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 Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 4:51 pm
Kuri was standing there cracking up at the look on Ly's face, he tried to hold back but he couldnt. He also couldnt speak as it was just a total priceless moment and he so wished he hd a camera.
Ly let go of Ward of and stood there "I wont deny that I dont like stew but seriously Ward, this is breakfast, not dinner, please tell me your making something that consists of bread being toasted or eggs being scrambled or something" he said till he noticed Kuri laughing "whats so funny rabbit"? he asked, wanting to know what was going on now more then anything else.
Kuri had started to quieten down and looked at Ly and then just cracked up again, he hated being mean to Ly but come on, this was priceless.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 4:55 pm
Ward chuckled at the door bell rung. "That would be breakfast." He said slipping away running towards the door. "Deal with it Ly! Kuri not making anything but a cake today."
Noah shook his head walking down the stiars his hair swaying back and forth in it tail. "Ly let Kuri rest. I'm sure what ever Ward order is fine."
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 5:10 pm
Kuri calmed himself down enough to pull money out of his pocket and handed it to the delivery guy and thanked him, allowing Ward to take the food and shut the door after him. He looked back at Ly and started cracking up again, he couldnt help it, the look on Ly's face just was something he was going to remember for a while.
Ly was blushing madly and he made his way back upstairs, he didnt want to be around them right now as he felt so embarrased by what he had just done and the fact that they had just made a fool out of him. "forget breakfast" he said in a pissed off sort of tone as he reached his bedroom door and walked in and slamed it behind him and fell onto his bed. He had now started to remember the humiliation he recived when walking back into his old home when he was sixteen and everyone was ashamed of his actions at how he had left his pack for dead and now started talking behind his back and was called names and everything. It was something he never wanted to remember again yet this just brought back those memories and now he didnt want to be around anyone, not even Noah. He started to silently cry, he was so happy moments before yet now he just started remembering what he had tried so hard to forget and he hated it.
Kuri watched Ly go and felt bad "I will go talk to him" he said as he started up the stairs, knowing he would probably have no luck but still he had to at least try.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 5:14 pm
Noah shook his head at kuri. "I'll handle it Kuri go down and eat with the rest." He twirled and knocked on the door. "Ly? Love what is wrong?" HE asked gently. "It was just a joke."
Ward pulled Kuri close to him. "Let Noah handle it he is more likly to get anything to happen." He said softly.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 5:37 pm
Ly never answered, it hurt him to ignore Noah like this but he wanted to speak to noone especially not Noah. "leave me alone" he growled viciously at the door as he turned back and hugged his pillow and looked at the right wall as the memories of all the wloves standing around while the new leader banished him in front of everyone kept playing in his mind. They hated him, they wanted him to die, they wanted him to suffer like they had suffered, trator, b*****d, he shook his head trying to forget these names, the faces, the words the pack leader had said while adressing everyone in the pack and banishing him.
They wouldnt go away, they were back and and seemed worse then ever and then the one memory he had forgotten completely about came back and the childrens faces of the wolf he had killed and he just cried harder. He was an idiot for leaving his room in the first place, nothing can help him...
Kuri allowed himself to be pulled towards ward as they made their way to the dining room where Muraki was sitting with a cup of coffee and looked at him with tears streaming down his face.
"Kuri, sweetheart, whats wrong?" he asked getting up and rushing around to him and pulled him to him and hugged him "please Kuri, tell me what happend" he said holding him close.
Ly is upset that Ward and I played that joke on him and has now gone back into his room, he was upset and is now...well....I dont know but Noah is up there trying to get him to talk but something tells me that its worse then we actually realise." he said as he held Muraki.
"Oh no, this isnt good" he said to Kuri as he took his arms away from around him "ward look after Kuri, this might be worse then we think" he said as he ran out of the dining room and up the stairs and saw Noah "Noah, please, leave us" he said as he opened the door and walked into the room and over to Ly "Ly, please, calm down" he said as he picked him up and held him "please sweetheart, please talk to me" he was scared that Ly might lash out but he couldnt help it, he wanted to be there for him.
Ly pushed Muraki away rather forcefully "get out!! NOW!" he growled at him "leave me alone!" he said picking up the bottle of burbon that was 3/4's empty still on his dressing table and threw Muraki, hitting him in the forehead with the body of it.
Muaki fell to the ground as the bottle that hit him with such force and had knocked him out.
Ly saw what had happend and picked up the body and dumped him outside of his door and slamed it behind him and went back to his bed, thoughts about his past haunting him still and he wanted nothing from anyone. He didnt deserve it, he was a murderer and a coward and always would be.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 6:23 pm
Noah looked at Ly shocked having not yet moved from the place and backed away suddenly frightened fleeing downstairs. "Kuri! Ly hurt Muraki!" He yelled racing down the stairs.
