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 Posted: Wed Nov 16, 2005 2:58 am
Dear Sparky I finally found you! So much has been going on since I misplaced you.
I started taking Mo and Joi to the HQ library so we could find better books to read. I don't know if reading to them as eggs helps anything, but I do enjoy it.
Mo grew to an adult last week, and he instantly moved out. I was shocked! Not a word or anything, just a note that said he had to 'find himself' and he couldn't do it living with a bunch of Fae.... I haven't seen him since the day he grew. I hope he's alright. I hope I raised him right and he's not resenting me. I feel so awful about it.
Since Mo wasn't around to keep an eye on Joi at the library, I had to try to do it myself while I scoured the shelves. One day, she just ... disappeared. Turns out she had hatched! I was looking for her in a panick and I eventually found her on the next aisle over.
A few days later, during a talk Vale and I were having about not seeing each other so much, we heard a commotion in Joi's room. We went running and her room was in complete disaray. Vale said Joi had done it, but I woudln't know how. We have to keep an eye on her to see what kind of power she has. Vale said he was unpredictable at that age with his power as well.
2 days ago, our little baby girl grew again! She's such an adorable little child. Vale and I very lucky. She's got such personality and is a caring girl, too. She looks so much like me AND Vale, its almost scary. It makes me think Vale truly was destined to be my husband.
Tomorrow, I hope to be able to take Joi out to meet other pae. Hopefully some children too. OH! That reminds me.
JAzzy and Thom had eggs!! 2 little boys! That means when they hatch, Joi will have friends! Its so wonderful they found love and have a family. Their eggs are beautiful. And with as gorgeous as Jazz is, those boys of hers are definately going to be heartbreakers.
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Posted: Wed Dec 28, 2005 6:12 am
Dear Sparky I just don't really know what to say about what recently happened. It happened almost a month ago still, but I'm only now just able to write about it. It was very heartbreaking.
During that terrible snowfall, when temperatures were so cold, no normal pae'il could venture outside, a stranger knocked on our door. He carried an unconscious Momo in his arms. That was the first time I'd seen my son since he just up and ran away the day he became an adult. He was near death and laying on my couch.
The stranger, a young man by the name of Victor, turned out to be Momo's boyfriend. He was as worried as I was.
Later that night, Vale had a talk with me about Victor and said he's not to be trusted. He's not a good pae at all. I'm so worried about Momo, but I can't say anything. He's old enough to make his own decisions. I'm sure Momo knows about these secrets anyway, if they are so close.
After a VERY emotional next morning, Momo agreed to stop by more often to see his sister and visit with us. Victor told us that for some reason, he doesn't like Fae at all, including us. That broke my heart. We did nothing but love that boy and raise him as our own, but he still hates us. I wonder sometimes, what trully is deep within his heart.
Momo still hasn't come by to visit and its been almost a month. I hope he's okay. I love him so much and I would just die if something happened to him.
Joi misses her big brother a lot as well. Maybe later I can send Vale out or something. I pray to the Guardians my son is alright.
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Posted: Wed Jan 18, 2006 9:49 pm
Dear Sparky My, I do need to remember to write my thoughts down more often, but I tell ya, raising a child just completely sucks all the time away. I barely have time to change my mind let alone take a few minutes to write things.
In any event, while Joi is tantruming and being punished, it does give me a few more minutes in the day.
First to note, I still haven't seen Mo. I'm very worried about him. I pray he's alright.
A few days ago, I found out our family is growing. Vale and I will be having our 2nd baby soon. I'm overjoyed that we're having another lovechild. I wish I had a way to tell Mo ...
Joi on the otherhand, took the news rather harshly. She's adement about not losing her position as the youngest in the family. She's resorted to acting like a horribly cranky baby. She's tantruming like a spoil brat. I have no idea where she gets that from! With how Mo is and now Joi, I doubt my abilities for raising child, and I worry about our unborn baby. Will I screw him or her up too? Maybe we need to change how we're raising our children. I just don't know anymore.
Vale is taking Joi's reaction very hard. Joi was flinging food one day and Vale punished her. He actually slapped her fanny. Poor man, I can only imagine the heartbreak that caused for both of them really. They adore each other so much. Vale did the right thing tho. Joi had deliberatly disobeyed by acting like a brat when she was told to behave.
