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My daughter is cunning. whee

She asked for Ice cream after her PB&J Sandwich in which I informed her that she needed a veggie. She went to my mother and said "Mommy said I could have it" Needless to say we ate green beans together.

In the mist of the battle of veggie eating she looks up at me. Her beautiful blue eyes large with sadness and her little lower lip pouting out with a quiver. In which she promptly said, "But Mommy, ice cream makes me happy." And proceeded to wipe the tears from her eyes. heart

I'm heading to Milwaukee tomorrow for the annual American Institute of Conservation conference for the rest of the week, so I'll be scarce. I can't wait for this thing to be done. I'm so tired of the stress preparing for it generates.

Well, they removed my mod status. I was posting in an off-topic thread and they took to post the wrong way. They thought the post was about them. It wasn't, but they don't seem to believe me. They didn't even send me a message to ASK me if it was about them or to clarify what I was talking about first. I just logged on to see two PM's, One was about deleting my post and the other was about the removal of my status confused

This just kinda proves that there are people out there that do not like me. I've been a mod again for barely a month and they've done a forced de-mod over a random posting in an off topic thread that had nothing to do with them. It really depresses me.

I've been thinking about this a lot, since I had to stay up late for a work hour. Maybe this was a good thing. I mean, if they are going to pick apart every little thing I say. Things that aren't even their concern, while I see others bash the site and it's obvious they are doing so... How can I NOT feel singled out? I wasn't feeling all that disgruntled before, but I'm getting that way now. If they didn't want me, I wish they would have just said so before instead of doing this to me now. I guess I just feel more hurt by the whole thing. I've been pulling in 300-400 reports for the last 4 weeks, so it's not as if I'm not doing anything. I think I mentioned one negative thing about Gaia and that was when they removed dolphins from the fish shop.

I'm just in a really low place in my life today and that was before all this Gaia stuff went down. I feel like nobody cares except Brian and I'm just floating out there in the ether. Maybe I shouldn't have come back. I thought I was doing the right thing, I was having a decent time at it, save for one incident that I was completely over and not even upset about anymore. I don't think I'm a bad person, at least I hope I'm not, but when things like this happen, I just feel entirely worthless. I could list 100 things I've attempted in my life, and I'll bet that a good 80-90% of them would be failures. I'll probably feel better about this after a good night's rest, so thanks for letting me vent. I'm sick today, medical issues again and I just don't need this drama. I just need a friend and maybe a hug. emo

Night, guys. Let's hope for a better day tomorrow

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Thanks. I just don't understand why they're doing this. It's like they were looking for a reason. I'm waiting for my accounts to get banned. There's no reason for them to be banned, but there was no reason for what happened to me yesterday, either. I'm still feeling rather down today. Every mod gets disgruntled at one point or another and they don't go around force removing them. I wasn't even disgruntled this time, but they think they can tell me how I feel? sweatdrop I'm not even disgruntled now. I'm just sad and confused and beating myself up over it.

Kinda..
This last time, I was doing pretty well. That's why all of this is sort of freaking me out. I think what's bugging me most, is this thing about being singled out. Like... WHY are they so threatened by me? What did I do that was so terrible that warranted all this response? It just makes me wonder. Maybe I am a bad person? I don't know. I'm not sure what to think anymore, to be honest.