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 Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 9:45 am
actually spaz we didn't talk at all yesterday really and i think we all are bored
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 9:47 am
yesh =w= need tourney to start
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 9:49 am
Crystalline Seraphim Sorry... I might need to calrify something... I wanted to cry, but I couldn't and I ended up hating myself for it... yeah... a few people I know in Way of the Ninja and Hidden Villages are helping me through this when they were talking about it with me...
I want to be mute, so my words can't hurt anyone and I can't retaliate.
I want to be able to feel emotion, so I know what is like to cry, feel sorrow or feel other emotions other than anger, irritation, and depression and so I know what it is like to love.
I don't want to die, because I don't know what it is like in the darkness of the unknown after life... which I fear... and so my death doesn't hurt others
I want to fly, so I can see what it is like to be high in the air, soaring amongst the birds.
I want to breathe underwater, so I can swim with the dolphins
I wrote that this morning and it pretty much describes what I was feeling last night and this morning... when I was depressed and hating myself... "You just don't get it do you?
I'm not stuck here with you!
You're stuck in here with me!" Crystalline! Never talk like that again. Don't bother hating yourself. You have feelings. They're there. Never speak like this again, it makes me want to cry. You're not a monster if that's what you're thinking. I can say all this because of experiences. I don't want emotions. Because of them, I've had knives to myself, friends, and family. When my grandpa died, I was happy. DO NOT BE LIKE ME DAMMIT! I'd rather watch myself die over and over again in a infinite loop to not let that happen. I'll sell my soul if I have to! I don't know if you will even read this post or not, but never be like me. And, I won't post here again until I know that you don't hate yourself anymore! "One more word and we'll cut out your eyes!
One more time left to say your goodbyes, so say em!
We cannot stop the Bad Blood!"
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 9:49 am
Produce 4 more contestants and we can start it lol
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 9:53 am
How the heck can I produce them. -.- Those other members of ours need to get entered before I come over their and kick them into the next dimension. biggrin
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 2:13 pm
SilverChaosWolf Crystalline Seraphim Sorry... I might need to calrify something... I wanted to cry, but I couldn't and I ended up hating myself for it... yeah... a few people I know in Way of the Ninja and Hidden Villages are helping me through this when they were talking about it with me...
I want to be mute, so my words can't hurt anyone and I can't retaliate.
I want to be able to feel emotion, so I know what is like to cry, feel sorrow or feel other emotions other than anger, irritation, and depression and so I know what it is like to love.
I don't want to die, because I don't know what it is like in the darkness of the unknown after life... which I fear... and so my death doesn't hurt others
I want to fly, so I can see what it is like to be high in the air, soaring amongst the birds.
I want to breathe underwater, so I can swim with the dolphins
I wrote that this morning and it pretty much describes what I was feeling last night and this morning... when I was depressed and hating myself... "You just don't get it do you?
I'm not stuck here with you!
You're stuck in here with me!" Crystalline! Never talk like that again. Don't bother hating yourself. You have feelings. They're there. Never speak like this again, it makes me want to cry. You're not a monster if that's what you're thinking. I can say all this because of experiences. I don't want emotions. Because of them, I've had knives to myself, friends, and family. When my grandpa died, I was happy. DO NOT BE LIKE ME DAMMIT! I'd rather watch myself die over and over again in a infinite loop to not let that happen. I'll sell my soul if I have to! I don't know if you will even read this post or not, but never be like me. And, I won't post here again until I know that you don't hate yourself anymore! "One more word and we'll cut out your eyes!
One more time left to say your goodbyes, so say em!
We cannot stop the Bad Blood!"
That was what I was feeling on Saturday Night and Sunday Morning... I'm feeling a bit better now... it doesn't help that I have school this morning, annoyingly enough...
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Aria Di Blasfemia Eterna Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 2:21 pm
lol. the tournament and kicking people into other dimensions...wait that's Lukas' job.
Seraphim-the second link is hidden. you still haven't done anything wrong. i see no adequate reason to hate yourself so please stop. what does hating yourself do? will it back up time? will it give you tears when you want them? if it does, then will those tears be for the right reasons? i think it's just your medication. you acknowledge that there was a way the story made you want to respond. the amplitude of emotion might be lesser so you didn't cry, or have the extreme you wanted...but you felt that you wanted to cry which means the direction of the emotions was appropriate. when you are sad...you are depressed in a way. it's not medical "depression" but really the brain doesn't really know the difference. when you take something to stop you from feeling depressed it makes it harder to feel as sad. this in turn, because emotion is subjective, makes you not capable of feeling as happy. you have to adapt to the smaller arcs in your emotions and be happy with the small changes...though you should keep taking them if your doctor says to. it can be very important sometimes.
please keep in mind that i am not in any way a professional at anything. avoid doing anything rash because of something i say.
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 2:21 pm
"You just don't get it do you?
I'm not stuck here with you!
You're stuck in here with me!" That's good. *glomps Crystalline* Has anybody else rather then me and Malix notice that this place gets dead when I don't talk or is gone? "One more word and we'll cut out your eyes!
One more time left to say your goodbyes, so say em!
We cannot stop the Bad Blood!"
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Aria Di Blasfemia Eterna Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 2:52 pm
I did actually...though before i used to think it was you and Seraphim...but then i noticed Seraphim on and no one talking....so i changed it yesterday....and now you said something.
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 2:55 pm
"You just don't get it do you?
I'm not stuck here with you!
You're stuck in here with me!" It's rather weird. *glomps Aria* "One more word and we'll cut out your eyes!
One more time left to say your goodbyes, so say em!
We cannot stop the Bad Blood!"
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 2:57 pm
*glomps you both*
Ive only got a little bit of time left here fyi people. So Aria, at about 545, im going to start sending my posts to you in PM. But we can still continue like normal for now.
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 3:01 pm
"You just don't get it do you?
I'm not stuck here with you!
You're stuck in here with me!" *glomps Spaz back* What do you mean you only got a little bit of time left? "One more word and we'll cut out your eyes!
One more time left to say your goodbyes, so say em!
We cannot stop the Bad Blood!"
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 3:10 pm
Before work. DUH!!! Ill still have my phone though so I can still send messages to people to RP with them.
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 3:23 pm
"You just don't get it do you?
I'm not stuck here with you!
You're stuck in here with me!" ...*sniffle* Why do you have to be so mean to me? *sits in corner and begins to cry* "One more word and we'll cut out your eyes!
One more time left to say your goodbyes, so say em!
We cannot stop the Bad Blood!"
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Posted: Sun Mar 21, 2010 3:24 pm
I aint being mean to ya. If i wanted to be mean i could be mean by calling you nearly every cuss word in the book.
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