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awww, im sorry FK. maybe you should try talking to your parents about what exactly you need out of them to be able to accomplish your weightloss goals. for eg. tell your mom you need to eat smaller more reasonable portions and if she could help you do that you would appreciate it.

my grrr for the day, i ate ranch wedges. they are potatoes with ranch flavoring that are fried. horrible for you. and i dip them in ranch dressing. also bad. but so damn delicious. but hey, ya need to eat fun food every once in awhile.

sense~ you gotta allow for treats every once in awhile, or you will go crazy. so 1 cookie isn't a grr biggrin i think its good that you only ate one and should be proud of that.

aww sweetie that really sucks *huggles* i support you! and i guess to some extent there will always be people in your life who don't get it, and who still offer you things you don't want or need.

I had one of those "fat" days a day ago.

You see, monday, I volunteered as a worker for Martin Luther King Day. And with volunteering, you get fed for free. The food included things from green apples, peanut butter jelly sandwiches, cream cheese, to doritos... and best of all, pizza. So I ate a mix of healthy and unhealthy foods. The volunteering was fun though. And I got a free t-shirt and mug out of it all. 4laugh

but I felt fat after looking at some pictures of me in the french club yesterday night. I'm like "eek!" I realize that although I'm going in the right directions... I still got a long ways to go eek . It's embarassing.. it's such a gross feeling to feel fat. and hell no, i'm not showing those pictures! I'm very unphotogenic! xp

Grippy~ i'm sure your beautiful, and we won't harass you for pictures anyway. its all about being comfortable here. i hear ya, i hate looking at pictures im liek "so thats what i really look like?" its not pleasant.

so i have a few grrs. i haven't been very dedicated to the guild lately. real life is taking a toll on me.

root canal. that sucked. i didn't work out that day either. i also ate a thing of ben and jerrys that my best girl friend brought over. i guess i deserved it in a way, and its all good, but i still wish i hadn't. its so hard to be good.

tonight for lack of other options at food service i had a a hamburger and fries. the other option was a disgusting chicken gordita. i mean disgusting. unfortunately.

Thank you gals ^_^

I just learned something about this week.

When I volunteered for the MLK day thing, and ate all those tasty foods. And then the next day, I felt bummed out by a combination of things. First off, I didn't work out since the school wasn't open for that. Secondly, eating all those foods is going to make one worry about their diet and stuff. And thirdly, seeing those old pictures of the french club. But I learned not to berate myself for these things- but to enjoy the moments I'm in. I found out that by adjusting my attitude about special occassions, I don't feel deprived.

Take Yesterday.

First off, I was invited to eat out at the school chick-fil-a. I grab nothing but their regular chicken sandwich. i eat it... (and wash it down with water).

and then an hour later, the greasiness of the sandwich almost made me want to puke it up... i felt the greasy, puky taste rise up from my esophagus at least 4-5 times. Apparently, my body is getting sensitive to fast food which means it's a good sign.

Later today... My family goes out to eat at Red Lobster. It's an extremely rare occassion we actually all go out. You can say we may do it as a family 1-2 times a year. Anyway, I expected to eat seafood- and i expected to stuff my face. And I did. xd and i had fun doing it. and i knew i was going to kinda regret my food excursion yesterday night. But ... I don't feel deprived! lol

(I had a mixture of good choices and poor choices yesterday. For example, i chose the low fat vinegerette dressing for my salad, and chose steamed vegetables for my side item for dinner. But I also had soda, and dessert.)

wait, why am I posting this in the "grr" thread? xd

Awwww. Like you witnessed with me earlier this week, we all have our "fat" days.

Take heart at the fact that you're taking care of your body. You owe it to yourself ^_^

i had a gigantic (monster) sized oatmeal scotchie cookie. i was having low blood sugar after working out and the sweet shop is between the gym and my room. but it happens. im okay with it.