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I let my shoulders go slack, remembering what the villagers said, "That's not really what I mean. What I mean is that, for me, love has no meaning because I don't deserve it. Love is for those who have something in this world. You deserve it, you had something to work for and you still do. I don't have anything, no family, no friends, no goal, no reason to live." I wanted to run, I even tried to, and I was able to break out of his hold, but I didn't get very far.

He had me pinned to the ground on my stomach. I yelled as loud as my hoarse voice could. "You made it very clear at the Valley of End that you're not coming back until you killed Itachi! Even if you do came back of your own free will, it would be even harder for me because I know I don't deserve anything, especially you. I'm nothing but a demon." The last part came out as a whimper. The dam holding back the majority of my emotions had broken and I was in some kind of sensory overload with my emotions. Tears hit the dirt beneath me and I just wanted to die.

My tears were reduced to staggered hiccups, but I wasn't able to fully calm down because of one thing. "Why me? All my life, people have said that I don't and would never deserve anything worth while, so why now?" As I asked this, I nudged one of his hands with my shoulder as best as I could in my current position, seeing if he would let me roll over.

My chest jumped with my remaining hiccups and then I said, "But you didn't have it your whole life, and people don't hate you for it because it wasn't your choice to get the curse mark put on you."

As he moved away, the warmth I felt disappeared. Wanting to keep that warmth, I sat up slightly and latched my arms around his neck, pulling him back down on top of me. "I don't care what you've done. I know you don't want to do those acts any more than I want to use the Kyuubi's chakra. Just please don't go, they've been worse since you've been gone." I whimpered desperately into his neck.

"But everything's been worse for me since you left. I don't know how much more I can take. The villagers do more than taunt me, call me names, and put me in the hospital from injuries. Some say that it's my fault you left and I'm starting to believe them. Then there's also..." I pause before mumbling the rest of my sentence, knowing it would be childish of me to say it in front of him.

I blush at his comment, knowing all to well that what he said was true. I kinda feel guilty, though. The only reason I did that was because Sasuke's eyes were different than the villagers. They didn't have that hateful glare in them that was waiting for the right moment to hurt or kill me. I didn't feel like I needed to guard myself around him, but I also took out most of my frustration from the villagers out on him. Maybe, I shouldn't have done that. He's helped me with a lot of things I never understood, maybe he can help with this.

"Um, Sasuke, after...your clan was killed...did you...ever have...nightmares because of what happened?" I didn't want to say his name because Sasuke seemed to hate having his brother's name spoken out loud.