I love Vale so much. He is my world, and the fact that we have created 2 little beings, born from that love, just makes my heart sing. Even with all the hardships my family has faced the past few months, Vale being here for me, and loving me in return, just makes it all that much more easy to bear. I really do hope he's able to find strength from me sometimes. I know I can be a bit on the ... flaky side. He is my strength, there's no denying that.
As I sit here and write this, Vale is asleep in the bed next to me. Even just glancing over at him makes me feel warm and happy inside. I don't know how on the planet I could have survived without him.
I wonder if we're going to have another little girl. Perhaps Vale will be able to get a son, teach him to be a good, noble and strong man like him. Wow, if we have a little boy and he turns out even half the man Vale is, there is definately a lucky little lady out there.
After re-reading all I wrote, it certainly looks like I had a lot to get off my chest. Well, till next, who knows when that will be ...
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Posted: Fri Feb 10, 2006 11:15 pm
A small, cottonball - like cloud can be seen puttering down from the sky, a gift for Joi nestled ontop of it's soft whiteness. As it lands gently on the ground, the cloud dissipates, leaving the gift behind.
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Posted: Sat Feb 11, 2006 12:36 am
A small, cottonball - like cloud can be seen puttering down from the sky, a gift for Dizzy nestled ontop of it's soft whiteness. As it lands gently on the ground, the cloud dissipates, leaving the gift behind.
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Posted: Tue Feb 14, 2006 9:04 am
Dear Sparky Mo stopped by the other day. The very same day we had a break thru with Joi. The Guardians DO answer prayers! Mo seems to be doing well. Didn't stay long tho.
Things are so much better now that Joi is back to her normal self. And it couldn't have come at a better time. This pregnancy is wearing me out! Its nothing like when I was pregnant with Joi. I've had mood swings, I ache in places I never even knew existed.
The weirdest part ... I was a couple weeks pregnant already and a little tiny faerie came and said something about giving birth to a new generation of Pae'il? What is that about? Ever since she touched my tummy tho, things have been weird. I hope ... I hope she didn't implant some weird creature in my womb!
I'm so fat right now its unbearable. I wasn't this big with Joi ... I really need to see someone about this. Should my back hurt this bad? Is it normal?
I will be GLAD to finall lay this egg I tell ya.
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Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2006 6:27 pm
Dear Sparky My what a stressful couple days!
It started out with Joi bringing one of her little friends home and telling him he could stay here. She is DEFINATELY her father's daughter...
Then I find out the little boy is Jazzy's son. And he keeps on insisting that his mommy and brother don't like him. It was heartbreaking. I know Jazz loves her family more than anything. I wonder what happened?
After a turbulant wait, Vale went and found Rain's dad, Thom and actually quite a number of Thom's ultra large family followed, including Ala and Torvil. I haven't seen Ala since she helped me with my memories.
Anyway, long story short, Thom and Rain are gonna stay with Ala off the isle for a while to try and clear their heads. Joi was heartbroken that her "new brother" had to leave and go so far.
Then, later that day, Vale took Joi and I to the Tiki Bar for the Valentine's Day dance. It was more to just get out of the house than anything. Joi met another child.
The most interesting thing tho, we seen Vale's uncle Signis there. And he was with a girl that was quite a bit shorter than him. I didn't know PAe came that short. That's rude of me to say, but this is my journal and it was only a thought I had. I'm sure she's a lovely woman inside and out. Why else would Signis have been fawning all over her?
The most exciting news for the day?
Vale and I are now the proud parents of TWINS! Can you believe it? I had Twins! A little boy and a little girl. They look just like Vale and I. We went the cutesy route and named them Lucius and Lucia. Both names have the same meaning. "Light"
Birthing them was the most difficult thing I've ever had to do. I didn't lay eggs, can you believe that? They were born alive. And it HURT! oh my goodness it hurt worse than anything. And I had to push TWO of those things out. I wanted to die. I was praying for my own death at one point I remember. I'm glad that prayer went unaswered. hehe
Well, I need to go because I heard a baby stiring. Vale is asleep. The poor dear, all his worry just wears him out. But I love him anyway.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 6:05 pm
Dear Sparky My birthday was 2 days ago. I'm getting so old. But... I've done a lot in my life I think. I think I will take this time while the twins sleep to try and recap my life a little, from what I remember anyway.
