Welcome to Gaia! ::

James glares at Ra, clearly displeased. "I am am not thanking you for anything. Natsuki is of noble blood Rai, you are a servant, know your place. And as for dismissing the maids, they would not be in any danger if you would learn to hold your tongue. Now, Lord Natsuki, please follow me to the Young Master's study." James gives Rai one last glare before escorting Natsuki from the kitchen.


Although Natsuki was not finished saying his peice, he knew that James would not let him get a word in so he kept quiet as James escorted him out of the kitchen and towards the study.

Scarlet could smell the food when it came in shortly after Natsuki and James had. Just as she thought, her fears were confirmed when she heard James whispering to Shizuo the events that took place in the kitchen with Rai and Natsuki. She could almost visualize the hurt and disappointment on her brother's face.


Shizuo frowned and looked down at his plate with great disinterest. It really upset him to know that Rai didn't get along with Natsuki. Natsuki was an important part of his life...if it weren't for Natsu-kun....Shizuo wouldn't even be here today. He just could not understand Rai's attitude. "I am sorry about Rai Natsu-kun...he has been acting strange since we left for the manor....I just cannot figure out what is wrong with him."
"That's alright Shizu-chan...as James had told Rai...he needs to learn his place and deal, he is after all just a servant."
Shizuo slams his fist on the table in anger...to him, Rai wasn't just some servant that had no meaning, Rai means as much to him as his sister does.
"That isn't true! Rai is very important to me as well Natsu-kun so please do not speak illy of him again. He may be just a servant who needs to learn his place to you and to James, but to me he is my boyfriend who listened to what I had to say and who put up with me when I was at my worst. I will not allow anyone to speak of him that way again in my house, understood?" Natsuki growls before standing, placing his palms onto the desk and leaning forward.
"Just what the hell do you see in that thing?!"
"I see likeness okay?! I see someone who has lost as much as I have, i see one who has shared my pain, I see someone who accepts me for my faults and does not judge me for my actions. What I see in Rai is a longtime partner who I know will stay by my side. What I see in him, is what I could never see in you Natsuki, to me you are just a lifelong friend, and that is all. Yes, you have been there for me, but I only can see you as an older brother and nothing more." Natsuki steps back with a pained look, as if he were struck by something. This couldn't be happening, Shizuo couldn't have just rejected him...couldn't have possibly chose that leech over him.
"N-Natsu-kun?" Natsuki sits down in his seat, his gaze on Shizuo who was now clutching his head in despair...he meant to break it easy to Natsuki, but with the way he was speaking of Rai, that option just flew out of the window. He couldn't bare to look at Natsuki, the smell of his tears already in the air, just adding to the pot of guilt that was boiling inside of Shizuo.
"So that's how you really feel huh?" Shizuo nods, finally summoning up the courage to look up at him.
"I am sorry...but it is."

Shizuo stands up and walks around his desk before leaving the room without a word. Right now, he wanted to find Rai and see if he was okay since James had said some unnecassary things to him. "Rai?! Where are you?!"Rai walks through the halls, thinking of Rai. Before he knew it, he could smell Rai's scent coming from the room that was picked for him. After knocking, Shizuo walks into the room to find Rai lying on the bed. Slowly, he closes the door behind him and leans against it, making sure to keep his distance in case Rai didn't want him near. "Rai."


Natsuki could not find and words as Scarlet found him with her hands and held him tightly. All he could seem to do in that moment was weep, his heart had just been crushed by someone he admired since he was little.
"There, there Natsu-kun...."

Shizuo shakes his head with a small chuckle before walking over to Rai and pulling him into a big hug. "It's fine if you don't get along with him dear, and you are not just some servant to me okay? Don't make me give you the same speech that I gave Natsuki back there in the study when he said the same thing about you...you know what? I am gonna tell you what I said anyways. I told Natuski
That is wasn't true, that you are very important to me as well as him, so I asked that he please do not speak illy of you again. I told him that you may be just a servant who needs to learn his place to him and to James, but to me you are my boyfriend who listened to what I had to say and are the only one who can put up with me when I am at my worst. I said that I will not allow anyone to speak of you that way in my house again.
He asked me what I saw in you and I told him that I see likeness, I see someone who has lost as much as I have, I see one who has shared my pain, I see someone who accepts me for my faults and does not judge me for my actions. I said that what I see in you is a longtime partner who I know will stay by my side and never betray me, and that what I see in you, is what I could never see in him, that all he was ever going to be to me is just a lifelong friend, and that is all. Yes, he has been there for me, but I only can see him as an older brother and nothing more....do you understand Rai? What it is you mean to me? I don't want you to ever feel like you are anything less than important, you are apart of me now so you are no longer a slave or a servant, understood? You will from now on be treated as if you have been a noble all of your life, as if you were never a slave to begin with."


Natsuki held onto Scarlet's shirt tightly as he wept, Shizuo's words playing in his head over and over again. It just couldn't be possible that a leech like Rai was chosen by not only Shizuo but by his noble wolf as well...how the hell did that happen?!
Scarlet was heartbroken for him as he wept in her arms, his tears staining her turquoise shirt. "There, there Natsuki...I am positive that brother did not mean to be so harsh with his words. He just cares greatly for the nice man named Rai and does not react too kindly when one tries to harm or insult him. You understand don't you Natsuki?"
"No, I don't understand! How could he choose that...that thing over me?! How is his wolf okay with this?! Or his Uncle?!"
"Well, Uncle is no longer able to give his opinion to this family anymore....he already tried ridding brother of Rai but miserably failed. And as for his wolf...I am not sure why but he seems rather content and calm when Shizuo is around Rai...I have never seen........sorry, felt...anything like it. Please do not try to get in their way Natsuki....it'll only lead to your demise and brother's guilt I am sure."

((OOC: I freaking love Alex O'Laughlin and Moonlight....I was pretty disappointed when it was canceled though... whee ))


Shizuo sighs as he runs a hand through his hair and stares at the ground. "I am afraid that as long as I feel this way about you....Natsuki will never get along with you. To him, you are what stands in the way of him having me, and unless you just hand me over-Shizuo gives Rai a glare as if to warn him not to even think of trying to give him to another before looking away again and continuing-he will hate you."

Shizuo wraps his arms around Rai and holds him gently as he leans his head down and nuzzles into his hair. "Same to you love, same to you."

Shizuo's face becomes sad as he looks down at the floor, Natsuki's crestfallen expression from earlier making his guilt increase rapidly. When will I start hurting the people I care about? Sister, Rai, James and Natsuki....how many more times will I hurt them? With watery eyes, Shizuo continued to stare at the floor. "No, right now...what Natsuki needs....is for me to leave him alone. I have done enough, I am not going to go back in there and further the pain he is already in...that would be cruel."