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you always have to have a "corner" in most threads, don't you!? lol

you always have to have a "corner" in most threads, don't you!? lol

lol, Ransu do you have a link?

*sigh* I just had to fend for a little 3rd grader who was pissed at an 8th grader because he stole his backpack and hid it. That kid was crying, his face was red and he was trying his best to punch that 8th grader. The 8th grader was just standing there laughing! His friends were all saying "Just beat him up!" So, i pretended they were talking to me, and I beat that 8th grader to a pulp. Thank god my other friends got his buds off of me. It was like a giant fight! But no one came to stop it! Only 1 security guard came to seperate us while the others stood on the steps smoking cigarettes next to the "No Smoking" sign.

What has this world come to where people can feel powerful by picking on a little kid who will punch and not do any damage? It's pathetic! And they're always going "Look at him! He can't even hurt me!" Well obviously! He's 5 years younger than you and 3 feet smaller! Anyways, my bottom teeth scarped against my lip so my lip stings right now...frankly, I'm suprised that's all I got with the lack of people trying to stop us. What'd they think? "If Daniel's fighting, he doesn't want to be stopped. It's his own fight." You're watching to many movies! I can get carried away when things like that happen, and I could use some people to pull me back! rolleyes

In other news, I just realized how in my family, you need to earn love! scream I noticed because I was always feeling like my parents only tried to make my sister happy, because they said she'd has a College Fund they've been saving up, but I need to earn a Scholarship, and they're always talking to her and giving her things that I had just asked! Like,

Me: "Dad, can you make me a grilled cheese sandwich?"
Dad: "No, make one yourself!"
Me: "Then I'd need to use the stove"
Dad: "No, you arne't allowed to use the stove"
Me: "Then how am I suppossed to make it myself?"
Dad: "I don't know, you'll figure out something"
Sister: *interupting* "I wanna Cheese Sandwich!"
Dad: "Ok, hold on"
Me: gonk stressed

And she was always got praised by my parents and the teachers in my school for having beautiful art and having a 98.7 average. I GET IT!!! SHE'S SMART AND TALENTED!!! YOU DON'T NEED TO INTERUPT CLASS TO REMIND EVERYONE!!! Everyday, kids in my school'll point to picture on the hallway wall and ask "Did your sister do that?"

I know, I sound a little jealous...and maybe I am, but do I always need to be compared to that? I had a project for Italian where we had to draw the school in a Winter Scene, and I spent 5 hours painting one, and I got an 85 because, and quote: "You could do better. I expect more from you, Daniel!" ALL THE OTHER KIDS JUST DOODLED IT ON LOOSE LEAF!!! Probably 2 seconds ago because they forgot to do it....so why do they deserve 100s while I get an 85?

Now, probably to only thing I'm better at than my sister are swords, but I bet everyone'll just say "You won't use swords in life. It's a worthless thing to learn" Seriously, I can't be praised for anything I do, because: "Your sister could do better" stressed

But today, I was being all kind, and I was cleaning up the living room, organizing the DVDs, stacking up all the papers into a corner, and I finished the job my dad was trying to do in the living room. I even vacuumed the whole room! And when my dad came back, he was thanking me, saying I did a great job, and he kept treating my sister so badly the whole day. Like, he'd say "PICK UP YOUR CLOTH OFF THE COUCH AND BRING THEM TO YOUR ROOM! NOW!" And he'd go to me, who had a bigger pile of cloth "Daniel, could you bring this to your room? Thanks"

So it struck me: We had to win our love from our parents! And apparently, I had won for the day! What the hell is this? Is it like "I found 10 bucks on the ground, so here it is. Worship me for the day!" ANd they will? (That never happened, but I'm tempted to find out the outcome if it did)

My sister was feeling the same way I had been every day. But she still never thought about how maybe, I felt bad about how I got no attention from my parents or teachers. rolleyes

Sorry for the negative feeling Journal Entry today, but I just had to get that out of my system so I can sleep soundly tonight without any more nightmares.