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I shoulda ranted here a few weeks ago when work was Hell, when my manager was picking on me and angry because of things that are out of my control (i.e. the board - her boss, having some favoritism towards me. I didn't even want it! And definitely was not trying to complicate things, I was trying to help, geez!!!). And when I was stressed about my visa. And when I was feeling both apathetic and yet a failure at all my jobs.

However things are going better now at work, I'm getting along better with my manager whose not taking out the actions of superiors none of us can control. I have officially received my visa and thus England/Grad school/etc is so actually a go. I'm actually really nervous, probably more nervous than excited if I'm going to be completely honest, and I am already missing people like crazy. Still I'm definitely not angry and definitely not going to rant about it.

Honestly things are now good, I have my visa, work is better and I'm enjoying it, and finally after almost a year things are really good with my best friend again. I really missed her like crazy. Things are back to normal and even more fun in some ways so that's lovely.

Complaints? Well, I'm probably much too infatuated with a guy I most certainly should not be into. That's not something to make me angry and want to rant, but it does stress me out. Ahh, soon I'll be gone and it won't matter right? xd

Anyhow sorry I've been so poof, I'll be better about it now. I'm much happier, and while busy and not often home, being happier has me much more likely to stay up late and write long rambling essays. razz

Thanks, indeed they are. Although I'm kinda getting in trouble lately. Kinda going wild since I'm leaving soon, I'll def have to tone it down. Particularly as lately I've been hanging with my younger friends so I seriously don't want to get in trouble with them. stressed

Haha, man that would be awful! Yes, I do have a couple of birthdays next week, one friend is turning 21 and another 23 (and another friend is turning 27 on Friday). However after those events I think I'll definitely be chilling more.

Haven't been here in awhile, but figured this was as good a place to vent as any.

So I can't get a cab tonight, so rather than getting the 4ish hours of sleep I was hoping for, I get to go and try to catch a train to the airport in the next hour (between 7pm - 8pm, last train to airport will leave at 11:30 but don't wanna chance the weather screwing with me, I'll leave way early) and just stay there ALL night, and hopefully my 6:30am flight will not get snowed in (don't start snowing again Brum, don't you dare!). My 6:30am flight will be an hour and a half, with an hour and a half layover, and then I get to hop onto an 11 and a half hour flight. Oh, right, did I mention I can't sleep on planes? Yea, I'm not exactly thrilled.

Upsides? Umm...well the train will be about 15 pounds cheaper, so I can buy lots of yummy coffee to keep me perky and able to do hw all night. And I thought I only had one motion sickness pill left but I have two, so I'm probably good to go for the entirety of my journey and not just picking the most opportune point to pop the one pill along the way. Nausicalm you shall be missed, if I see more of you in the airport in Paris (that's where my layover is, why, don't even ask) and they'll take my card I might snatch up another box. You're the most charming motion sickness medicine I've ever found, and I love reading your little directions and info in French.

Anyhow, I'll probably go die when I get home, even though it'll be 1:15pm CA time (ya know, if nothing else goes wrong and I actually make all my flights). I'll reappear sometime Tuesday I hope.

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Very stressed JK... sweatdrop

No dice, Paris is snowed in and so we can't leave Brum. If we ever get to Paris I don't know what will be the next step, if my flight will have been trapped and I can at least only be delayed, if I'll miss it because it'll leave while we are flying. I don't know what to do about my checked luggage. I'm so tired and so angry and this just sucks sucks sucks. I'm worried I won't even make it home. I'm sitting in an airport feeling like an idiot because I can't stop crying. I mean silently, tears streaming down my face, but still, it's awkward and I hate it. Nobody is left in Brum, if I have to stay here I'm going to be all alone.

Flight is now Thursday. This time directed through Munich rather than Paris (Paris is what was snowed in today, Brum was actually fine for take off). Pray pray pray that I get out of here guys, I miss my family and home so much!!! So homesick, omg. Broke down and cried in the airport (not loudly, but still I was ashamed because I don't do feelings but after staying up ALL night waiting to catch that flight and having it delayed than canceled I was so on edge), however I was super nice to the people busting their butts to try and find me a new flight at holiday time in crappy weather. I mean the people who were being rude and just making threats and demands of the poor workers who are mostly going to be spending their Christmas dealing with this were just awful. I was completely disgusted. I worked extra hard to come down and be super nice because seriously, the system (on top of all the weather issues) isn't that great for those airlines, the accommodations are kind of fail and they are way understaffed. However the workers themselves were truly amazing and working so hard and trying to be professional and polite and it was totally uncalled for the way some people acted. Hey we are all stressed, and we all want to go home. But like the people behind me (who were super nice even if I was too tired to really be responsive to them), we have to be grateful and take what we can get. I know Birmingham Int is HATING the weather more than all of us. I'm just hoping to get home by Christmas day, I'll be really upset if I don't, but I'm not taking it out on the airline, it's not their fault. I do really wish B-Int flew directly to the states though, London does but they are snowed in. *sigh* Oh life.

Going to take advantage of these extra days of solitude (now that everyone has cleared out of Brum pretty much) to get a lot of work done on my papers so I can have fun at home. I realize I forgot some things so hey, there are still some advantages. I will try to be positive, something new and different for me. Because if people working what has to be the most s**t job during a bad weather holiday season can be positive, I can suck it up to. I will go home, even if it has to be after Christmas.

Thanks a bunch Morgey! I really wish I could get some real hugs now, I could definitely use one. Here's to hoping I can get showered with them Thursday.

Yea, I'm going to be pretty depressed if I don't make it home and I'm just alone. Joyous holiday that shall be. crying

Weather and Munich should be good, so just hoping we don't get too much more snow here, today should be fine but it's supposed to snow Wed. It's not supposed to snow Thursday but we'll see how much Wed screws everything up. ~_~