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 Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 1:49 pm
What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:-  Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
"Yes, I know you'll keep telling me that. But you know as well as I do that you aren't eating right." Izzy wasn't teasing. He couldn't afford to. This was his star and someone he deeply cared about so joking around about Akihiko's health wasn't possible right now. "I think you're too thin to be honest. And I do want to help...if I can."
Izzy wanted to figure out HOW too help the man but Narcissus was a stubborn b*****d at times and telling him to do something just wasn't going to happen. The man had to think it was his idea or something valuable enough to do for his benefit. How to approach that would take time, but Izzy also realized that there wasn't much time to wait on that. Narcissus was too thin.
"So you still think I need to dress more upbeat as your manager?" He asked knowing that Akihiko had mentioned that same thing to Nikki at the charity event; before the memories were lost Some how, that same thought returned to Narcissus' head. Nikki just hadn't gotten around to it...well actually, Izzy never made the appointment.
However, the more Izzy looked at himself right now, his thoughts were starting to change on that front. He looked...hot! Surprise! He remembered he had thought about that very same thing at the concert when Nikki dressed him. Maybe it was time to change the look again?
"I suppose it does. But money isn't everything." he smirked as smoothed down the shirt and looked in the mirror for a moment; adjusting his collar. "Yes, I guess I will look like one of you tonight. And I could...get lucky." he laughed just a little in amusement. "Maybe a blond haired American business man or handsome European Tourist. The possibilities are endless aren't they?" He turned his head back to Narcissus with a vivid playful smile.
If Narcissus could so freely talk about playing with the girls, then he could muse about playing with the boys. "I'm sure we will have a lot of fun tonight!" Ok so maybe he was lightening up about the idea of clubbing. One night of wild fun could be interesting...very interesting.
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail!
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 3:01 pm
Sighing, Akihiko looked up at Izzy, watching the man who admired himself in the mirror. "Look, I get enough flack on it from Michi. I don't need it from you too. I'm not consciously making this choice, you know. And I'd rather not what little contents get INTO my stomach to find their way out again because the two of you thought it was a food idea to force me to eat." he replied, leaning back on the bed and using his arms to prop himself up, still watching his manager.
"Yes, you do need to dress the part. You're not some stuffy suit like Asato. I mean, look at Yuuji. He doesn't exactly conform to the norm of business dress. When you're with me, you need to dress like you're ready for a good time... not like you're punching some damn clock somewhere." his blue eyes sparkled just a bit, giving him an overly mischevious appearance as he spoke.
Akihiko liked seeing Izzy in his clothes. Sure, they weren't a perfect fit, but they still looked damn good on him.
Course, Izzy Lucky had a figure that was comfortable in those form fitting clothes.
Pulling a cellphone out of his pocket, Narcissus dialed Yuuji. "Hey, can you find a tailor and send them to my room?" he asked.
A few seconds later, the musician hung up. "Someone will be here in ten to adjust the length."
But then Izzy started talking about finding someone to get lucky with.
Laughing, the young Koyasu couldn't help but give his manager the most charming smile.
"Oh? Let me guess, you got lucky with me once and don't want to have another go?" he teased before sitting up fully on the bed once more. "Endless possibilities for love... maybe I will bring someone back here. And hey, this isn't Japan, so I don't have to keep up pretenses, do I? I could snag a sexy man instead of a girl. Then again... I'll be clubbing with three of the sexiest men at the place... might rather get lucky with one of them, heh."
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 3:51 pm
What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:- Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
"I'm not trying to give you flax, I'm trying to help. You have to make a conscious choice to take control of that problem. It's not something I can do for you." he sighed and tried not to be a jerk about it but seriously, the problem had to be resolved. "I'm not going to force you to eat."
"Alright...Alright. I'll have Nikki build me a new wardrobe when I get home. And maybe I should let you show me some clothes here I can purchase so I look the part this week. I don't know what Takagi-san packed." he answered giving in to the star's wishes. "I'm sure Nakai would like it if I perked up the wardrobe too." He shook his head when he saw that mischievous sparkle and the phone call to Yuuji. "You're being an imp and you know it."
"Well, no that's not it at all." he blushed suddenly, "You...and...I...had...a lot of fun. I'd...want to have that fun again. But I'm trying to be realistic."
