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 Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 9:33 pm
When he said that, she first looked shocked that he knew this before turning away, fighting back tears. With a shuddering gasp, she found the strength to speak. "I wish for a bond like they have. Every fiber of my being is screaming to find the other half of me. And yet .. there is nothing .. Nothing! I will never have it, I will always feel upset, lonely, misunderstood .." she broke off, not able to continue with a calm tone, clinging to herself.
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 10:00 pm
Stupid he forgot Silmeria gave her the answer but he was like blushing when she said it. Now being mad at himself for making her upset. He went seemingly and hugged her tightly comforting her* You know for someone who seeks to be understood and you dont see that there's already beings who understand you more that you could imagine in front of your nose. I have this empty space in my heart like you seeking a bond like no other. You felt it once that bond i too felt something very similar to you. I lost it like you i run with a half craving the other knowing that i was destined to be alone. Yet i found friends loved ones who have aided me in times of need.
Wouldnt you say you feel the same way *He puts her hand on his chest* I lied to myself by being upset at you for seeking to understand you better. When in reality i always knew from the very beggining i always knew. You and I crave the same thing look for the same thing but took different paths, You are not alone and you arent missunderstood and as i said to Silmeria You can have that bond you just were seeking it on only one point of view.
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 10:09 pm
"No .. no .. it is not love, it is not the same as the bonds of marriage .." she began softly, looking to him with a growing eagerness. "May I show you?"
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 10:14 pm
Show me thought i think you missunderstood me and i think i may know what lies ahead. But by all means show me *He said very eager. Indeed marriage was very close and once he asked for a bond like Saphira and Eragon he saw them in books and was more embedded into his mind than ever. Also what silmeria said that was like when he proclaimed the true meaning of love to her. He slowly pieced to gether and this maybe the last piece of the puzzle*
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 10:39 pm
She took hold of him, letting them both fall gracefully to the ground below, slowly like a leaf. Reaching the ground, she made sure he was close enough to the mecha that he could seek to touch it for support if he needed, knowing that it would be overwhelming.
At first, she showed him her mind, her thoughts right now were of him, were of her love for him, knowing he loved her in return. She let this feeling flow through them both, slowly at first, a slight touch. Then she opened their minds together more, allowing him to feel her emotions with greater strength. There was an overwhelming feeling of love, more complete and whole than what he had ever felt before because he was no longer feeling his own emotion, but hers. To be able to feel another persons love, to feel what it truly meant for an emotion to be tangible .. would feel more amazing than anything he had felt before.
That was only the beginning. Her mind opening, forcing its way in to his own, more than most men could handle, but she knew he was strong enough and stubborn enough to endure, to make it through this, to see the truth. More connections, more understanding. They would then take a breath together, inhaling deeply. Who needed the deep breath? Neither would truly know, because the need of the one was the need of the other.
Taking a step away from him, she watched with a calm expression, smiling a bit though her eyes looked sad. Now, not only would he be seeing her with his own eyes, but he would be seeing himself through her eyes, as if he were lost in thought yet paying attention to reality. Both would be his own. As a breeze passed by, he would feel the cool evening air touching Ziven first, then him.
Not only did they share each others emotion, they shared what they felt by touch, sight sound and more. There was so much more around them that Ziven was aware of that he would not know of her. The life in the trees, the grass, the water below, the air all around them. She was aware of it all, how alive it was, and like this, so was he.
In his mind, before the words left her lips, he would hear an echo of what she wanted to say. "Do you understand?" she asked in a calm tone, her emotions of care, pleading, non judgmental as she willed him to reply now that he had a chance see for himself how complete bond was.
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 11:02 pm
He looked at her and everything started to feel funny but in a good way. First when she linked with his feelings of love to her he was both amazed and happy, but it didn't stop there it felt stronger with each second. His head pained him abit but he shook it and held it wishing to know more and boy was in for the ride of his life.
