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 Posted: Sun Oct 16, 2011 9:56 pm
Manguusu Foxifyre So... as per your request here is an update. Wife moved out today while I was out of the house. I'm depressed an lonely and having suicidal thoughts but no plans. My mom is gonna move me in with her for a few weeks to keep an eye on me. That's good to know. I still suggest seeking professional help, considering the fact that you're still experiencing serious suicidal ideation. At least your mom's there for you in the meantime. 3nodding Just for your knowledge... I am bi-polar type 2 and I have a psych. I am currently on a medication known as Geodon which is helping. All that being said if I were to seek help from my psych he would hospitalize me and that would ruin my school semester. I will not waste another year of my life. Especially not in a hospital.
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Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2011 9:37 am
Foxifyre Manguusu Foxifyre So... as per your request here is an update. Wife moved out today while I was out of the house. I'm depressed an lonely and having suicidal thoughts but no plans. My mom is gonna move me in with her for a few weeks to keep an eye on me. That's good to know. I still suggest seeking professional help, considering the fact that you're still experiencing serious suicidal ideation. At least your mom's there for you in the meantime. 3nodding Just for your knowledge... I am bi-polar type 2 and I have a psych. I am currently on a medication known as Geodon which is helping. All that being said if I were to seek help from my psych he would hospitalize me and that would ruin my school semester. I will not waste another year of my life. Especially not in a hospital. I see. Carry on then.
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Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2011 9:58 am
Manguusu Foxifyre Manguusu Foxifyre So... as per your request here is an update. Wife moved out today while I was out of the house. I'm depressed an lonely and having suicidal thoughts but no plans. My mom is gonna move me in with her for a few weeks to keep an eye on me. That's good to know. I still suggest seeking professional help, considering the fact that you're still experiencing serious suicidal ideation. At least your mom's there for you in the meantime. 3nodding Just for your knowledge... I am bi-polar type 2 and I have a psych. I am currently on a medication known as Geodon which is helping. All that being said if I were to seek help from my psych he would hospitalize me and that would ruin my school semester. I will not waste another year of my life. Especially not in a hospital. I see. Carry on then. Thank you for caring about me though.
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Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2011 4:27 pm
Foxifyre Manguusu Foxifyre Manguusu Foxifyre So... as per your request here is an update. Wife moved out today while I was out of the house. I'm depressed an lonely and having suicidal thoughts but no plans. My mom is gonna move me in with her for a few weeks to keep an eye on me. That's good to know. I still suggest seeking professional help, considering the fact that you're still experiencing serious suicidal ideation. At least your mom's there for you in the meantime. 3nodding Just for your knowledge... I am bi-polar type 2 and I have a psych. I am currently on a medication known as Geodon which is helping. All that being said if I were to seek help from my psych he would hospitalize me and that would ruin my school semester. I will not waste another year of my life. Especially not in a hospital. I see. Carry on then. Thank you for caring about me though. No problem. biggrin
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Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2011 2:38 am
Well, it's hump-day... It still feels like Monday... I am going back to bed...
...And do hang in there Foxy... heart ...
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Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2011 9:04 am
Eltanin Sadachbia Well, it's hump-day... It still feels like Monday... I am going back to bed... ...And do hang in there Foxy... heart ... Don't worry about me... I'll be fine... I just need time. Besides... I already grieved over losing her two times before... so this time it's not as bad.
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Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2011 8:56 pm
So I just bought a car. 2004 Pontiac Grand Am SE. It's niiiiiiiice.  Mind blanked out....
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 3:06 pm
Manguusu So I just bought a car. 2004 Pontiac Grand Am SE. It's niiiiiiiice. Mind blanked out.... Grats! Update: I had forgotten how much I loathe being alone until recently. I've been feeling better with every day that passes but I'm still having trouble eating enough... I lost 10 lbs last week alone. I almost forgot to eat last night but I realized it when I almost feinted. Good news is I got a 147 out of 150 on my microbiology exam that I just took on tuesday. was one question away from a perfect score (Each one is worth 3 points).