Of course, Narcissus talking about bringing another man home kind of made Izzy itch with a slight bit of jealousy. However, he stomped that down knowing that it if he started down that road, it would be very hard to work with a Superstar who was constantly surrounded by fans.
"Sexiest men? You mean Tanaka-kun, Shou-san, and Hayato-san? I suppose you're right. They are very good looking men." he bit his bottom lip but he already knew that Michi had been around the block with Narcissus and that hadn't bothered him at the time. Why should it now?
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail!
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 6:52 pm
Strangely, Akihiko completely avoided the subject of his eating habits.
He didn't want to dwell on it...
Mainly because he knew Izzy and Michi were both right.
"Realistic?" he asked, standing up from the bed and coming to stand behind Izzy. He put his arms around the manager's waist, looking in the mirror at both of their reflections. "Being realistic would be you expecting it again. You think it was just a one time deal? Hardly. You're my manager, Ruki. Means we're going to spend a LOT of time together. Not all of it business." Narcissus couldn't help but smirk slightly, but then he cracked up laughing.
"Shou-san yes. Michi-kun yes. But Hayato-san? No way. Man gives me the creeps." that smirk turned to a very very mischievous grin. "I was talking about you as the third man, baka."
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 7:05 pm
What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:- Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
"Mm..." he glanced to his side then into the mirror as the man put his arms around his waist. Oh how he loved the feeling of those warm arms and the sight of the two of them in that mirror. On the other side of that mirror, were things different? Did the man feel more than what was seen on the surface? He wished he could see beyond that reflection and look at what dwell in the heart.
His fingers slid up on one side to caress that smirking cheek. The soft flesh pushed by the lips revealing white teeth; these things all added up to a perfect man in the manager's eyes...perfectly unobtainable. "Yes...ah...realistic. But I don't think you understand what I meant. I mean...realistically, I might want more in my life someday...Someone who loves me and is interested in more than just a good time. It would be nice to feel that way with someone and know that feeling is returned. That isn't your style and...well...I can't mold you into something your not."
But then, Narcissus gave him a complement he didn't know how to take. It wasn't Hayato...but himself!? "Me? Really?" Izzy was embarrassed as his cheeks turned red but his heart pounded in a pitter patter of joy at the thought of Narcissus thinking he was...sexy! It was obvious on his wide eyed face that he didn't know what to do with those words. Was he ever called sexy in the past? He couldn't remember. Chances were no!
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail!
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 7:18 pm
Izzy wanted a real relationship.
That was something Narcissus couldn't... wouldn't... give.
Not to anyone.
"Then it seems your out of luck with me, Ruki. No one gets my heart. Sorry to break that to you." he replied, rather bluntly. "I don't want to give you any false hopes there. Realistically, you're fun... sexy... and I really do like spending time with you outside of work, least so far."
Releasing the man, Narcissus couldn't help but laugh softly. "Never been called Sexy before... have you?" he asked, realizing he'd now called him that twice in the past couple of minutes. "Just look in the mirror! Can you honestly say you don't have a perfect figure? Maybe not as perfect as me of course..." Akihiko teased with a smirk. "But damn near close."
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 8:01 pm
What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:- Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
The words struck him like a hammer pushing the nail into a coffin within his heart. "I guess...I always knew that. Even if Chiyou told me different. At least, I've finally got to hear it from you. Ah and it's alright. Rather hear the honest truth than living a lie." he answered coolly while holding his inner self together. He was determined not to cry because this time his heart was tired of it...so he gave up. It was over.
He took in a breath and moved on; his words keeping a lighter canter, "Good thing we got that out of the way. It will make work a lot easier on the two of us. Now that I know where we stand. I'm glad we've a good working relationship." his voice warmed again, "After this vacation, I'm sure you'll be revved up to work on new songs. I'll be looking forward to putting together a tour for you once you're ready." Work...work took everything back to reality. He could move on now. No one would tell him otherwise. Not Yuuji, Koyasu-sama, Chiyou or anyone else. He was free.
"No, never been called that before." He glanced up in the mirror feeling strangely, lighter. He wasn't ugly...no he did look good. Maybe fortunately good because his work out was keeping up with his stars. He never had much time for the gym. "I guess.. I do look good." Izzy admitted then smiled brighter. Now to just find a new path; one that would eventually find a new heart with a similar need.
