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 Posted: Fri Oct 26, 2012 10:59 pm
Vera nodded, face twisting with an odd emotion at Kurai's words. "Actually..." she paused, feeling a strange twist against her being, almost like a pressure in one spot in her mind. Discounting it as unimportant for now, Vera nodded again at the shapeshifter's point on age. "Actually," she started again. "I had the same problem. My memories started only a few known years ago. They were black before then. And I don't know how long I was with my dragon family before I came here to attend Reed's. So I can sympathize, at least a little." Vera gave a small chuckle, a sound like chimes in the wind. "Yes, but if you recognize the fact that longer life-span allows for more experiences, it almost amounts to the same thing," she pointed out, just as a thought. "For me, it's growth development. Tied to how your mind develops and not just your body, although I've seen that the two are often linked."
A low coughing growl rumbled from the store behind them, and Vera's ears twitched just the tiniest bit. She flushed a bit, blinked, and slowly stood with a slightly nervous expression on her face. "Excuse me, I have to go. I will be quick, if you want to keep talking...?" Vera asked, trailing off hesitantly, her smile dropping like water through sand as her shy uncertain reasserted herself. Her father, Azure...her REAL dragon father...wanted her present. Must have been that weird sensation, now joined by a dropping in her gut. What happened now, why was he here?? Moving slowly, Vera went in with slightly widened eyes but her face was otherwise calm, composed...a mask to hide her worried confusion. Muscles tight, Vera gave Azure a gesture of respect, going all formal in her uncertainty. What would you have of me F-....Azure? she asked in dragon, voice still rough but more melodic than it had been when she first joined. More compelling than ever with the loss of the grinding burr in her throat from such mountainous speech.(it's okay....been getting back into my normal groove of length replies, and a conversation, so have been slow getting to things ^^; enhhhh)
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Posted: Fri Oct 26, 2012 11:15 pm
Mai smiled at the gentleman. "I think she's trying to take a peek at the groom." She joked. She couldn't think any other reason that Vera would just walk off like that. Fu on the other hand thought differently. She thought the girl was acting strange. "I'm sure papa must look handsome that she wanted a peek." Mai added with a giggle. Her laugh wasn't like Vera's it was more like a child's. Azure turned and looked at his daughter as Baihu leaned his back against the wall and bowed his head a bit looking downwards. Jun, Young, Chen, and Xhian were backed away a bit. They knew their respectful places when it came to Azure. They were beneath him. Even Chen who was the closest because he was the son of Baihu and Suzuka was backed away. "Vera the wedding will be cancelled and so is the Engagement. You are free to marry whom ever you wish. Do not worry about marrying an old man." Azure told his daughter the latest news of the events that transpired. Baihu couldn't look at the girl and it was a sign that he had nothing to say about what Azure was suggesting. He was not going to stop Vera from leaving if it was in her heart.
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Posted: Fri Oct 26, 2012 11:53 pm
 Kurai seemed a bit surprised that Vera had a similar situation but decided not to speak nothing of it since he didn't to put any mixed feelings in the air about past problems. When Vera replied about the concept of age he responded though it is true that if you have lived longer there's a possibility that you have more knowledge but it all depends if the person is open minded and willing to learn, I've met people who were ready to turn into dust but they still acted like they were 4 years old, all I'm saying is that you don't need to be withering bones to be old, just to have a good amount of knowledge Kurai chuckled as hear seen Vera's ear twitch slightly Something wrong? Kurai said with a bit of concern, when Vera replied that she had to leave for a minute and would be back if she wanted to talk Kurai had replied uhh yea sure... but if you're busy we can talk later somewhere else you seem busy anyways, probably wedding troubles anyways, so you don't need to try to work me into your schedule Vera seemed to be in a hurry so Kurai wasn't sure if he had heard all of it. After Mai tried to make a joke about the groom Kurai replied with a chuckle Yea you're probably right even though he was thinking it might have been something else but didn't want to to get to far into anyones business and just cause any problems. Kurai looked at Mai So whens the lucky day for the bride and groom?