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ScarletFrost Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 3:19 pm
I just got home from 8 days of spiritual enrichment. Life is just as miserable as ever, but it seems just a little easier to bear now. Also, my parents and several informal family members (those who are like family but of no genetic relation) spoiled my daughter rotten. She got SO MANY toys and goodies! I just hope she doesn't mind the dry spell between now and the spring. razz
On another note, I found tofu sushi wrappers, so I can now make my favourite Cali-Kappa rolls without seaweed, and my husband and daughter can be enticed to eat them. biggrin
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 11:38 pm
I'm starting to work on my strength and flexibility again. Over the last few years I've let it slide because I wanted to gain weight, but a couple days ago I noticed I could only do one chin up at a time. This was crazy for me, because a couple years back I was easily able to do this 20 times in a row, often using only my fingertips. I could pretty much climb anything with ease, and now... not so much. It's pretty nerve wracking, so my new goal is to get back to that point.
I've also been working on the farm, and traveling a bit. I took off for a week a little while ago, and then just little stints since then. I haven't been so active lately because there's just a lot happening in my life with that and other things.
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Posted: Sat Oct 22, 2011 8:30 am
Random thought, but I'm contemplating making another firearm purchase sometime in the near future, and I'm torn as to what I should get. I've got a stainless steel .22 revolver I'll most likely be selling for $200, and I wanted to put that $200 towards another piece. My choices are a Polish AKMS underfolder in 7.62x39, or a well-used Fabrique Nationale Herstal Hi-Power in 9mm to serve as a project gun. Hi-Powers have always been my second kind of cool (alongside the Mauser C96), but an AK 47 would offer me lots of ammo downrange for relatively cheap, and it'd look badass.
Was kind of curious as to what you folks thought.
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Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2011 1:50 pm
My husband and I have just been laid off from our apartment managing job. No reasons given. Just a lot of political BS flying around the office and a hint of religious discrimination that we wouldn't be able to prove in court anyway.
We now have 2 options--either the owner of the property we manage can take us on (which depends on if she's going to go through another management company or manage the property without a company) OR we need to move.
Oh, and by the way, my job is cutting my hours again, so there's no way for us to support ourselves with the hours I'm getting. Even if we ate ONLY Ramen Noodle Soup.
And I'm trying to maintain the brave "it's all going to work out" front for my husband and daughter, mostly so that my husband doesn't dive into a depression cycle from the stress, because that would be the cherry on the "things we don't need" cake.
There is not an emoticon for how pissed/depressed/anxious/uncertain/teeth-gnashingly GRAAAAAAAA I am.
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ScarletFrost Vice Captain
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Chieftain Twilight Captain
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Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2011 12:58 pm
..... sad
Happy Halloween, everyone.
I dunno what to say. that's some rotten news. no matter WHAT happens, though, you'll make it through alright. maybe this is a good excuse to sell some extra stuff you can't take with you if you move. or perhaps a stroke of good luck will hit at just the right time.
I wouldn't bet on the latter; they say good things come to those who wait, but I've always trusted in the hard work one puts in. you cultivate your own life.
I guess what I'm saying is that the stress and hardships are what make the goodness worthe it. it only means anything in context; in comparison to the conflicts.
if you need any help or consolation, I'm here.
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Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2011 1:57 pm
So... Been a while since I posted here. I'll start with the good stuff that's happened because it seems to be a good idea to me with all the problems everyone is having nowadays. I was able to finish an 8 page paper this weekend so yay!. I might have some incoming commissions on my chainmail if people pull through... and lastly I am excited to be able to play at Friday Night Magic's again cuz I got a new deck.
In other news... I'm still getting over the depression. I haven't been suicidal in two weeks so no worries. Been randomly breaking out in tears for no reason though...
Anyways...
Happy Halloween to everyone.
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Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2011 7:03 pm
I really don't know what to say Scarlet...People are douches. We had a house that we were renting sold out from under us, when we were supposed to be renting with the first option to buy if the owners ever did decide to sell... but living there wasn't actually a part of our livelihood... We ended up living with my parents for a year after that, something I hope will never be repeated... I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Foxy, It is good to know that you can see some positive, I hope you continue to improve. I am still praying for you and your situation if that helps.
As for me... Things are actually pretty good... We went trick-or-treating tonight and we did alright. My daughter had this rocking queen outfit, and my son was a ninja, armed to the teeth, and I was a pirate... Is it cool or weird that I had everything in my wardrobe to pull of an awesome pirate costume without buying a single thing?
Did anyone else dress up?
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