It was then the tailor knocked and Izzy walked over to let the man in. Soon there wasn't really any time for talking while the tailor measured and pinned.
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail!
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 8:33 pm
Narcissus didn't understand normal emotions, so he didn't realize that what he had said had hurt Izzy on a deeper level.
Hurt and yet freed him at the same time.
The man couldn't fathom loving someone. Caring about them yes, that was a bit different because he did care if Izzy were happy or not... but loving on a deep deep basis...
It was something that the true Narcissus would never feel, never do.
But it was something that Akihiko, deep deep down, longed for... even if he didn't know it.
"Work... sex... it's always easier when you're not expecting something in return." Akihiko replied, releasing Izzy as he went to open the door.
Strangely, the young Koyasu didn't venture into the den of the suite, and instead remained in his bedroom. He sat on the end of his bed, silent, before falling backward and starring up at the ceiling.
'Something feels wrong...' he thought to himself, having no idea that what felt wrong was the fact that he'd literally just pushed Izzy Lucky away.
The old Akihiko, the one who's memory was locked away, would have wanted Izzy by his side as more than a manager or a bedtime partner.
But this Akihiko, the one who was truly Narcissus in more ways than one, just didn't understand.
But he did understand that his head was hurting. A strange throb that had come on out of nowhere.
Laying there, Narcissus closed his eyes and just tried to relax, tried to soothe the pain away without reaching for the pain killers.
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 9:03 pm
What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:- Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
Izzy didn't respond to Naricissus' last comment. He couldn't because he expected one day to have some one that loved him at his side. Not just work...not just play but a real relationship that meant something deeper. Having had so many psychologist appointments, he knew not to blame himself for being unable to capture the man's heart.
It could have been worse. He could have pined longer, done some thing stupid like quit his job or something harmful, but it had been long enough that it just ached. All he could do was sigh softly as the tailor stitched his pants.
"Sounds like you're having a bad night." said the tailor as he sewed.
Izzy looked up and finally paid attention to the man before him. Not bad looking, Hawaiian man. "Mmm...yes, well hopefully the night will get better once I have a few drinks." he answered in English with a smile trying to cover that dull ache. At least, Narcissus wouldn't be able to understand his words.
"A good looking guy like you shouldn't be having a bad night. You should get out...catch a show. There's a club down town that has some theater performances and bands. You might want to check it out." smiled the tailor as he finished one leg and started on the other.
"Oh? Really? That might be a good idea." His manager mind always looking for new talent. Having something else to think about was important right now. He had to avoid dwelling on a dead past...he had to find a new future.
The tailor grinned and pulled a card out of his billfold. "Here's my card. I perform there. Come if you've time, I'd love to have another fan."
Izzy looked down at the card, then put it in his wallet. "I will. It's nice meeting you, Akamu. I'm Izzy Lucky. A pleasure to meet you."
So...this was a nice change, one he hadn't expected. Would the man have noticed him at all if he had been in his suit? Maybe not. He didn't know if the man was hitting on him but...certainly, there was interest in further conversation.
It didn't change the fact that Izzy was still hurting from an opened wound but at least he now had a reason to dress better!
But as he glanced back, he realized, that Narcissus hadn't come out of the bedroom. Was he rethinking his clothes now? Whatever it was, Izzy didn't think it was anything deep. Narcissus was more concerned about the clubbing tonight than anything else.
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail!
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 9:22 pm
Searing pain.
Blinding... a burning jolt that went through his mind like lightning.
Only it wouldn't fizzle out...
It kept striking and striking, over and over again until, even with his eyes opened, Akihiko saw just bright light.
There were no memories shoving their way into his mind.
Nothing forgotten that should have been remembered.
Just pain.
Light and pain.
Lithe fingers curled in the man's hair, one hand pushing against the scar as if trying to force the agony to stop.
He couldn't think, could barely move, hardly breathe...
It just hurt.
Somehow, Akihiko was kneeling on the floor, curled over, forehead touching the ground. How he'd gotten there the man had no clue, and he was barely conscious of the fact that he felt soft carpet beneath him.
It had just been a little headache...
How had it exploded like this?
Why was it hurting so bad?
