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Me too and I don't live at home. I hide msyelf in the real world. Except for with clayton, he thinks Bi and gay people are cool xD.

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Well I started wondering if I was Bi last year and then last summer I started Dating my friend Chloe. I really like her, well I still do actually. And I still hadn't told my parents and she hadn't told her parents so that summer I slept over at her house and well....we experimented (not w/ sex though, just very heavy making out), and it finally clicked, I really did like girls and guys, and I have to admit I was alittle scared at first, till i found out I had nothing to be afraid of. And well that's when I finally figured it out.

I think like most of this generation, when I was expose to gay culture. It made me a little curious at first, then I was in complete denile, I kept telling myself I was straight. I was even more scared thinking about the fact how people would insult me and pick on me to no end. Then I just admited to myself I was way more that curious. I was Bi. I'll stay Bi till I find that perfect guy or girl. I still question myself sometimes, maybe I'm little more than Bi...

I first started to guess myself when I had a rather potent dream about making love to a male and found that it made me feel good. I don't have male fantasies as often as female but they do happen and it's easier to just go with it smile

My best friend and i went out on a double date with our boyfriends of each about a year. I've always thought my friend was hot and she thought so about me, we always told everyone that we were girlfriend but we never kissed. You could say it was a joke until we kissed....gosh did we kiss...
I'm still with my boyfriend and she still dates around, my boyfriend doesnt really mind that we (my friend and i) do anything because he's kissed both of us...it's a very weird storyline...hehe...but i'll never stop loving either of them.

most of the kids on my street were boys when i was growin up back east, so i was always around guys. and when i hung out with girls i didnt like it cuz i knew i wuz somehow different from them. hanging out with guys wasnt good for me tho cuz a couple of them asked me to take my clothes off when i was young. which i did. when i moved to california, i still felt really different from the other kids so i didnt make friends easily. i was friends with this one dude for a while who also pressured me into things. (taking my clothes off, allowing him to touch me, touching him, viewing pornography, etc) i found all of this very displeasing, accept for the pornography. that i didnt mind. (it was female porn) eventually i stopped seeing him and made friends with some other girls and ended up having a crush on a girl for the first time. i guess having those sort of things happen to me when i was so young drove me away from the opposite sex, but i dont think i "became gay" because of these experiences. it probably just explains why i am very hesitant with guys. im not a total lesbian anyway, but pretty close.