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People's name usage has been really good lately. A professor asked me in an email today if I wanted to be called Ryan (cos she heard a friend use it in class), the people who sit near me at work are trying their best to use Ryan (and succeeding 99.99999% of the time, I might add!) and of course Dan's been awesome with it.

So um, yeah. That's good.

I need to focus on the positive SOMETIMES.

Oh my goodness...it's been a while since I was in here..*pokes everybody with the friendship stick* Hi!

Maybe this time I'll stick around..hm..
But now, a question! How old is too old when you're 18? I mean for dating.

Well, in my opinion, when you're 18, you shouldn't date anyone younger than that age and the oldest you can date is 28. 29 is where it starts to get too old. (go for the 10 year rule block. 3nodding

So I just came out to my whole class today.... it was... awkward. It was video class and my video was about transsexualism. It's hard to deny that you're a transsexual after you make such a video. After I played it everyone was silent. A few people commented about the components of the video. My teacher, who was really interested in the concept actually asked people to comment on it. She picked one guy out and asked him but he said he had nothing to say about it. I guess people don't like to talk about the idea of gender and such even in art school. How disappointing.

I'm now motivated to make yet another trans video. This one was really tame because I didn't want to make anyone feel awkward. But I still expected some response to it. So for my next video I think I'm going to make it really extreme and out there. I want to make people really think and react. If I shock people, all the better. It will be really in-your-face and no one will be able to say nothing. I will explore all the thought processes I go through on a daily basis and the thoughts I find are the same with many trans people. Things like "do I pass?" and "am I trans enough?" I'm actually really excited.

I don't want to make transsexualism an element in my art. I had planned on making an entirely different movie next that had nothing to do with it, but after today I just want to expand on it like crazy. It's funny. I was talking to a girl today about how there are two students in the school that I could say one short phrase about them and anyone would know who I meant. "The girl who is always on the phone" [she even took a phone call during our midterm exam today] and "the guy that doesn't wear shoes" [he started wearing shoes but we still know him as that] She wondered if we would ever be known as someone who stood out in our school. [which is hard to do in art school] I chuckled because I have a feeling everyone will know me as "the transsexual." Not such a glorious title as "the guy who doesn't wear shoes" but I guess it's something.

P.S. the guy that doesn't wear shoes is really hot >.<

I went to my trans support group last night. And hey, I actually said more than two words. (My normal two words are "not really" when asked if anything's new. I'm shy and stuff.) Anyway, I told everyone about filing my petition, but then someone had a question about name change stuff and I was sort of interrupted and it never got back to me. But talking a little bit was good. I will open up more as time progresses, I'm sure. The next meeting is three weeks away (it's the second and fourth Monday each month) so maybe something will have come up by then for me to talk about. I should really try to have some sort of meaningful discussion with my mother by then, and that way I'll have something to share. Yay me.... maybe.

I went to see Henry Rollins tonight. Funny stuff. The funniest part... or at least, the part that made me laugh the most (I was in PAIN) isn't even like, something I can explain well, it was all about his movements and noises. But yeah, it was hilarious. It was good to get out and laugh. And now it's late and I should be sleeping, so off I go!

Oh, and NadiaM, how much older is this guy? (I may have missed it if you did mention it, not sure.) My fiance is 7 years older than me and it feels completely natural. It doesn't seem like there's an age difference at all, to me. Of course, it probably helps that we're both in similar positions in life (both in college, I'm actually ahead of him because I went straight from high school and he didn't). Anyway, it's really up to you, you have to figure out if it's something that will work for you (and him). Good luck!

Ah well when you're underage that's when things get tricky, especially if you're being sexual active with him. There's the whole legal concern about consent.

Well then dating as in just dates and not sex should be ok even if he is that much older than you.