He always remembered things when it hurt so why?
Why was there just pain?
It was like something was trying to get his attention by agonizingly torturing him.
Gasping softly, Akihiko couldn't even summon the strength to call out loud enough that Izzy might hear him. After all, the door had been shut when his manager left.
Blue eyes opened to mere slits, the man seeing his cellphone on the ground next to him. Luckily it had fallen from the bed when he had.
With a shaking arm, Akihiko reached out and hit a speed dial button. He didn't care who answered, but he needed help.
Luckily for him, the number he hit just happened to be Michi's.
When he heard the man's voice, one word was able to rip itself from his lips, so soft that it could barely be heard.
"Tasukette..."
Another pained gasp forced it's way from Akihiko's body, just before he collapsed to the floor completely.
Being unconscious had it's perks.
The pain was gone, for one thing.
But floating in darkness... well... that wasn't nearly so fun.
"Doko ka..." Akihiko felt himself say, though he couldn't really be sure if he said it or not.
Everything was pitch black.
And then suddenly, as if lightning, a blinding white light engulfed the man and the musician was forced to shield his eyes.
When it was over, he blinked... only to see a man standing in front of him.
"Seth... sensei..."
The man smiled, reaching out a hand. "It's time for your piano practice, Akihiko-kun."
As if automatically, Narcissus' hand reached out, taking that of the man.
But it wasn't HIS hand... not as it should have been... but the hand of a boy.
"Don't do this..." Akihiko spoke, though he knew he himself in the memory wasn't saying that. "Onegai... TOMERU!!!"
Seeing Seth suddenly engulfed in flames... the boy who was Akihiko screamed.
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 9:38 pm
Let the Memories of the Evening be...
the first think that you think of------------------------------------------------}:-  Tanaka Michi
Physical Therapist
Fingertips...walking up your spine...a tongue sliding right behind..
Michi had sprawled on the bed, turned on the TV for a moment. Doing just something stupidly lazy. He had been so excited that he got ready in 15 minutes and that left him plenty of time. In fact, Shou had knocked not moments before to tell him he needed an hour to prepare.
Ah...that was just a star's prerogative he guessed. But then as he was trying to watch an English show called House, he heard his phone. Reaching over to his bedside, he picked it up and looked at the number. Akihiko?
"Hey Akihiko...I...What?!" Michi leaped out of the bed barely hearing that one word. Faster than a jack rabbit he raced to the door and threw it open so it slammed the wall as he ran to Akihiko's room.
Banging fast on the door, Michi started to yell. "Akihiko!"
That got Izzy's attention who hurried over and answered it only to be shoved aside before he could even get a word out. Michi practically leaped over the tailor in his chair as he scrambled by. His eyes searching as he ran from room to room until he found the man on the floor.
Izzy caught his breath from Michi's push and ran after him. "Tanaka-kun! What's going on...Oh my god!" He panicked when he saw Akihiko's body collapsed on the floor.
Michi picked Akihiko up and put him on the bed, checking his head and the scar, "Bring me a wet cloth, get me Yuuji." He started patting Akihiko's face carefully, "Akihiko, I'm here...come on wake up."
Izzy was terrified and ran to Yuuji's room. Were they going to have to go to the hospital again? Shouldn't they be taking him to the hospital!? Calling a doctor?
He banged on Yuuji's door and explained what he knew before running back.
-:{------------------------------------------------when you open up your smile and see me.
...Dark Star.
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 9:46 pm
Blue eyes snapped open and instinctively, Akihiko grabbed Michi. He didn't say anything, didn't do anything except lay there, staring at the man, fear running rampant behind that azure gaze as he took in deep breaths, trying to calm down.
After a few seconds, some sort of recognition set in and Narcissus let go of the physical therapist and collapsed back onto the bed, closing his ******** this..." he whispered, putting one arm over his eyes, his voice seeming... broken?
He was crying...
But was trying hard to keep Michi from seeing it.
He'd chalk it up to pain... that's what he'd do. Tears because his head hurt so damn much... and in truth it did.
But the reality... was his mind was... well, as far as Akihiko could tell, broken. Memories were out of place and ones that he'd purposefully buried were surfacing.
Was it because Izzy had spoken English earlier and riled him up?
Maybe...
Course he couldn't tell his manager that.
