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 Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 2:19 am
NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious *chugs* because for some reason I don't allow myself to be happy. And on the rare occaion I decide to change something is always stopping me. Be it, Psychotic father that beats down my self esteem, the neverending feeling of not belonging anywhere. s**t like that. Other reasons too, but I think i weirded you out enough. Takes more than that to weird me out. for some reason I thought I would be ridiculed b saying all this... sweatdrop Eh, maybe later if there is time. Indeed, but continue.
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 2:25 am
Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious *chugs* because for some reason I don't allow myself to be happy. And on the rare occaion I decide to change something is always stopping me. Be it, Psychotic father that beats down my self esteem, the neverending feeling of not belonging anywhere. s**t like that. Other reasons too, but I think i weirded you out enough. Takes more than that to weird me out. for some reason I thought I would be ridiculed b saying all this... sweatdrop Eh, maybe later if there is time. Indeed, but continue. really??? you real want to know???
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 2:26 am
NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious for some reason I thought I would be ridiculed b saying all this... sweatdrop Eh, maybe later if there is time. Indeed, but continue. really??? you real want to know??? Sure, why not? It'll give me something to ridcule about.
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 2:38 am
Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious for some reason I thought I would be ridiculed b saying all this... sweatdrop Eh, maybe later if there is time. Indeed, but continue. really??? you real want to know??? Sure, why not? It'll give me something to ridcule about. well...I won't if THAT is the intent stare
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 2:42 am
NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious really??? you real want to know??? Sure, why not? It'll give me something to ridcule about. well...I won't if THAT is the intent stare Just joking.
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 3:01 am
Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious really??? you real want to know??? Sure, why not? It'll give me something to ridcule about. well...I won't if THAT is the intent stare Just joking. kay, continuing...there is the whole thing about how I don't think I'm good enough for human kindness, little as that happens to me (When Tauri's mother asked if I wanted to go to Reno with her, I asked if she was joking for like an hour). Same for compliments (DM was saying how I was a "cool cousin" and I screamed at him "NO I'M NOT, SHUT UP). I don't let anyone really know about this either but I'm in a confessing mood. Part Three???
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 3:03 am
NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious really??? you real want to know??? Sure, why not? It'll give me something to ridcule about. well...I won't if THAT is the intent stare Just joking. kay, continuing...there is the whole thing about how I don't think I'm good enough for human kindness, little as that happens to me (When Tauri's mother asked if I wanted to go to Reno with her, I asked if she was joking for like an hour). Same for compliments (DM was saying how I was a "cool cousin" and I screamed at him "NO I'M NOT, SHUT UP). I don't let anyone really know about this either but I'm in a confessing mood. Part Three??? Go on.
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 3:32 am
Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious really??? you real want to know??? Sure, why not? It'll give me something to ridcule about. well...I won't if THAT is the intent stare Just joking. kay, continuing...there is the whole thing about how I don't think I'm good enough for human kindness, little as that happens to me (When Tauri's mother asked if I wanted to go to Reno with her, I asked if she was joking for like an hour). Same for compliments (DM was saying how I was a "cool cousin" and I screamed at him "NO I'M NOT, SHUT UP). I don't let anyone really know about this either but I'm in a confessing mood. Part Three??? Go on. kay, showing more on how I think I'm worthless to others I got really shocked when people show concern for me (even my mother...and she's mother). I feel worthless because I'm 21 and I've never had a serious gf before. Well...on top of that "never feeling like I belong anywhere part" I feel like I just plain don't belong in this day and age. oh...man I need to say this to someone. On that trip to Reno (it was Tron, tauri, Tauri's mother, and myself) Tauri's mother gave me a compliment I will never forget. She said: Carlos...I wish I had another daughter, to introduce you because I feel like ou should be connected to my family somehow." MAN...it took ALL my strength to not cry. I was biting m inner lip so hard it was bleeding.
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 3:46 am
NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious well...I won't if THAT is the intent stare Just joking. kay, continuing...there is the whole thing about how I don't think I'm good enough for human kindness, little as that happens to me (When Tauri's mother asked if I wanted to go to Reno with her, I asked if she was joking for like an hour). Same for compliments (DM was saying how I was a "cool cousin" and I screamed at him "NO I'M NOT, SHUT UP). I don't let anyone really know about this either but I'm in a confessing mood. Part Three??? Go on. kay, showing more on how I think I'm worthless to others I got really shocked when people show concern for me (even my mother...and she's mother). I feel worthless because I'm 21 and I've never had a serious gf before. Well...on top of that "never feeling like I belong anywhere part" I feel like I just plain don't belong in this day and age. oh...man I need to say this to someone. On that trip to Reno (it was Tron, tauri, Tauri's mother, and myself) Tauri's mother gave me a compliment I will never forget. She said: Carlos...I wish I had another daughter, to introduce you because I feel like ou should be connected to my family somehow." MAN...it took ALL my strength to not cry. I was biting m inner lip so hard it was bleeding. Frankly I see it like this, you are just keeping your self down and you got to get some self esteem. I've never even met you and you got more depth to ya than most of the people I know. You seem intelegent and have a hell of a sense of humor, just way to modest. I'll just stop here because you probably heard this many times before.