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 12:30 am
Unsure what to say, to even really think, Vera stood there silent for a minute. She blinked a few times, opened her mouth once or twice and closed it. Looking at Baihu, Vera's heart gave a weird sort of twisted flip-flop; he looked so dejected, but also maybe didn't want to look at her? No, his compliments always seemed sincere. The half-elf took a deep breath, obviously startled and confused, but trying to recover. "If age was seriously the problem, would you have put me on the table?" she asked, voice soft and mostly neutral. Mostly, a touch of still-present bother...anger, bitter confusion, hurt...just barely there. Only those who knew what her thoughts had been on the matter, Baihu and her father Azure, would catch such a subtle tone. The dagger hidden in the silk and velvet that was Vera's usual personality. She finally lifted her head, taking a step forward to Azure as her eyes filled with blue, probably shocking all of Baihu's children with overstepping herself. Even as his own child, surely among many stronger mixes, Vera's insolence in confronting him would be unfathomable to most traditional mindsets. But she WAS Azure's daughter...and dragons weren't known for just BREATHING fire, but having it run through their tempers.
Vera was no exception.
"So, is this just another way to play with me, then?! I had committed myself to the arrangement, I even have a dress picked out...and you call shenanigans? WHY even bother, so late in your game, to reconsider??" she demanded, pointing a finger at Azure's chest. The air around them started to move, oddly warm and musky like hot incense with Vera's emotions. Sure, air was Baihu's element...but this wind was tinged with Vera, it was her own thing, almost a beast in creation of itself as everyone's hair and loose clothing flew everywhere. Flicker of flames appeared, present then gone in flashes closest to Vera even as the floor rumbled and the air seemed to chill and get clammy. Sparks ran through Vera's long silver hair, her eyes almost perfectly blue now; she wasn't happy, not at all. Attendants rushed everywhere catching things, some getting closer to try to stop the obviously-distressed Vera from doing any more damage. She had taken a step back, to work on control and not out of deference as she was still too close to Azure, and was head down with clenched fists and hunched shoulder. Hot tears, hissing like acid, fell to the ground. "Make up your f*cking mind already!" With that, Vera spun around and was gone, graceful as she ran.
Outside, Vera gave the small group she had been talking with a miserable expression, the mall a pained one with all the noisy people, and ran off. New memories, the shock of learning who her father was AND being engaged all at once had been bad enough. Trying to reconcile her mind to her decided fate, familiar with arranged marriages and hoping for a decent one; getting the best she could but at a GAME, a mere GAME?? Vera hadn't thought she'd had self-confident or esteem until she had learned that, that...that SHE, a daughter of one of the stronger beings through known history, had been just part of a BET? A THING, a POSSESSION like a TOY?? And then, admittedly months later, finding a brother, going through the final preparations for the wedding....and now, suddenly, she had a choice? DID she love Baihu, or had she only resigned herself to marrying him? Her confusion on how to act around his children didn't help, and even having time to deal with everything, this last sudden unexpected turn sort of...unhinged the half-elf. And without Ryuu or Greator there to help her, steady her...alone, adrift...
It was dark, and silent except for the sniffles of a small child. Mental cries rang out into the silence, but no one heard, no one listened to the fear she couldn't yet vocalize. Not having the words, the physical development...
Tears ran down Vera's face as she ran through the mall, body hunched as she had to continuously force her wings to stay in her body, not cause a panic, Gyar even staying silent and still in reaction to her tumultuous emotional condition.
Light, it hurt, and a soft voice. Huddled in a corner, the horns and wings long gone, nothing but a small delicate child with a strange marking on her back. Gentle words, disbelief at the toddler hunched closer. It had only been a year alone in the dark, and she was already five...
Baihu's warm words, constant presence, support. Willing to work with her, along her, let her be herself. But what was she, really, aside from a mere THING to play with?
The jeers, the looks, everyone afraid. A temper, fire...fear, death, run away! No one wanted her, no one loved her. Confused, unwanted, a dragon. Carried away. Stolen. Like everything had been stolen from her. A curiosity, an oddity. Something new, different, similar enough to work the element-based dragon magics. Something impure. Still hated, still feared, the acceptance of some not able to protect against the hurt given by others. A new world, confusing blackness before...lost. Alone, always alone...