"What happened?" Akihiko asked, trying to calm down, to distract his mind from the memories at hand. "How... how long was I out?"
Meanwhile, Yuuji had calmly listened to what Izzy had said, then following the manager back to his cousin's room.
Standing in the doorway, Takagi didn't comment.
He simply watched.
Though, in one hand, he did have a bottle of pain killers... just in case.
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 9:55 pm
Let the Memories of the Evening be...
the first think that you think of------------------------------------------------}:- Tanaka Michi
Physical Therapist
Fingertips...walking up your spine...a tongue sliding right behind..
Michi was prepared for anything even when he was grabbed. "Akihiko, it's me, Michi, your physical therapist. Every thing is going to be Ok. Just relax. I think you had a severe headache. But you called me and...I got hear really fast."
In fact, Michi was still breathing heavy from the run. Man, this was a heck of a way to start a vacation. Great. Maybe they shouldn't have gone on one so soon after Akihiko's hospitalization.
"Do you remember when you last took your painkillers? Would you like me to call a physician? Do you feel like you need to go to the hospital? You were out for maybe a minute. I just talked to you a moment ago."
Izzy stood there wide eyed with his hands at his side just inside the doorway. His face was pale with worry and his heart pounded with fear. That idea of going clubbing vanished out the window with this - his mood was totally ruined.
-:{------------------------------------------------when you open up your smile and see me.
...Dark Star.
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 10:11 pm
"I'm fine... my head just hurts. It..." Akihiko shook his head slightly, arm still concealing his eyes.
"Could... could you guys leave Michi and I alone for a second?" he asked, obviously meaning Izzy and Yuuji.
Sighing, Takagi put a hand on Izzy's shoulders and lead him out of the room, closing the door behind them.
Before Izzy could protest too much, Yuuji looked into the manager's eyes. "He's crying. He doesn't want you to see." he explained to Izzy carefully.
Back in the room, Akihiko didn't say anything for a few minutes. How could he with tears streaming down his face. He kept his arm over his eyes even then, wanting to hold back the pain... hold back the flood of emotions that were welling up inside of him.
"Gomen, Michi-kun." he spoke, laughing slightly as he did so. "Not the best way to start a vacation... but really... my head just hurts. A lot. I'll be okay... and um... I had pain killers on the plane."
Akihiko removed his arm and sat up, looking up at the ceiling with eyes closed for a moment as he tried to gather himself. "Painful memory... that's all... No um..." he looked at Michi suddenly. "No physicians or hospitals. I'll be alright. Really. I was just worried, I guess... panicking... It hurt so bad that I couldn't even call for Izzy and he was in the other room..."
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Posted: Sun May 01, 2011 10:31 pm
Let the Memories of the Evening be...
the first think that you think of------------------------------------------------}:- Tanaka Michi
Physical Therapist
Fingertips...walking up your spine...a tongue sliding right behind..
Michi sat there for a moment in silence just looking Akihiko over. "Hey, its alright." he finally said, "Maybe I was a little to eager to get out and about. You still are recovering and I should keep that in mind. "
"So do you want to talk about the memory? Would that help you sort things out?" Michi asked as he got up and brought back the box of tissues and a glass of water. "Sometimes talking will help. At least it will ground the thoughts in your head."
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Izzy nodded as Yuuji guided him out. The tailor had left in the midst of the emergency but his pants were neatly folded on the seat close by. Picking up the pants he stroked the hem as he thought.
He could accept that explanation given by Yuuji and there was nothing he could do for Akihiko. He couldn't comfort the man and since their relationship had been put into perspective, he couldn't let himself take this so hard. "I'll be alright, Takagi-kun. I understand. I know he's in pain and well if he needs me I'll be here as his manager and friend."
He wouldn't explain his rather cooled emotions to Yuuji, He wanted that moment just between him and Narcissus. Eventually, he had a feeling Yuuji would figure it out but it wouldn't be directly from him.
"I'm going to my room. I doubt we're going out tonight. It looks like Narcissus needs some time to rest. You may want to let Shou-san know." he finally said and started to walk down the hall to slip into his room.
Once inside, he leaned against the door and slid down to the floor feeling so...drained.
-:{------------------------------------------------when you open up your smile and see me.
...Dark Star.
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