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 Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 3:33 pm
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 3:42 pm
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:27 pm
Well I failed, miserably. So here I am.
2 and a half years of set up to leave this god forbidden place and I blow it through my own ******** ups. The next 10 months are going to be hell with my family who are bound to up the hate against me, and given my quick to anger mood I can't predict if I'll snap on someone in the future.
I'm really pissed and depressed at my lack of thought during the actual leave though. I've finally constructed the perfect plan since I've been working on this for the longest of all my attempt with my other prior failures but when the situation falls into play I'm nothing since this is the furthest I've gotten and was practically scott free. I can thank lack of situational experience for my problems this time around. Not going to get enough time to plan another run-away this time. I just hope I'll not flip before I turn 18.
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:35 pm
My boyfriend just started singing with this four-man group within the past two weeks, and they had an audition this morning to open for a group at the local coliseum today, and guess what? They got the spot!!! I'm so excited for him! They said the concert his group is opening for is nearly sold out, and the coliseum can hold more than 20,000 people!
I'm so glad he's back to singing again; he just loves it so much. And his first gig back in the game is in front of tens of thousands of people. I am so proud of him. whee
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:36 pm
Blood Assassin 32 Well I failed, miserably. So here I am.
2 and a half years of set up to leave this god forbidden place and I blow it through my own ******** ups. The next 10 months are going to be hell with my family who are bound to up the hate against me, and given my quick to anger mood I can't predict if I'll snap on someone in the future.
I'm really pissed and depressed at my lack of thought during the actual leave though. I've finally constructed the perfect plan since I've been working on this for the longest of all my attempt with my other prior failures but when the situation falls into play I'm nothing since this is the furthest I've gotten and was practically scott free. I can thank lack of situational experience for my problems this time around. Not going to get enough time to plan another run-away this time. I just hope I'll not flip before I turn 18.
*Hugs tight*^Not pity, I promise. I've just missed you. <3
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:38 pm
Little Miss Fortune Blood Assassin 32 Well I failed, miserably. So here I am.
2 and a half years of set up to leave this god forbidden place and I blow it through my own ******** ups. The next 10 months are going to be hell with my family who are bound to up the hate against me, and given my quick to anger mood I can't predict if I'll snap on someone in the future.
I'm really pissed and depressed at my lack of thought during the actual leave though. I've finally constructed the perfect plan since I've been working on this for the longest of all my attempt with my other prior failures but when the situation falls into play I'm nothing since this is the furthest I've gotten and was practically scott free. I can thank lack of situational experience for my problems this time around. Not going to get enough time to plan another run-away this time. I just hope I'll not flip before I turn 18.
*Hugs tight*^Not pity, I promise. I've just missed you. <3Thanks. <3 Secret: I missed going on long 2-3 AM walks till the break of Dawn.
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:51 pm
/joins in Blood Glompage. D:
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:53 pm
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:54 pm
OH GOD, ITS LIKE BATTLING WITH TWO METAPOD'S! DX
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 6:58 pm
ok, this has been KILLLING ME. and i have no close friends irl except my boyfriend who i of course can't really talk about this with him, so I've been feeling pretty distant from my bf lately, which hurt me alot since we just had our 3rd anniversary sad he's going to graduate this spring and he really wants to move to california and work for mozilla, i DO NOT want to move there, i have a job i love here and i like the area. and it kills me that neither one of us can compromise on it, it's really a move or don't move situation. So i keep thinking in the back of my head that he's just going to leave me and go to cali, and i asked him about it and he honestly doesn't know, it is a possibility. so my heart hurts and then on top of it, i keep thinking of someone else. Some one i prolly have no chance with anyways, but i still think about him, I SHOULDN'T i have a bf...at least for now...i shouldn;t think of anyone else, so i punish myself, over and over. i don't even really know this guy that well, why am i thinking about him. why can't i just be happy with what i have.......what i might lose no matter what......*is crying very much typing this* i don't know what to do anymore, i just want to kill myself. i feel like i'm standing on a cliff anyways......i want to jump
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Posted: Wed Jan 20, 2010 9:21 pm
Nya_ Nya_kitty_kitty ok, this has been KILLLING ME. and i have no close friends irl except my boyfriend who i of course can't really talk about this with him, so I've been feeling pretty distant from my bf lately, which hurt me alot since we just had our 3rd anniversary sad he's going to graduate this spring and he really wants to move to california and work for mozilla, i DO NOT want to move there, i have a job i love here and i like the area. and it kills me that neither one of us can compromise on it, it's really a move or don't move situation. So i keep thinking in the back of my head that he's just going to leave me and go to cali, and i asked him about it and he honestly doesn't know, it is a possibility. so my heart hurts and then on top of it, i keep thinking of someone else. Some one i prolly have no chance with anyways, but i still think about him, I SHOULDN'T i have a bf...at least for now...i shouldn;t think of anyone else, so i punish myself, over and over. i don't even really know this guy that well, why am i thinking about him. why can't i just be happy with what i have.......what i might lose no matter what......*is crying very much typing this* i don't know what to do anymore, i just want to kill myself. i feel like i'm standing on a cliff anyways......i want to jump -Hugs- I can't really offer a solution. Or even an opinion. ._. But just know that someone cares.
