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 Posted: Sat Jan 23, 2010 10:23 pm
I've always told myself I'd be better then all the bastards that have ever treated me horribly in the past. I'd lose the weight, get a good education, a decent job and live my own life and shove it in their face but so far.. I've failed. My education is poor, and I don't have the money for anything right now. The weight keeps building, gaining almost 20 lbs from last year and every job I've applied at is not hiring (which is more then 10 places)..
I'm going to attempt to join a new gym by the end of the month, depending on how I like it, and attempt to lose a lot of weight before summer hits. I'll still be searching for a job if my mom doesn't get a second job for night shifts (5PM and over) because we only have one vehicle and the buses around here are ignorant ******** think part of the reason I am always tired and moody is because I'm basically depressed.. I'm stuck in the house all day long with nothing to motivate me to get up and do something.. Maybe school was actually good for me, in certain ways, without knowing it. I've alienated myself from my past life.. but this future life needs to die quickly.
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Posted: Sat Jan 23, 2010 10:29 pm
It's kinda scary looking at who I used to be and who I am now. I know everything isn't perfect but everything just...works. Jon and I never fight, I see/talk my old friends regularly, my Sclero is respondig to chemo, school can be fixed by a quick visit to Natalie my wonderful resource specialist, my family has to move but we do have a house to move to.
Things aren't perfect. But everything works perfectly.
Edit:
A girl on another site asked me about Scleroderma. Two people in two days asking about it. I think I'm off to a good start.
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 4:04 am
Who do you reckon is lazier? My sister or me?
My sister:
Sets up the table, breakfast, dinner, lunch.
Collects Rubbish on Wednesdays.
Takes care of sister.
Cleans up her own room.
Bathes baby sister
Me:
Cleans Dishes
Takes clothing off the line.
Washes clothes
Clearing table after breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Taking care of baby sister.
Cleaning room.
Bringing all the clothes from upstairs to the laundry room (downstairs) in one basket.
Puts stuff in pantry ( groceries)
Running back and forth from kitchen to dinner table when we need something.
She mother fcuking calls me lazy just because I sit around all day, in front of the computer when I have spare time. She just said this to me:
" Your so lazy." Well, I made two formula milks - wait four formula milks (5 scoops each) upon her request. -_- What? I always do EVERYTHING for her.
AND my mum trusts her more than I do.
What do I have to do to gain my mum's trust? I feel neglected. cry
As I said earlier in one of my posts, She's spoilt to the heavens -_- I hate it. I only get what I want on my birthday and on celebrations. She gets what she wants any time. Not to mention, she goes out with her friends more than I do.
The only appreciation I get is from academic skills. I don't get anything other from that.
I vented more than enough now.
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 4:14 am
asianretart Who do you reckon is lazier? My sister or me? My sister: Sets up the table, breakfast, dinner, lunch. Collects Rubbish on Wednesdays. Takes care of sister. Cleans up her own room. Bathes baby sister Me: Cleans Dishes Takes clothing off the line. Washes clothes Clearing table after breakfast, lunch and dinner. Taking care of baby sister. Cleaning room. Bringing all the clothes from upstairs to the laundry room (downstairs) in one basket. Puts stuff in pantry ( groceries) Running back and forth from kitchen to dinner table when we need something. She mother fcuking calls me lazy just because I sit around all day, in front of the computer when I have spare time. She just said this to me: " Your so lazy." Well, I made two formula milks - wait four formula milks (5 scoops each) upon her request. -_- What? I always do EVERYTHING for her. AND my mum trusts her more than I do. What do I have to do to gain my mum's trust? I feel neglected. cry As I said earlier in one of my posts, She's spoilt to the heavens -_- I hate it. I only get what I want on my birthday and on celebrations. She gets what she wants any time. Not to mention, she goes out with her friends more than I do. The only appreciation I get is from academic skills. I don't get anything other from that. I vented more than enough now.  She is a Goddess in the night... «(·´¯`·.·• •·.·´¯`·)»~
Have you ever bothered to actually force her to sit down in a private room *bedroom or something* and talk to her about it, bring it up with notes of stuff that you've done compared to your sister, how you feel, etc?
If not, don't bother replying. If you tell me "it won't do any good" don't bother replying. Until you actually do it and find out, do NOT bother even getting online. I don't give a s**t if you've done it a million times in the last month, do it AGAIN and find out.
Some people don't honestly realize what they are doing.. Some do it on purpose, some have favorites and some honestly don't give a s**t. When you actually find out what the real issue is between you and the rest of your family, you will know how to dodge around it and live with it. But you need to actually put your foot down and find out, no matter how much you get yelled and bitched out, how uncomfortable or awkward it is or how annoying it is.
~ «(·´¯`·.·• •·.·´¯`·)» ...Oh what a chilling fright!