Vera finally ended up on the roof of the mall, not sure how she got there, not entirely aware of her surroundings. She just slammed the steel door hard enough that thick as it was it still buckled a bit, jammed into the no-longer fitting doorway. Leaning against the low railing, Vera couldn't contain her wings anymore and they ripped out from her back. She just wanted to fly away, emotions always hitting her harder for her previous pain and lack of experience. Lack of understanding. A deep roar rang out from the top of the building, probably giving a few people heart attacks, crashes and blaring horns faint so high up, but still assaulting her ears. Vera slid down, holding her hands over her ears, wings closing around her as in in protection as she cried, memories flashing through her mind's eye out of her control, the emotions hitting just as hard...harder, even, for her present confusion and instability...as when they'd been experienced. She had to stay like that for a while, trembling, confused. It wasn't such a big deal, nothing worth her reaction....but with what was expected of her, what she'd been taught, versus how she felt? How DID she feel? Vera didn't know, couldn't know. How could she? Always raised to be one thing, to question and examine her actions and thoughts, be the perfect this, the proper that. Given freedom, not sure what to do...death, rampaging everywhere, afraid.
What was she?
Half elf, half Asian Guardian dragon.
Who was she?
A question Vera couldn't answer, her name...Vera Silversoul-of-the-Wind...not enough, too deep to see.
How was she?
Obviously, NOT okay, the unexpected and unrestrained emotions overwhelming Vera's mind.
Where was she?
Top of a mall. How, why...? Doesn't matter, she was alone, always alone, so why did it matter?
WHY was she? What purpose in her existence? A bet, an accident from fooling around... Vera opened up her belt pouch and ran her thumb over the medallion she'd been given...supposedly from her mother...it seemed years ago. Had it really, truly, only been a couple months? Leaning against the side of the wall, Vera sighed, unaware of the other changes that had happened. Were happening, her features and coloring becoming more dragon and less elf, instead of the single trait at a time she had believed to be her limit. But all her barriers were down, everything loose...everything wild. Vera only finally opened her eyes, crushed metal and cement over her head from her grip earlier, when Gyar growled into her ear someone was coming. She looked up at them, feeling numb, too tired to really react to their expression as they'd see slit blue-silver eyes, a slight delicately icy blue tinge to Vera's skin, and the ivory, almost opalescent talons her nails had become. Darker blue scales ran up her forearms, and the coloring continued up her arms into the shredded shirt, the wings a deep purple-black color beside and slightly around the defensive girl.(uuuuuuuukay then.....REALLY overkill, but at the same time, considering her ever-present confusion about her place in life and whatnot on top of how she's reacted to things before... sweatdrop I just think of a reaction and it comes out my fingers sweatdrop can edit, if needed/wanted sweatdrop sweatdrop hoo boy)
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 12:32 am
(Um, need me to incorporate your reply into mine? ^^; since I was obviously still typing when yours went up? /: bleh, diarrhea of the fingers XD sweatdrop enhhh, came out long........X_X arg)
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 1:36 am
(lol its ok and...... you werent kidding about long replies lol miiiiiight take a min to read let alone reply lol)
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 1:53 am
(Nope, I wasn't....and that's not the longest I've ever written, either sweatdrop heh heh hehhh.... sweatdrop )
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 2:02 am
(lol if you want to you can, and I wouldn't be surprised)
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 2:10 am
(Whazzat s'posed to mean?? 0_o)
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 2:22 am
(which part? first or second?)