Ward moved gently grabbing Noah pulling him close soothing the wolf looking at Kuri. "Do you think you can get Noah to calm down?" He asked softly stroaking Noah hair not wanting to leave Noah alone at the moment.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 6:49 pm
"If muraki couldnt do it then how could I?" His fears had come to life again, the same fears he had to live with as he grew up and he had only been able to help Ly a few times before when he was like this and that was, so he thought, by fluke. Kuri stood up and dried his eyes and took a deep breath and let it out "I will do my best" he said as he kissed Ward on the head and then hugged Noah "Ward, please call Akash, we might need him not only for Muraki but myself, Noah and Ly as well." he said as he ran towards the stairs and up them, noticing Murakis body he draged it into his room, resting it on the floor and put a pillow under his head, bent down and kissed his foehead as he realised Muraki had been just knocked out.
Kuri started across the hall, scared that he would end up dead as he wasnt as strong as what muraki was but he would try and get Ly to calm down. He knocked on the door three times and started singing "blue moon, I saw you standing alone, without a love of my own" he asked as he listened for a reply.
Ly listened at the door, something in him triggered something when he was growing up and repeated what he could remember:
"Blue Moon,
You know just what I was there for
You heard me saying a prayer for
Someone I really could care for
And then there suddenly appeared before me
The only one my arms will hold
I heard somebody whisper please adore me
And when I looked to the Moon it turned to gold
He didnt know where it came from but it calmed him down somewhat and he sat up and looked around the room, noticing stuff in there that wasnt his. He got up, forgetting about the door and walked over to the trunk, that song still playing in his mind, over and over again through the images of his past. He looked at the trunk then back at the roses on his bedside table and walked over to them and picked them up. He didnt know what was going on but that song, something from when he was small, he opened the card and looked at it noah...i know that name... he said to himself as he fell on the bed and started to cry, he was now totally confused between his past, the song and the name Noah.
Kuri opened the door carefully and saw Ly with the roses "ly" he said walking over to him "Ly those roses are for Noah, you gave them to him remember? They showed how much you care for him and love him, please tell me you remember sweetheart" he bit back tears, he wanted to cry so much but he kne he shouldnt nor could he as he hd to be strong.
Ly pushed Kuri away, "get noah NOW!" he growled at the rabbit, something had made him remember and though he didnt know what he knew that Noah was a person who had done something before so he just wanted him now to see if he could do whatever it was for him again. The pictures of his past need to be taken away and something told him that Noah was the one who helped him before...or at least his heart told him this.
Kuri got up and didnt say anything and shut the door, running downstairs he went into the dining room. "Noah, forgive me for asking this of you but Ly is wanting you to go up, will you please?" he fell to the floor crying heavy, "Noah, you helped Ly before, please please help him again, you might be the only one who can make him get out of this relase he has gotten himself into. Im begging you Noah, please help him" Kuri begged as he let the tears fall onto the floor, just hoping Noah would please do this for them once again.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 6:54 pm
Noah shivered tring to sink away till Ward paw cupped his face making him look up into copper eyes.
"Noah you can do this. Ly will listen to you he just confused alright? He loves you dearly you wouldn't sink away if you where on a battle feild with Mari would you?" Ward asked softly.
Noah shook his head and started up the stairs slowly he wouldn't of back down from a battle then and he wasn't know. Ly needed him. He tentivly knocked on the door. "Ly?"
Ward knelt pulling Kuri in his arm resting his head against the other making soothing sounds to his mate.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:02 pm
Kuri put his hands around Wards neck and cried into him, he was so scared at seeing this happen again when he knew it took him over six years to get through it last time. His nightmares were comming true once more and he couldnt handle it "Ward, im scaed" he said as he hugged his mate tighter
Ly heard a voice, that voice that seemed fimilure to him somehow, he didnt know how but he knew that it was a voice "Noah?" he called not realising he had said it "is that....you?" he called trying to pull the name and where he had heard it before from his memory banks but due to the pictures of his past it was hard. "You...helped me didnt you?" he asked as if something was making him say this even though he didnt know what he was saying himself.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:08 pm
Ward cuddled his mate letting Kuri cry. "Shushh it will be alright Noah will get him over it just calm down Kuri please." He kissed his mates tears nuzzling Kuri. "I love you dearly love."
Noah nodded. "Yes I did Ly." He said softly eyes closed tears running down his face he snifted trying to stop them. "Ly please stop it your scaring me." He whispered softly. "We had flipping sex and your acting like you don't know me."
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:18 pm
Ly looked up at Noah and got off the bed and ran to him and put his arms around him. As soon as he saw his face he emembered that this guy was the one who helped him through this before and so he knew he could trust him again. "I...im scared " he said before falling to the ground in tears. "the memories, the past, the childrens faces....im scared, dont let them haunt me anymore...please help get rid of these memories." he said as he held his head thinking that would work as he didnt know what else to do, he was confused, scared, he wanted these pictures gone from his mind for good. He didnt want anything triggering them off again, he just wanted to be rid of them for good.
Kuri never said anything, he couldnt, he was far to scared for his flatmate who was up there confused as hell. Three words escaped his lips "akash....call akash" he said between sobs.
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:25 pm
Noah shivered giving a small whimper and pressed his lips agaisnt Ly kissing the wolf not knowing anyway else to make the memory go away.
Ward nodded openign his phone dialing in AKash number quickly listening. He spoke quickly to the unicorn and hung up curling his arms around Kuri nuzzling him. "Akash will be here soon just calm down love."
