Welcome to Gaia! ::

I expected to be as timid as always here, and yet I feel shockingly comfortable! It is so nice to finally have conversations with intelligent people again... Not many of them where I live. I do hope I learn a lot from everyone on here; my thirst for knowledge is never quenched by books alone, but experience from others who are wiser than me seems to help.

Very wise words indeed ^^

There's one thing that I find a bit odd... Everything I read says Lucifer doesn't force himself on anypne, that its completely our choice to come to him. But for years, I was surrounded by demons, and by him. He interfered with quite a lot of things, to get my attention. Why was he acting out of context with me? Has he done this with anyone else?

So all along, he has been trying to make me see that this is where I should be?

I actually never really had a say in the matter; since I was a young child, simple yet unexplainable things happened in my favor; if I was upset, it rained. If I was impatient, streetlights changed at the wrong time. Lights turned on when I walked into a room. The power went out when I was ill. After a few years of surpressing it, told that it was "not normal" (I frightened people, so my mother had banned all knowledge and practice of it until I was mature enough to mostly control myself) I started to notice odd things happening. I was extremely skeptical at that point, thinking I was insane. I told myself every day and night that it was "only the lighting, only a bird outside the window cast the shadow, only the wind" but after a while I decided to try and learn more about magic. My denial strong, I had cast a simple spell to make it rain the next day, when the forecast said we would be in a drought for a week. I had forgotten all about it over the course of the day. It rained heavily the entire morning and into evening the next day, and I told myself that the meteorologists were just wrong again. Then about a week later, I tried another spell. This time my mother's cousin was sick, with a high fever. The doctors had given himn antibiotics but said he would be ill for at least a week. I figured this could not create a coincidence. The spell was supposed to make him get well overnight. The next day, my mother received a phone call from him, saying that he was feeling much better and was back to his usual self. I realized I had no more reason to be skeptical, and embraced the magic in the world. I think all of us were skeptical at one time or another, and we probably all had our own awakenings to it. Its normal to be questioning it all, even once you know it is real. Doubt is a very healthy part of the mind with some things; I believe all factors should be known, and any possible factors should be brought to attention, just try not to deny it once you have realized fully that it is part of your ability. As for being logic-driven, I found that if you ask Father Satan about how it works, he will gladly explain the reasoning. This logic from him always connects the dots in my mind, and I find that I feel much stronger after a good lesson on it. I hope this answers your question and helps a bit!

Hey, I'm the newest member of the Guild, Klaus. Nice to meet all of you, I'll always be over to bump the thread (If needed) and will turn in whatever curious thoughts strike me on here. Have a lovely day ^^