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 2:25 am
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 2:38 am
(lol well first if you want to incorporate my character in you can but if you dont you dont have to, second judging on the amount that I just read i wouldn't be surprised that you would have written more lol, and ur right it is a pretty neat song, I like how they use the instrument more than it given purpose lol)
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 9:38 am
"I don't think it's wedding troubles. I didn't hear anyone call for her." Mai commented. She was unable to hear Azure's growl because she wasn't one of his children. She would only be able to hear her father's. "Maybe she got an idea as she wanted to tell Papa." The ditzy girl added with some thought to her normal response. "Anyways the big day is this winter. I think Papa and Vera are still working out the when part." The blue haired part mermaid answered. Fu saw nothing wrong with her sisters answer and didn't bother to comment. The woman turned her head to the side just slightly to see the store and maybe what was going on with Vera. She wasn't the most sociable one in the group and she didn't care to talk like Mai did. It was then that she saw Vera running away. She seemed upset. Mai got a good sight of it too and looked as she ran. "I can't run in a kimono." She commented as Fu took off. She followed Vera, but the girl had a good head start on her and it was soon that Fu had lost her future mother. The woman stopped and slowly looked at all outlets. What had her father done to make the girl upset? It wasn't like her father to hurt someone. That was not the father that she knew. When Fu heard the roar that was when she knew where the dragon girl had gone and took off again trying to find her. The part nymph woman soon found the place that she believed Vera to be because of the door that seemed to be thrashed open. All the Nymph knew was that Vera must have been pissed and her father would have some explaining to do once she was done talking to Vera. Fu stepped over the frame of the doorway and noticed Vera almost right away. The only thing that stopped it from being right away was that she didn't recognized the partly changed girl. It was only by her voice that she was able to know that it was the woman that she would call mother. The woman walked over and wrapped her arms around the girl. "What is wrong? What did father do?" The woman asked. She knew the girl needed some comfort. Even with Fu's strict rulings she still knew what it was like to be a female. She knew what it was like to be hurt and wanting to talk it out. That was the side of Fu that Vera was seeing now.
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Posted: Sat Oct 27, 2012 1:04 pm
Kurai replied I'm sure you're right, if anything they need her opinion on a suit Kurai kinda laughed. So this winter eh? Still working out the dates and time? Kurai asked well i hope that you can get it all set out in ti... Kurai had been interrupted by Vera running away and Kurai kinda responded uhh yea don't think that she had an ideas for the wedding Kurai became a bit concerned and decided to see where she went. He followed Mai up to the rooftop and watched Mai try to talk to Vera so he just ended up staying back by the door leaning up against the wall
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Posted: Tue Oct 30, 2012 2:19 pm
Vera just shook her head, curling in tighter to herself and hiding her changed face behind the wings. She stiffened under Fu's gentle arms, finally giving a choked sob. "Not...B-baihu. I'm n-not a t-t-toy, I have f*cking f-feelings too, dammit!" She hunched even closer to herself, the confusion and the pained anger coming out in a rush, the problems with her memories, raised by dragons without fitting in. Pretty much everything. Finding out who her real father was, the shy hesitation and confusion the anger about being handled like just some piece in a GAME... "How can I call him my father, if that's all I am to him? I had resigned myself to the situation, and I even...c-c-c...I DO like Baihu." Vera sniffed, sounding tired, her voice rough from the tears and reverting to how it used to be before Vera had matured. It was all being torn away with her tortured confusion. "But now, just letting it all go...Baihu w-wouldn't even l-l-look at me..." And that was the key of it, in a way such a selfish thing... Vera had never had the right sort of attention all her life, knowing there was reservations on one side or the other, for one reason or another no one showed her all their love and care. There was almost always something held back.
And now when she thought, maybe, she would be accepted...even as a choice, it was being yanked from her. Everything beyond her control, Vera unable to stabilize herself and think rationally. Not with the underlying frustration and anger of being Azure's child, him directing her life from being part of a BET, and then wondering if this new decision was just another way to play with her life, push her buttons.
Vera knew she was being irrational, rather childish, but... Everything was still strange to her, having grown in isolation as she had pretty much her whole life. Even her time at Reed's, Vera stayed pretty much to herself. "I almost wish I could forget it all...almost," she whispered sadly, hiccuping and finally realizing it was Fu holding her. Eyes wide, Vera looked away, waiting for disgust or anger for her blunt words towards their Guardian fathers. "Go ahead, make fun of and chastise me, I know you probably want to..." she muttered, tone resigned, tired. "I'm just a freak after all, not enough of one or the other to fit in," she almost spat, bitterly alone and wanting her companions for their support. Without them, and unsure how to react to Fu, Vera just huddled closer to herself, forehead resting against her knees. "You're crushing the wings..." she muttered, sounding almost resentful towards Fu, although it was just in general to everything, Vera's mood dark as the weather picked up some attitude up on the roof. The wind had been getting stronger as Vera cried and vented, the air colder, some rain actually falling a little, Vera's body heating until it was almost too hot to touch, whatever wet landing on her turning into sizzling steam, vaporized upon contact.(sorry for the wait guys... *bows head with right hand against my nose, palm flat* so sorry... *nods head a couple of times* wowee, that was a long post last one 0_0 oops...)
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