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Awww, InkMistress you just gave me warm fuzzies. (Cuddles Hiei teddy bear, then quickly throws away)

Ahem.

Well, I suspended because as Miss Ayana put it, I had an A.P.A. or an Author.Panic.Attack. I freaked out thinking how I was going to make the HieixSachiko relationship even work. How it was going to be long term. How Hiei could even PUT UP with her.

But Miss Ayana wound me down. CALMED me down. And talked me through it. She convinced me the pairing was good because it HAD its imperfections and to look at KeikoxYusuke if I thought otherwise.

So I took a few deep breaths and started writing again. : )

Awww...I just can't believe you said that. You LIKE hearing my epiphanies. I was convinced people were sick of my rants by now. Lol. Awww! (Hugs Hiei teddy bear again, then tosses away...again)

Have fun with the characters, but also realizes that EVERYTHING has flaws, and that's what makes it beautiful. It's a lesson I needed to learn, and I learned it by tearing myself apart.

No joke. I cried that night during my A.P.A. I punched my Hiei teddy bear to no end, than hugged him and told him that he had known. That he had known the entire time it wouldn't have worked out. But its something every author needs to learn, and its evident Sue-writers haven't even come close to learning it yet. : /

But the thing that's good about worrying, is that it just shows how much you care.

You DON'T want to put the characters to shame. I know that I'm constantly going back in my story and rewriting things just to make sure people have a better picture of my character. Because the LAST thing you want to do, is to depict something wrong, whether it be a character (terrible if its all through-out the story) or it be a situation (which can be even MORE fatal!).

But the fact that we will sit up into the hours of night, or look at our writing and think 'This can't be right' is actually good. Because if you think about it, once we break completely, we can focus on only picking up the good pieces. The pieces of how it is. Now how we want it to be. And we'll hold onto those pieces because its the only things we really have to hold onto. And then we'll WORK with them, and makes something beautiful. : )

(Oh geez, I'm getting poetic. I'm gonna shut up now.)