To the one that I serve
I was always under the impression that racisim was always intentional. That it was something one thoughtfully and meaningfully engaged in. Which is why I couldn't see the racisim in this tradition. Hell I am still trying to understand it...However If that is not the case (and I am willing to admit that my understanding of words and actions may be wrong) then the majority of witches and neo-pagans I know are also racist.
I am not saying it's a good thing. I'm just saying that it's not something I had not realized before now. It hurts realizing that I have been engaging in a behavior that I have always striven to avoid. I feel lost and confused and in some ways betrayed.
Last night I was upset about the comments in this thread, because it caused a massive amount of confusion with in me. Confusion I didn't have any answers for, and frankly still don't.
I was also feeling angry because I felt attacked. I realize now after a good nights sleep that I wasn't being attacked. People were just trying to show me the racism and get me to think about my actions that I was engaging in. Which is fine.
I now have a question for Penczak when I hand in the homework for this lesson. Though I do need some help in finding the information on the actual Celtic Festivals, because all the searches I have done result in the common neo-pagan popular understanding. It's not something I am going to bring up to my Teacher till I have some resources to use.
I will give my all