dumbing us down, confusing us, and distracting us from what those who had to be in power somewhere out there were doing, and I also figured that the shows I also enjoyed like Power Rangers were probably going to cause aggression in the kids I was going to start school with. I just predicted the environment I was going to be thrust in and knew it was going to be bad. In many ways it was. I call it being 'institutionalized.' In kindergarten, I remember standing and meditating before leaving school and even knowing they were probably teaching us lies in our books! I knew this because growing up, I knew someone was responsible for all of the advertisements we were being shown and even the seditive state my parents were in. I stood there thinking about what I could do about it and then started getting bullied. I actually have PTSD and Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from protracted exposure to prolonged social and interpersonal trauma. I was literally traumatized by the bullying incident because I was particularly close to the trauma. It's difficult to explain the sort of affect it had on me, but it was a normal reaction to an abnormal situation where the integrity of others was at stake as well. I would almost call the school environment in general an 'abnormal situation' that we're all put into. I've always wanted to change the world and do right and wake others up. I guess I'm comforted(?) by the fact that I was at least aware of what was going on, but I've lived in a state of resignation for a long time because it always seemed like too much to take on.

And it's not just Loose Change that exposes the truths behind 9/11. Zeitgeist is known for exposing the real 9/11 situation as well as what's going on "behind the curtain" in today's mainstream media.

My family thinks that conspiracy theories give the government too much credit. Basically, they think the government are totally incompetent xD

Thank you. ninja