no i'm saying she is trying to fail. i dont really like my sister too much. I like to blame her for why i'm so mean now. At around fourteen of age i got really pissed off at her and i said to myself, "If every good thing i do is repaid like this, no matter who i'm nice to, I'm done being nice. No more nice guy." and i found people who taught me to be mean, dark, and upset. great teachers if you ask me. believe it or not i used to be a really nice person, but i grew too smart. I figured that since i'm so nice, people should be doing nice things to me, but i never received any thank you, any better treatment, or anything. I became evil, and people treated me better because they thought i was crazy and that i might keel. fear works better than benevolence.