I was told by my caretaker, Antidia, that she was handed a mysterious pink egg one day while out on her travels. She researched a bit and found that the egg came from Telrunya, but was not like any other egg ever seen. I am one of the first Faery Pae'il, so I'm told.
Antidia stayed on the isle for a while, but some unfortunate events happened and the egg was left in Elder Estralita's care, where the egg hatched and I came into the world.
Antidia was 'found' and Alatariel and Estralita returned me to her. For a while when I was a baby, I lived in Antidia's home on the mainland. But she thought I needed to live in my own habitat so she came back. We searched the isle and finally found a place to build me a home. High in a tree in the Loki Nei forest, she helped by building the platform and foundation of the house. She was being watched so she had to leave. I was still a baby, but I think I was selfsufficient enough. That or she didn't want me in danger. Either case, I managed just fine. I grew the next day to an adult anyway, and was able to finish building my home.
I would wander around exploring a lot on my own. I didn't have friends for a while. Then one day I found the Tiki Bar. I went there a lot and became friends with the owner and waitress. Hula Bob and Jazz.
I also met 2 other faerie pae around that time. Vale and Tiffany. Brother and sister. Vale was nice to me, but Tiffany was cold. I don't think she liked me much.
A short time later, I ran into Vale at the HQ and we went to the bar together. It didn't start out as a date as we went with another friend, a little faerie pae named Coronus, but I think it ended up as one when she left. We drank alcohol for the first time. We were sloshed. He kissed me for the first time on the dance floor while Jazz sang.
We were VERY drunk. But I think Vale was so bad he didn't remember anything. We ended up at my house. I remember a little, but I would rather not get into it. Let's just say that the next morning, it was quite a shock to have woken up next to him in my bed. We had horrible hangovers so just slept that off. It was hard after we woke a second time, because Vale didn't remember anything, but I did ... and I thought ... well, I thought there was something between us.
After a long talk, Vale decided he needed to move out of the Manor and since I had a spare room, he stayed with me. The couple days following him moving in were ... romantic. He did little things that showed he did like me. It was very sweet. We fell so deeply in love. He even moved in to my bedroom with me.
Then something tragic happened. I don't remember details, so I can only say what I was told. I was missing Vale because I hadn't seen him in over a week and I didn't know where he was. So I was lonely and depressed. I went wandering, exploring to get my mind off of it. I ended up in the Ruined City on the other side of the isle. A big glowing pair of purple eyes spooked me, and that's when I don't remember anything. Tiffany tells me she found me and nursed me back to health, but I had amnesia. Vale apparently went completely crazy because I was missing and when he found me, I didn't remember him. I don't know what happened, but for 3 days, I didn't know who I was or anyone around me. But then, Alatariel came to heal me, and in the process of me getting my memory back, I lost the memories of those 3 days.
In those 3 days, Vale found out I was pregnant. I didn't know I was until he told me. It took a while for things to get back to normal, but with a baby coming, I think it helped. Vale was absolutely crushed when I didn't remember him. I feel so bad for putting him through that. He proposed to me, saying he never wanted to lose me again and he had his uncle Signis make special wedding rings. We can't ever take them off unless we truly don't love each other.
A few days later, Antidia snuck an Angel egg into the house. So Vale and I were going to be having 2 babies.
Momoiro, or Mo hatched first. He was such a curious child. Very kind and he loved finding beauty in all things. But the day he grew into an adult, he left. No word no nothing. It was hard on Vale and me, and Joi hatched that day as well. She never really got to meet her brother.
Joi is the light of our life. Our lovechild. She lights up Vale's face like I've never seen anyone ever do. It warms my heart so much that we have such a happy family.
Skipping ahead a few months, I found out I was pregnant again, while Joi was still a child. She did not take the news well and wasn't happy about losing her position as the baby of the family. She turned into the worlds worst brat. It was hard on Vale, very hard.
After a month of excruciating tantrums, I gave birth to twins. Yes, birth. I didn't have eggs like I did with Joi. Vale said we're evolving and the twins are the first of a new generation of Pae. That's exciting actually to be a part of. They're my little blessings. We had a boy and girl and named the Lucius and Lucia. Cheesy, but we thought it was cute. Lucius looks like his daddy, but he has my hair. And Lucia looks like me, but with her daddy's markings and hair and eyes.
