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 Posted: Sun Dec 18, 2005 8:06 am
AW, there is joy in Christmas Lilim, but it does take some finding sometimes, mostly it's there in the unexpected places, buried beneath all the commercialism and familial competitiveness, tucked away in a corner you'll find someone's Nan with a plate of homemade mince pies and the cat asleep in fronf ot a real fire, and it can fill your heart with love(even if it's only for a little while)
This Christmas will be full of joy for me, because my Nan is still here with us, even if she's another Christmas hater!
I just enjoy being able to spend some time with my family, i've only bought 2 gifts for each person this year because far too much emphasis goes on that, people really should focus on family time at Christmas, and not stress about putting together fancy feasts and so on, especially as all you Americans did it last month for Thanksgiving 3nodding
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Posted: Tue Dec 20, 2005 7:28 pm
Well, 'my Christmas surprise' has taken his little brother out for some 'brotherly bonding'. I am so glad, cause as much as I miss DJ, I imagine when you are only 9 and your brother has been gone for 2 years... that is a much larger percentage than mom can claim... my older son really took it to heart when I told him how sad the little guy looked when his brother did not come home from the gun show with his dad, but a day like today should make it all good rofl The older one probably does not even realize who is his biggest fan... yet
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Posted: Mon Dec 26, 2005 6:49 pm
Well, so far my two sons have been to an arcade, gotten the little guy a military haircut, been to the Strip to see "THe Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe" and the elder son has taught the little one about the Red Rider Daisy Air Rifle he got for Christmas, and just generally had a blast. Baby Bubba is looking forward to having his big brother here on New Years Eve, which is something he has loved to wait up for the last couple years, so sharing with his brother is a big deal to him.
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Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 9:50 am
sounds like you're all having the best possible time Lizzie, i'm so happy for you heart
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Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 10:57 am
So glad to hear you have had a wonderful time with your son heart
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Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2005 8:04 pm
jellysundae sounds like you're all having the best possible time Lizzie, i'm so happy for you heart roocee So glad to hear you have had a wonderful time with your son heart Tonight he has gone to "The Palms" with some friends... He was talking about a tatoo when he left, and he is 22, so no matter how much I still think of him as my baby, he is all grown up now, and nothing I can say about baby oil, lotion etc is gonna stop him from decorating his body rolleyes silly boy
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Posted: Sat Dec 31, 2005 12:31 am
Well, tonight I had to do something pretty hard, but I hope it is for the best.
For those who know and those who don't the son in the Army who is home right now is the father of my Grand Angel, Rebeccah.
His ex wife has been in contact with me sporadically through the past couple of years, even though she divorced him, and let me know when she remarried, although she did not tell him...
she let me know a while back she was expecting again by her new husband, and also, my son had no idea...
THEN a few months ago she IMed me with the news that her Doctors think they *finally* know why my grand baby passed away, and the good news was it was nothing to do with my son because it had to do with a bacteria in her body that gave the baby pneumonia (I am a little fuzzy at this point, according to her the doctors have only recently identified it and look for it in mothers like her) ...
The problem was, she STILL had not been in touch with my son, and as things/events snowballed, she just did not know how to approach him, and was kind of letting it fall to me, more or less, as the baby thing especially was something he had a need/right to know...
WELLLLL
tonight the subject came up, and he said he has spent over three years wondering what he could have done differently and how he might have saved the baby....
my perfect opening...
he now knows the truths as relayed to me, with my assurance that although I have wanted him to know, I could not bring myself to tell him in an instant message. There was not a dry eye in the room at that point, so it was probably a good call on my part. He was here with his "Momma" and I was able to tell him face to face like he deserved....
Any purkles who can take a second to send some healing purkle *closure* vibes his way, it will be greatly appreciated, as he has been burying this for far too long, and accepting her blaming him (a loooong time ago) as the way it was.
Thanks for reading this, and if ya know any angels, please ask them to join Rebeccah in looking out for her daddy right now. Her Grandma (me) needs a little purkle back up! heart
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Posted: Sat Dec 31, 2005 5:39 am
crying
i had to dry my eyes before i could see to type here..
i so hope he does feel closure now, that news is equally very sad and happy, hopefully now you can all revel in the memories of your little lost angel, and not feel any guilt/sadness, she will have been there in the room when you told your son 3nodding
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Posted: Sun Jan 01, 2006 5:48 pm
OMGs, Lizzy, I can't even imagine how difficult that must have been for you and him. I am praying that this closure helps heal the wound a little bit faster and cleaner.
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Posted: Sun Jan 01, 2006 6:17 pm
FenNurse OMGs, Lizzy, I can't even imagine how difficult that must have been for you and him. I am praying that this closure helps heal the wound a little bit faster and cleaner. I think the hardest part was knowing for the past several months. I kind of feel it was unfair of his ex to tell me the things she wanted him to know, but we talked about it later... and she used to go to HIM with all the things she did not feel she could say to me. It is just her way, I guess Things *Seem* better already and I will always be glad I did not end up telling him in an email or an IM...so I could really feel I was there for him heart
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Posted: Sun Jan 01, 2006 8:53 pm
*huggles to you and your family Lizzy* I'm sending healing purkle (and green) vibes to him for closure (green is for healing, purkle is for.. well, purkle, and maybe because I just posted a picture of that beautifully wrapped present, I can't get the purkle and green combo out of my head when I try to send purkle vibes!)  It sounds like things worked out for the best for when and how he heard it, when he could be right there with you for the holidays. heart
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Posted: Sun Jan 01, 2006 9:08 pm
OMG! You are so covered with purkle love!!
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Posted: Sun Jan 01, 2006 10:19 pm
neonibbles OMG! You are so covered with purkle love!! agreed....can hardly type this for the tears.. crying ..sending yall everything i have crying ..sorry very emotional right now crying much loves to you all............................. heart heart heart heart heart heart
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Posted: Tue Jan 03, 2006 9:40 am
Thanks so much everypurkle. I really feel like knowing there were people out there plugging for us has to help.
My son flew back to Georgia yesterday morning to complete Infantry School at Fort Benning, so our house is getting back to normal rofl whatever that is.
I read back through my post about telling him, and I truly think the saddest thing was hearing my 'baby' had spent over three years blaming himself.
The fact that (before she knew otherwise) his ex dumped blame on him is almost understandable knowing them, because he always tried to assume the role of protector, and she actually *subconciously* carried alot of baggage over this, and had changed alot since.
She has become 'Born Again', into the type of group where she no longer wants/has any contact with people from her past because she is so immersed into her new life. The thing about that that makes me sad is I took her into my home when she was 15 and her mom (who had a drinking problem and alot of issues) basically dumped her kids and left the state with a guy who did not like kids. When I took her in she was not even my son's girlfriend, she was just another good kid from the neighborhood who needed a good home. We never at that time (and for a long time) imagined she would be my daughter in law some day, and now she has very little contact with me. Only stuff like informing me she was married. Informing me she was pregnant. Informing me that the doctor taking care of her new pregnancy now thinks he had isolated the reason for my grand daughter's passing.
Oh well, I have to admit that even I have felt some peace in knowing that and closure in being able to relay it to my son *finally*
Purkle
((((((((HUGS))))))))
all around!
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Posted: Tue Jan 03, 2006 1:04 pm
OH Lizzy, I don't know how I missed reading this when you posted it the other day but massive huggs to you. It's really hard typing right now as I can't see from watering eyes and trying to keep anyone here in the office from seeing me. Hopefully your son can have some peace now knowing he was not at fault. heart heart heart heart
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