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 4:17 am
Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious well...I won't if THAT is the intent stare Just joking. kay, continuing...there is the whole thing about how I don't think I'm good enough for human kindness, little as that happens to me (When Tauri's mother asked if I wanted to go to Reno with her, I asked if she was joking for like an hour). Same for compliments (DM was saying how I was a "cool cousin" and I screamed at him "NO I'M NOT, SHUT UP). I don't let anyone really know about this either but I'm in a confessing mood. Part Three??? Go on. kay, showing more on how I think I'm worthless to others I got really shocked when people show concern for me (even my mother...and she's mother). I feel worthless because I'm 21 and I've never had a serious gf before. Well...on top of that "never feeling like I belong anywhere part" I feel like I just plain don't belong in this day and age. oh...man I need to say this to someone. On that trip to Reno (it was Tron, tauri, Tauri's mother, and myself) Tauri's mother gave me a compliment I will never forget. She said: Carlos...I wish I had another daughter, to introduce you because I feel like ou should be connected to my family somehow." MAN...it took ALL my strength to not cry. I was biting m inner lip so hard it was bleeding. Frankly I see it like this, you are just keeping your self down and you got to get some self esteem. I've never even met you and you got more depth to ya than most of the people I know. You seem intelegent and have a hell of a sense of humor, just way to modest. I'll just stop here because you probably heard this many times before. Actually not many, just Tron and DM. Of course I don't take it seriously, like I said in the first part I don't ALLOW myself to be happy. I kinda grew up around negativity so its really all I know. But thanks, that felt nice to read that. But what else did you want to say???
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 5:42 am
NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious kay, continuing...there is the whole thing about how I don't think I'm good enough for human kindness, little as that happens to me (When Tauri's mother asked if I wanted to go to Reno with her, I asked if she was joking for like an hour). Same for compliments (DM was saying how I was a "cool cousin" and I screamed at him "NO I'M NOT, SHUT UP). I don't let anyone really know about this either but I'm in a confessing mood. Part Three??? Go on. kay, showing more on how I think I'm worthless to others I got really shocked when people show concern for me (even my mother...and she's mother). I feel worthless because I'm 21 and I've never had a serious gf before. Well...on top of that "never feeling like I belong anywhere part" I feel like I just plain don't belong in this day and age. oh...man I need to say this to someone. On that trip to Reno (it was Tron, tauri, Tauri's mother, and myself) Tauri's mother gave me a compliment I will never forget. She said: Carlos...I wish I had another daughter, to introduce you because I feel like ou should be connected to my family somehow." MAN...it took ALL my strength to not cry. I was biting m inner lip so hard it was bleeding. Frankly I see it like this, you are just keeping your self down and you got to get some self esteem. I've never even met you and you got more depth to ya than most of the people I know. You seem intelegent and have a hell of a sense of humor, just way to modest. I'll just stop here because you probably heard this many times before. Actually not many, just Tron and DM. Of course I don't take it seriously, like I said in the first part I don't ALLOW myself to be happy. I kinda grew up around negativity so its really all I know. But thanks, that felt nice to read that. But what else did you want to say??? Just more encouraging words on how you're better than you allow yourself to believe.
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 10:23 am
My parents are SO out to get me stare
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 12:51 pm
Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious kay, continuing...there is the whole thing about how I don't think I'm good enough for human kindness, little as that happens to me (When Tauri's mother asked if I wanted to go to Reno with her, I asked if she was joking for like an hour). Same for compliments (DM was saying how I was a "cool cousin" and I screamed at him "NO I'M NOT, SHUT UP). I don't let anyone really know about this either but I'm in a confessing mood. Part Three??? Go on. kay, showing more on how I think I'm worthless to others I got really shocked when people show concern for me (even my mother...and she's mother). I feel worthless because I'm 21 and I've never had a serious gf before. Well...on top of that "never feeling like I belong anywhere part" I feel like I just plain don't belong in this day and age. oh...man I need to say this to someone. On that trip to Reno (it was Tron, tauri, Tauri's mother, and myself) Tauri's mother gave me a compliment I will never forget. She said: Carlos...I wish I had another daughter, to introduce you because I feel like ou should be connected to my family somehow." MAN...it took ALL my strength to not cry. I was biting m inner lip so hard it was bleeding. Frankly I see it like this, you are just keeping your self down and you got to get some self esteem. I've never even met you and you got more depth to ya than most of the people I know. You seem intelegent and have a hell of a sense of humor, just way to modest. I'll just stop here because you probably heard this many times before. Actually not many, just Tron and DM. Of course I don't take it seriously, like I said in the first part I don't ALLOW myself to be happy. I kinda grew up around negativity so its really all I know. But thanks, that felt nice to read that. But what else did you want to say??? Just more encouraging words on how you're better than you allow yourself to believe. ah, I see
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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 1:50 pm
NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious Confuseus57 NewGenious kay, showing more on how I think I'm worthless to others I got really shocked when people show concern for me (even my mother...and she's mother). I feel worthless because I'm 21 and I've never had a serious gf before. Well...on top of that "never feeling like I belong anywhere part" I feel like I just plain don't belong in this day and age. oh...man I need to say this to someone. On that trip to Reno (it was Tron, tauri, Tauri's mother, and myself) Tauri's mother gave me a compliment I will never forget. She said: Carlos...I wish I had another daughter, to introduce you because I feel like ou should be connected to my family somehow." MAN...it took ALL my strength to not cry. I was biting m inner lip so hard it was bleeding. Frankly I see it like this, you are just keeping your self down and you got to get some self esteem. I've never even met you and you got more depth to ya than most of the people I know. You seem intelegent and have a hell of a sense of humor, just way to modest. I'll just stop here because you probably heard this many times before. Actually not many, just Tron and DM. Of course I don't take it seriously, like I said in the first part I don't ALLOW myself to be happy. I kinda grew up around negativity so its really all I know. But thanks, that felt nice to read that. But what else did you want to say??? Just more encouraging words on how you're better than you allow yourself to believe. ah, I see Indeed.
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