Looking at her every fiber of his body surged with love interwined now with her his heart filled slowly felling the happiness he seeked for a long time. Grunting a bit he felt the pressure but kept on his drive to know sustaining it. Soon the both breath at unison that shocked him even more and as time passed more was linked not just their breath patterns but everything. She could see the radiance of every being as he sensed but he sensed everything around the life around trees sea everything! his heart was now not only filled but now filled to an unprecedented amount that only she could feel. The overwhelming happiness that exuded from him as they were one.
Slowly he heard her word before they wer even pronounced. Looking at her and grabing his chest this was so as close as he toght but yet so far. Truly tantamount in itself and so simple too. He gathered his toughts and before he could speak she already knew the answer. "Please don't sever this. I understand, you made me feel whole again." He was saying the truth with so much loss in emptiness this was like a heal of the centuring severing it now would make him crash.
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 11:14 pm
A deep, tragic apology and sadness would be felt before she moved closer to him again, her lips trembling as the connection began to fade. "I cannot .." she said softly, tears again streaming from her eyes. "We cannot have this like they have, it is so very different. Without talking with others .. I cannot, it would be irresponsible .. and .. for myself .. I just cannot." she said softly between sobs, not able to finish her thoughts because she did not want to sadden him more. Still, she stood by his side, knowing he may become overcome by the tragedy he would not feel in his heart.
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 11:39 pm
Yes...we..can...*He said before crashing to the ground and being on all fours. Panting heavily trying to compose himself. Surely she would aid him but this time as he slowly risen from the prone postion so his hand was in front of her view to stop her. If he wants he has to demonstrate that he will work for it hard*
I....*panting hard grabbing his chest* showed you...you....must....know....my answer...already....*he slowly gained the composure he needed no longer he was panting forcing himself to stand upright and talk to her normally* I will go through any judgement and hardship for you. If you must know i can train myself to sustain this with you normally...You are a dragon so it not that different...but...if....you must... Then talk to others about...it If you fear me life...DT offered me a solution now that i felt this im gonna accept it....*he panted more as he slowly almost slumped to the floor befor forcing himself to stand again his look weary but with determination.
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Posted: Tue Jul 15, 2008 11:51 pm
She fell to her knees as he did to all fours, catching him somewhat but releasing him when he held his hand up. Watching him with tear filled eyes, she admired him even more knowing that he was pushing himself to be strong right now. "My deepest apologies, Seisuke-ona .. I knew you did not truly understand .. my apologies .." she said softly, covering her mouth with one hand, trying to stop herself from crying but not succeeding very well. Thinking about everything, she was trembling all over, feeling incredibly conflicted right now, desperately wanting to help him but knowing he refused .. what could she do? When he continued, she shook her head a bit. "My apologies .. I know not how to explain .."
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 12:17 am
He hitted his chest and quickly gain his stance back. This time his exertion was much less and he was almost back completely. "If a war couldnt take me..down this wont either" He closed his eyes and Breathed deeply and exhaled deeply obvious breathing techniques in a few second he was nornal.
"Ziven i did understand, told my mind was slowly pieceing all together. I accepted to see it with my own eyes not just imagine it. As for explaining i already know. All i can say is do what must feel what you must. Use your heart and your mind. Talk with whoever you need.
Dont apologize Relax and thanks.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 8:22 am
"I am no good for you, Seisuke-ona." she said softly, still trembling. "Imagine having that feeling all the time .. yet knowing there is still something missing. Then that is all taken from you .." she began, knowing she did not truly need to finish her thoughts.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 8:30 am
Nonsense! You are good for me! *he exclaimed but with a nornal tone* I know that feeling all too well perhaps when you bonded with me you knew that all along. Learn this that no matter how much you say it im not gonna leave you i am not going to die at least until you rest in peace as well knowing that you will be happy. Have faith.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 9:49 am
"Seisuke-ona .." she began softly, staring at him, hardly knowing what to say.
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 12:33 pm
You don't have to say anything now. I can see it in your eyes. Besides is about time i teach you more. This time you do it with me ok as one. Dont worry this exercise requires it.
*he said gently looking at her as he stood idle like they werent talking something very important just a few seconds back. In reality he just wanted for ziven to think more throughly.*
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 12:55 pm
With a nod, she dried her tears, wanting also to move forward. Standing, she followed his movements. "As you wish, Seisuke-ona."
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