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 4:19 am
asianretart Who do you reckon is lazier? My sister or me? My sister: Sets up the table, breakfast, dinner, lunch. Collects Rubbish on Wednesdays. Takes care of sister. Cleans up her own room. Bathes baby sister Me: Cleans Dishes Takes clothing off the line. Washes clothes Clearing table after breakfast, lunch and dinner. Taking care of baby sister. Cleaning room. Bringing all the clothes from upstairs to the laundry room (downstairs) in one basket. Puts stuff in pantry ( groceries) Running back and forth from kitchen to dinner table when we need something. She mother fcuking calls me lazy just because I sit around all day, in front of the computer when I have spare time. She just said this to me: " Your so lazy." Well, I made two formula milks - wait four formula milks (5 scoops each) upon her request. -_- What? I always do EVERYTHING for her. AND my mum trusts her more than I do. What do I have to do to gain my mum's trust? I feel neglected. cry As I said earlier in one of my posts, She's spoilt to the heavens -_- I hate it. I only get what I want on my birthday and on celebrations. She gets what she wants any time. Not to mention, she goes out with her friends more than I do. The only appreciation I get is from academic skills. I don't get anything other from that. I vented more than enough now. *hugs* that sucks, but like Rayne said you have to confront her and make her know how you feel
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 4:24 am
I'm planning to confront her, with all the points being leaked out. She's already had this chat with my parents three and more times. I understand that
I actually talked to her about it. She began crying and walked off, making me in trouble.
I'm in a need to stop whatever my mother an sister are doing. It's getting complicated by each day.
Thank you Rayne. I'll have to confront her tomorrow. She's probably sleeping by now ( it's 11:24 PM where I live; Insomnia is taking over. )
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 4:50 am
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 5:00 am
Actually (to asianretart), sometimes confronting her might not even make a difference. My Mum blatently treats my bro different to me and my sisters. He gets everything done for him, and he's like what... 20. Anything he wants, he gets. We - we have to work for it. I don't mind working for what I want, but seriously, it's annoying. She doesn't like shouting at him when he's in the wrong and he just gets away with everything. It's my sisters who have to nag at him to stop being such a lazy fjepoirfjepo. She treated him so special when his exam time came, but for me, it's usually just making me do things over and over and hardly giving me a break (thank gawd for my sisters <3), he usually expects things put out for him... like yesterday my Mum was making us food, but I took over to do mine and he stood there expecting me to do it. talk2hand Pssht, I told him to do it himself and... oh guess what, he still stands there expecting my mother to do it. WTF? D:< See, I can tell my sisters this and they get what I mean and they tend to nag at my Mum to tell him to do things himself, but she ends up letting it go a week later. Or even less.
I told her she treats him differently, she either denies it for calls me jealous. talk2hand I give her examples, and she still denies it. Whenever I come across it, she still doesn't like the fact I say the truth.
Maybe it's the fact he's her only son, but still, he needs to learn to do things on his own. She's even finding jobs for him. XD Daaamn. gonk Oh another example, I was ironing earlier, and he was like 'Hey Kel, call me when you done yeah, I need to do some' ... I was like 'k', so then I call him for like 2 mins and gave up and packed it all away. I aint going down to get him. talk2hand And THEN, I went down to make my food and he had to set it up *giggle* and he didn't pack the iron away properly, so it looks messy. D:< I bet I get the blame for that. talk2hand emo
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 9:28 am
@sikh; *hugs* :]
@Nespin; yeah, I did >>; I feel so bad for everyone
@moonman; LOL I couldn't help myself... so many people were, so I felt the need to share >>; OH! Uh, compound most of the time, but I own two longbows and another compound and a recurve. :]
@Miko; hehe! Only one letter off! And yeah ^^;
@Jer0; thanks heh. Yeah, I started thinking and so I opened a new window to add mine and as I went along I typed mine. I had to delete a bunch of them though so that I didn't seem like an attention whore >>;;
@Kamdage; Thanks :]
@so retarded; sweatdrop don't admire an idiot
@Everyone; Thank you for the hugs; also, I feel so bad for any and all of those that had to go through so much worse than I do. My life seems a whole lot better, even though I know no one is perfect. *hugs*
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 9:30 am
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 9:33 am
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 10:09 am
I dont consider myself to be from anywhere (i ve been asked this alot this week and it confuses me because i dont really know)
the best way to explain it is,i ve never been accepted ,only my achievements have,both sides of my family have never accepted me as person or member except for my grandparents and neither have many people where i live they all usually see me as an outsider or foreign person,
although this probably seems ridiculous ,its been bothering me for a while/i thought id post it here and get it off my chest
sweatdrop
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 10:29 am
Kamdage
I dont consider myself to be from anywhere (i ve been asked this alot this week and it confuses me because i dont really know)
the best way to explain it is,i ve never been accepted ,only my achievements have,both sides of my family have never accepted me as person or member except for my grandparents and neither have many people where i live they all usually see me as an outsider or foreign person,
although this probably seems ridiculous ,its been bothering me for a while/i thought id post it here and get it off my chest
sweatdrop The most important thing is how you see yourself as. It doesn't matter if you're not sure where you see yourself from because that's not that important. And it doesn't sound ridiculous talk2hand
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Posted: Sun Jan 24, 2010 10:31 am
sikh-91 Kamdage
I dont consider myself to be from anywhere (i ve been asked this alot this week and it confuses me because i dont really know)
the best way to explain it is,i ve never been accepted ,only my achievements have,both sides of my family have never accepted me as person or member except for my grandparents and neither have many people where i live they all usually see me as an outsider or foreign person,
although this probably seems ridiculous ,its been bothering me for a while/i thought id post it here and get it off my chest
sweatdrop The most important thing is how you see yourself as. It doesn't matter if you're not sure where you see yourself from because that's not that important. And it doesn't sound ridiculous talk2hand What sikh says is true. Where you come from means nothing negative. And if you don't know from where you come from...then. There's nothing to be bothered about. Nothing since, well, you're still you.
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