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@Sahihen- After the divorce, Iwent and got counseling, and I thought it was boring. She didn't really get me at all...I jsut sat and made little figures out of clay. THat was fun, though ,so...

@Chex- Ionly draw the characters of my stories nad some random things, but my mind places thing in there, so I jsut draw what I see in my mind.

@Moofasa- ah, looks like someone finally understands me, and it's someone I haven't seen in a while. Interesting...but yes, that's almost exactly how I feel. And the counseling thing- at school after the divorce, I joined a school group called Banana Splits. It was about divorce and kids, and I thought it sucked. We were supposed to make family crests, and with little quote things...mine was "E pluribus unum", out of many, one, meaning that my family was just one suffering from divorce and stuff, and the rest of the group misunderstood me and got mad. Sucks stare

spiif- yup. Sort of...I never said I have pessimistic veiw of life {though once or twice I've actually thought it would be interestign to commit suicide, but then I thought about all the people who would miss me and thought, I can't do that to them} but other than that yeah...whatev...

I had an abusive boyfriend and I stayed with him for about a year and a half. I still trust men because I know that he was one a*****e in a thousand, and now I have a boyfriend who is patient with the quirks I've developed because I was in such a horrible situation.

What you have to do, as terrifying as it is, when something makes you flinch tell yourself that it's not going to hurt you. When you have something to say, bite the bullet and say it. Nothing bad is going to happen to you because of it, as much as it feels like something will. You do know how you feel and why you feel that way. Now you need to know that you shouldn't feel that way.

Once you start telling yourself you have no reason to be afraid you'll stop being afraid. And it's hard. Really hard. But if you want to get better then do it.

You will also have to find friends who you really can talk to about it, even if they are good friends if you can't talk to anyone about it then it will not help you out one bit.

And do try to talk to the guidance counsellor. Tell the counsellor that you just need to talk... and it can take as little or as much time as you need each day. I'm sure you can spare an extra 15 minutes out of your day once or twice a week.

-La Belle Isolde-

I have a question: why is it my brother doesn't remeber anything? He thinks my dad is perfect, amd it annoys the heck out of me because then he acts liek how my dad does and yells and hollers and hits my little brother and makesm e and him both get really upset....

Sanzo, I realize that he has blocked out some of those memories, but it doesn't give him the right to hit a seven year old little boy!

I didn't want anyone to think it's my fault.

Screw it. I'll jsut have my parents send him to boot camp... stare

People would blame me because he likes to lie and say we prompted him to do it. It sucks. He never got the smae abuse I did, Sanxo. He was never thrown across a rom and into a highchair. nothing like that ever happened to him. He was asleep ahlf the time anyway. I just want him to stop being such a b*****d and to be nice for once.

If that's the case then confront him about the way he's acting Blu, tell him you don't appreciate it and that he should respect you as his sister if nothing else. At least as a human being and not be a brat. Either that or telling him to leave you alone and you'll leave him alone.