I am blessed to have such a beautiful and happy family. Joi grew the day after the twins were born, but not into an adult. She in sort of ... not there yet. Vale called her a 'teenager'. She so beautiful, so innocent and so naive. I think she gets the naivete from me, and her beauty from Vale. *smiles*
She was quite a handful becoming a teenager. Its like she instantly started hating me and Vale. She started seeing this older man and sneaking out of the house and drinking. Its horrible! But, they broke up and things have settled down with her again. She endured 2 heartbreaks in 2 days. I feel so bad for my baby. But, I know it will only make her a stronger woman in the end.
Vale and I added on to the house, so Joi as her own room downstairs now. The twins share the room Joi used to have, across the hall from Vale and my room.
Things are going great for my family and I couldn't ask for more. I think my life would be considered successful.
I hear the twins stir, so I should wrap this up, I might come back to add some other thoughts, but I won't count on it, I am rather busy with 2 toddlers in the house.
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Posted: Fri Jan 26, 2007 12:46 am
Dear Sparky,
Life is wonderful. I have a loving husband, 3 beautiful children and a beautiful home. What more could a pae'il ask for?
Okay, so maybe things aren't as picturesque as they appear. Vale is slowly losing his mind with raising teenagers. Joi LOST her mind, but I think she's getting it back. She moved out and has her own cute little home. Lucius is now our biggest worry with him getting interesting in girls now. And Lucia...well, she's a homebody. She accompanies me most places, which is nice, as I like the company, but I wonder when she will get out to meet others. Joi had tons of friends by the time she was Lucia's age.
I pray daily for the strength to be able to handle my daily trials, and the Guardians work miracles. The twin's birthday is coming up, and they are very mature for their age, and sometimes I wonder if we're holding on too tight.... not letting them grow. I don't want a repeat of what Joi went through, because she became so miserable. I want my children to be happy. Happy like I was when I found Vale. I don't want to be the cause of them not finding that special happiness.
I think ... tomorrow, I will send Lucia out with Lucius to see their sister, and I will take Vale out and have a talk with him. Maybe we can find a happy middle ground with the teens...one that won't give Vale an anurism.
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Posted: Wed Jul 22, 2009 6:07 pm
Dear Sparky Its been a while, hasn't it? Sorry I didn't mean to neglect you, I misplaced you. I don't know how I could have done that, but I did.
A lot has happened since the last time we talked.
Vale's taken Lucius out on an adventure. They've been gone for over 2 years now. I don't want to say that I think they'll never return, because the last time that happened, I broke his heart. So I am being a good girl, and holding on to my hope that he'll return to me. And I will see my precious baby boy again too.
Joi and Lucia miss them a lot. I know they do, even if they don't mention anything about. I know Joi and Vale had their differences, but she misses her father. They were so close until Jomund entered the picture.
Speaking of Jomund... he's not been around either. Poor Joi, she must be feeling so lost with everyone around her gone. She hides it well though, but I have a feeling she's lonely. I invite her to come home all the time, but she insists she's been busy.
Joi immersed herself in her home. She's got that tree looking quite cozy these days. I do hope she's been getting out to socialize. That girl used to have so many friends, I'm sure they miss her too.
Lucia ... oh my baby Lucia. The absence of her father and brother has hit her rather hard. She's become even more withdrawn and down than was normal for her. I hope its a phase and she'll snap out of it soon. I don't like seeing my baby looking so blue.
To fill our time these days, Lucia and I explore the HQ. Its quite intriguing how the whole building changed shape like it did, but yet, on the inside its the same. We go looking for anything that might be different, but there's just so many rooms to explore.
The island falling out of the sky was quite the traumatic experience I'm sure. There's a large gorge in the forest now and I seen some parts where the island broke off into the water. I wonder why the Guardians moved us here. The weather's been nicer; no rain yet. But does get warmer than it used to.
Took a couple months, but we finally got our home fixed from the impact. All our furniture and anything not nailed down somehow ended up on the forest floor, all broken up. Gave us something to do at least.
Besides all that ... life has been pretty quiet. I'm planning to drag the emo-ball to the new City to see if perhaps there's some stuff for her to do there that might cheer her up.
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