I was told I was going to die ~

What are you meant to think when you hear that? Some kind of self pity, oh no not me I do not deserve this? Not me. Don't get me wrong, I mean I dont want to die however I could not force myself to think about myself. Instead my mind kind of ran threw everything, tears coming to my eyes, I reached for my cell phone in a attempt to call my brother however I could not seem to find it. What's going to happen to him, I was all he had. Its all that was going threw my mind. I was not scared of dying I was scared of him being on his own like I was. Before he was born mum and dad used to ignore me, I was a money machine to them with my piano skills. Then when he was born I swore he would never know what it was like to be alone. However now I can not even give him that. I was not even going to get to say goodbye. That hurt a lot more than anything else. I was never going to see him again. I had failed as a sister. Why did she have to die, because she had never kissed someone? that was pathetic. She lived for her brother and for that she sacrificed her social life... her one love did not love her back... why was that her fault. Why did she deserve this? Her last feeling was one of pure and utter sorrow and anger...

"I hate you all..."