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 Posted: Tue Jan 25, 2005 3:08 pm
He doesn't say anything, he simply stares at the ground. He closes his eyes as he feels his heart rip in two.
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Posted: Tue Jan 25, 2005 3:10 pm
*Deciding that were she in his shoes, she would prefer to be alone to smash things and such, she steps out of the door, closing it behind her.
She walks out of the building and starts to head to the bridge to see if she could find anything out.*
((Would stay, but gotta go.... Apparently i have an 11pm curfew during the week! First i heard of it... Bloody parent....))
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Posted: Tue Jan 25, 2005 3:28 pm
Eventually, as he sheds a few tears, the words he wants finally appear. He mumbles. "..It's my fault.. I shouldn't have gone to Washington.. This wouldn't have happened... Goddamn it. Not again.. First Yune and now.. Xan." He realises he's talking to himself. but continues anyway. "If.. If I'd shot him yesterday.. I wouldn't have lost her.. Oh my god what have I done.. It's my fault, it really is... Xan.. I'm so sorry... I am so so sorry.I am so irresponsible.. Why did I get called to Washington today?! Why not tomorrow.. Or the next day... Or even next week.." He looks back at the bloody shirt and chain, feeling tears roll down his cheeks. "Mathadus.. I curse you for ever bestowing this power upon me.. I never wanted to be leader.. You know I never wanted it. I will never want it now, never.... It caused her death... Oh Kinikki.. You are a fool.. You knew this would happen.. It happened to Yune remember.... Oh no it wouldn't hurt to get close to another one would it.. And then, you cause her death.." He looks up at the ceiling, not caring about how insane he sounds. "Why me... Why Xan? She.. She didn't deserve it damnit.. I didn't deserve her.... Xan.. I love you... I always will. But I.. I can't live with myself, knowing that this is mostly my fault... Why do I have to be Leader.. Why me? I didn't ask for it damnit!" He hits the ground and pulls himself to his feet slowly. "..What's going on... Mathadus.. If I find you had something to do with it I'll... No.. It wasn't him.. It was that.. Vampire." He scowls as he grabs the edge of the sofa and flips it over, knocking over his hi-fi too. He didn't care. He's lost the only thing that mattered most. He started to shake, his emotions were getting the best of him. "..You.. you will pay Vampire... I shall have my revenge.. I'll make you suffer.." He walks over to the sideboard and knocks all the papers onto the floor in his anger. His emotions were taking control of him. He picks up the telephone which was on the side board and throws it at the TV, breaking it as it hits. He then grabs hold of his Gibson and hits it against the wall, snapping the neck in two. He drops it and breathes heavily. "..." He then continues to trash his apartment in anger until he drops to his knees beside the bolt again. "Xan..."
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 7:56 am
By the next evening he had somehow moved to his bed. He curls up, clinging to one of his pillows. 'It was the one that Xan used...' He thinks to himself. He sits up slowly, clinging to the pillow. He stares at the door, barely even blinking.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 9:36 am
He shivers slightly, the broken window had made the apartment cold, and he couldn't be bothered to move and do something about it. He continues to cling to the pillow, staring at the door. He's left the chain in the middle of the floor in the other room, he didn't want to look at it. He closes his eyes slowly then slips off his shades and throws them to his left. He then shivers again.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 11:33 am
He rests his head back against the wall and stares at the ceiling. He keeps his eyes on the ceiling, fixing his mind on Xandora. He couldn't believe she was really gone.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 11:53 am
-after parking his bike out at the street, he makes his way into the apartments, his long duster almost dragging on the floor, he can feel some strong emotional distress eminateing from the building, he makes his way up into the building and he slowly approaches Kini's apartment and he knocks softly- Hello....
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 11:58 am
-he slowly knocks alittle harder- Hello..?
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 11:58 am
He closes his eyes again, hearing the knock. He continues to cling to the pillow, a bit tighter than before.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 12:06 pm
-he slowly pushes the door upen untill it hits part of the destroyed sofa, he squeezes past the door and looks around for a sec, then over to kini- Im sorry for what has happened, I myself was unawair of anything, or I would have made sure it was stopped, my deepest sympathies Sir -he bows his head in respect and grievance for kini-
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 12:09 pm
He looks over towards Velante from where he's sitting, his cheeks stained with tears. He felt too depressed to speak, he simply nods in respect..
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 12:15 pm
-he hops over some of the other broken items in the room, makeing his way over to kini, standing about 3 feet from him- I myself have felt the pain of looseing the one you love more then life itself, And i offer my services to aid you in the hunting of her slayer... -he kneels down infront of him- Brothers in loss it would seem... -his eyes flicker a soft blue as he slowly extends his hand to kini-
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 12:34 pm
He watches him, not attempting to say anything. It seems the grief has caused him to lose most of his confidence.. He takes Velante's hand reluctantly, unsure whether the Vampire was just here to kill him.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 12:38 pm
-he shakes his hand, not trying to pull him up from his seat, he then sits down across from him, stareing at him- Dont worry Comrad, Its not my nature to hunt those who have already fallen... -he smirks slightly- I mean you no harm...
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2005 12:49 pm
He begins clinging tightly to the pillow again, not wanting to let it go. It was the only piece of Xan he had left.. He didn't want to lose it. The only other thing was the chain and the bloody shirt.. He stares in Velante's direction still not saying a word.
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