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Posted: Thu Jan 21, 2010 12:28 am
Nya_ Nya_kitty_kitty ok, this has been KILLLING ME. and i have no close friends irl except my boyfriend who i of course can't really talk about this with him, so I've been feeling pretty distant from my bf lately, which hurt me alot since we just had our 3rd anniversary sad he's going to graduate this spring and he really wants to move to california and work for mozilla, i DO NOT want to move there, i have a job i love here and i like the area. and it kills me that neither one of us can compromise on it, it's really a move or don't move situation. So i keep thinking in the back of my head that he's just going to leave me and go to cali, and i asked him about it and he honestly doesn't know, it is a possibility. so my heart hurts and then on top of it, i keep thinking of someone else. Some one i prolly have no chance with anyways, but i still think about him, I SHOULDN'T i have a bf...at least for now...i shouldn;t think of anyone else, so i punish myself, over and over. i don't even really know this guy that well, why am i thinking about him. why can't i just be happy with what i have.......what i might lose no matter what......*is crying very much typing this* i don't know what to do anymore, i just want to kill myself. i feel like i'm standing on a cliff anyways......i want to jump I hate those situations. I'm afraid my boyfriend's going to leave me to go home to CA too, one day. Sometimes I wonder if it's just dragging out the inevitable and causing more eventual pain for us to stay together if he's just going to leave... if he even leaves. The uncertainty is the worst part, isn't it? If you knew one way or the other if he was going to leave or not, at least you'd be able to make an informed decision about what you should do. I'm always here if you need a shoulder to cry on.
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Posted: Thu Jan 21, 2010 7:26 am
Dystopian Lover Nya_ Nya_kitty_kitty ok, this has been KILLLING ME. and i have no close friends irl except my boyfriend who i of course can't really talk about this with him, so I've been feeling pretty distant from my bf lately, which hurt me alot since we just had our 3rd anniversary sad he's going to graduate this spring and he really wants to move to california and work for mozilla, i DO NOT want to move there, i have a job i love here and i like the area. and it kills me that neither one of us can compromise on it, it's really a move or don't move situation. So i keep thinking in the back of my head that he's just going to leave me and go to cali, and i asked him about it and he honestly doesn't know, it is a possibility. so my heart hurts and then on top of it, i keep thinking of someone else. Some one i prolly have no chance with anyways, but i still think about him, I SHOULDN'T i have a bf...at least for now...i shouldn;t think of anyone else, so i punish myself, over and over. i don't even really know this guy that well, why am i thinking about him. why can't i just be happy with what i have.......what i might lose no matter what......*is crying very much typing this* i don't know what to do anymore, i just want to kill myself. i feel like i'm standing on a cliff anyways......i want to jump I hate those situations. I'm afraid my boyfriend's going to leave me to go home to CA too, one day. Sometimes I wonder if it's just dragging out the inevitable and causing more eventual pain for us to stay together if he's just going to leave... if he even leaves. The uncertainty is the worst part, isn't it? If you knew one way or the other if he was going to leave or not, at least you'd be able to make an informed decision about what you should do. I'm always here if you need a shoulder to cry on. the Uncertainty really is the worst part, but thinking about betraying him, and almost being ok with it, hurts too crying
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Posted: Thu Jan 21, 2010 7:47 am
Nya_ Nya_kitty_kitty ok, this has been KILLLING ME. and i have no close friends irl except my boyfriend who i of course can't really talk about this with him, so I've been feeling pretty distant from my bf lately, which hurt me alot since we just had our 3rd anniversary sad he's going to graduate this spring and he really wants to move to california and work for mozilla, i DO NOT want to move there, i have a job i love here and i like the area. and it kills me that neither one of us can compromise on it, it's really a move or don't move situation. So i keep thinking in the back of my head that he's just going to leave me and go to cali, and i asked him about it and he honestly doesn't know, it is a possibility. so my heart hurts and then on top of it, i keep thinking of someone else. Some one i prolly have no chance with anyways, but i still think about him, I SHOULDN'T i have a bf...at least for now...i shouldn;t think of anyone else, so i punish myself, over and over. i don't even really know this guy that well, why am i thinking about him. why can't i just be happy with what i have.......what i might lose no matter what......*is crying very much typing this* i don't know what to do anymore, i just want to kill myself. i feel like i'm standing on a cliff anyways......i want to jump -hugs-i hope your ok ,just to let you know im still here s if there anything i can do
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Posted: Thu Jan 21, 2010 8:08 am
Kam is soo confused,i dont whether or not i want to move to Canada,im being made move but i could just run but if i run im abandoning alot ,yet if i move it could be an adventure and things might be nice over there and i wont have to listen or get yelled at by people i dont know and i get new begining but im leaving behind stuff i dont really want to,it feels like no matter which way i go im going to get shot by something
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