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:44 pm
Ly was in shock at what just happend yet wrapped his arms around him and kissed him back, god knows what made him do it but he knew somewhere inside of him knew that he had loved this guy, he had cared for him only hours ago but now it was crowded by the pictures of his past. He closed his eyes and tried to remember everything that had happened along with his past and found a small glimmer of hope inside of him as he broke the kiss. He concintrated on that alone, dispite everything else that was going on with him and remembered a talk that he and Noah had yesterday "Noah, a child, our child, i was going to name it after Mari wasnt I?" he said shaking his head as if to clear it and sat down and hugged his knees with eyes closed trying to think of something else.
Minutes that seemed like hours past and he was bout to give up on ever being sane again untill he remembered something, it was an apology that he had given Kuri, his flatmate who he cared about so much. He promised him that he would be better, he would be nicer to people, he would allow him and Ward to date each other. Kuri, ward, Noah, Muraki they all cared for him and he had lived in this house for years... "Noah, I think im slowly remembering what has happend. I made promises to people, to friends, to Kuri" he said trailing off and getting up still crying and ran out the door "Kuri" he called as he ran down the stairs towards the kitchen.
He saw Kuri and something told him that this was his fault. "Oh god, Kuri, what have I done" he said as he fell to the floor and grabed him and hugged him to him tight. "Oh Kuri I am so sorry" he said crying into him
Kuri wrapped his arms around Ly "Ly, please tell me your ok" he said scared but something told him it was going to be alright and cried into him, hugging him close.
"Oh god, Kuri, please forgive me"he said crying as he started to slowly ignore the memories that were still trying to haunt his mind. He was stronger then this, he can get through this, he knew he could dispite how hard it seemed, he knew he had friends who loved him, people who cared about him and knew he had gotten through this once before and he could do it again. "I need help....I need serious help" he said as he huged the rabbit tightly while crying
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:49 pm
Noah nodded. "Yes you where going to name one after Mari I was so surprised." He said keeping a hand on Ly as he struggled to remeber and followed him slowly down the stairs large eyes worried. He glanced at Ward who pointed at his phone.
Ward growled lightly putting protective hands on his mates shoulders looking at the wolf crying on Kuri. "Ly remeber you made a promiss to Noah you would be stronger stop crying please."
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Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:58 pm
Ly looked at the cat and growled at him a little "you were never humiliated in front of over 100 people who were wishing you suffered the same fate they did, who wanted you to die, who wanted so much wished upon you, you were never banished from your home, you never became a coward, you never ******** murdered anyone and have his childrens faces haunt your memories when they stand over their fathers dead body crying as they look up at the murderer who killed their father and you never have to know that in the very deepths if your mind you have these memories that you will forever stay with you no matter how much you try to forget them. I think after the hell i just went through and still going through still that promise can be broken just this once dont you? I will be strong in this situation when I know for cetain this crap will never happen again, when I know these memories wont be triggered by anything that is done in this household dispite what it is."
Ly got up and walked over to the fire and sat down in front in front of it and hugged his knees and looked into the flames of the fire and dried his eyes though it didnt help much and took a deep breath and let it out. "Ward, im sorry. Im just still so scared and confused right now " he said, leaving his gaze on the flames and remembered about Muraki "wheres Muraki? WHERE IS HE?!" he said scared that he had seriously done something bad to him.
Kuri looked up at Ly and dried his eyes a little "he's been knocked out, hes in his ro..." he never finished his sentence as Ly had already gotten up and left. He turned to Noah "Noah, I know it seems rather hard to believe now and I know you probably dont even want to be around Noah or anything else but please dont give up on him just yet, he loves you Noah and cares about you deeply but right now he just needs to be left alone and know that he has people who care about him if he needs them around him to talk to.
This isnt the first time this has happend, it happend once before when he was 19 but back then Muraki and I never had anyone in his life that he could trust in completely to help him through this and so he went back to how he was and locked himself in his room once more. But Noah, you have come into his life now and he needs you more then anyone else and I know you are probably scared right now, we all are, but please Noah I beg of you please dont give up on Ly just yet, please stay strong for him as he will want to come to you first before anyone else and talk to you and he wants to know that his best friend is there for him, another who is a wolf and never judged him like the others did, one that he knows he can trust in completely..." he said trailing off and turning to his mate.
he asked starting to cry again and turned to his mate "Ward, I know this is probably going to be far fetched but would Akash have anything to help Ly surpress these memories so he will forget them to an extent but will not have him remember these memories over the smallest of things that might trigger something in him to start remembering them?" he asked as he took a deep breath and let it out and just fell into his mates arms once again, still wanting to be held.
Ly ran up the stairs and opened Muraki's bedroom door and fell down beside him "Muraki, muraki, oh god, what have i done?" he said crying over Muraki's body as he held it close to his body and started to remeber what Muraki had done for him over the years and the times they talked, had the odd bit of fun and most importantly the time he had offered him a home here at 16 when noone else would. He cried harder just wanting to hug onto Murai's body like he had done for him when he was growing up "Muraki, i am so, so sorry" he said just not letting go of Muraki's body and continued crying.
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