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Yeah...she used to do this all the time so even though I am really upset, I am also used to it. But my youngest brother and sister (5 and 7) have no memory of her doing this and are so worried and confused. My grandma has been distracting them by taking them out and doing tons of fun stuff. So that seems to be helping at least for my brother, my sister is still worried and just not saying anything.

Supposedly she is coming home tomorrow, we'll see. And even once she does it is going to be terrible because we will be back to having to have someone home constantly to supervise her. And we will have to hide all valuables and car keys when we go to bed. I dunno, I want her to come back but I am so furious that she left in the first place.

tl;dr: s**t sucks, that's all.

That's not it. It's just that everyone is either away or sleeping. I should be both but I'm not.

No, it's all coincidental, I'm sure.

I was going to the Beach Party, but we stopped at my friends so now I'm siphoning the internet from him.


I dunno Dess. If that happened with me more than once I wouldn't let her back in. If someone so close to me betrayed me time after time, I wouldn't forgive them after a while. I wouldn't kick them out, I would call the cops on them. Then they get arrested and taken care of for substance abuse, or holding onto illegal substances. I wouldn't take her s**t, I would put her somewhere where she would get help

Anyway, I need to shower and do some reading before I head to campus to watch a movie tonight. Later all. Sorry for...I dunno what to call it...

Es K.

And I can't stop listening to Bullets

Well I shall sing it for you.

Green hills and enemies
These things they make us sentimental inside
Your words are gelignite
Or just another sentimental aside

We're catching bullets in our teeth
And though it's easy when you know how it's done
They split the secret up six ways before they gave it to us just before dawn
And now we don't remember

Our blood and guts are out
We spread our bones across the table at night
We cut our fingers off
To give ourselves those little extra insights

We're catching bullets in our teeth
And though they try hard not to say how it's done
They always do
They spill the secret out six ways
And beg for our forgiveness
Just before dawn
And now we don't remember

We're catching bullets in our teeth
It's hard to do but they're so sweet
And if they take a couple out
We try to work things out
We catching bullets with our
Heads and hearts and all the darkest parts of us
It's strange to find such light
In such endless night

So sweet to lose a friend
You leave the church and taste
The air in your lungs
Old lies and fireflies
Carve angels on your eyes
And all is undone
You whisper prayers into the dark
Up to a god in whom you've never believed
You always do
You split the secret up six ways
But it won't make it any easier to see
And now we don't remember

We're catching bullets in our teeth
Its hard to do but they're so sweet
And if they take a couple out
We try to work things out
We're catching bullets with our
Heads and hearts and all the darkest parts of us
It's strange to find such light
In such endless night
We're catching bullets in our backs
We sent the undertaker back
Into the garden in the drought
To try to work things out
We're catching bullets with the best resources that we've got
We're happy then again we're not
We shout - through the endless doubt

Na na na na na na

I dunno. I don't feel very humorous right now. I don't feel like calling anybody a hen.

No the person hasn't contacted me and I think it is best to leave them be, they didn't just come out with it for a reason.

I am not sure they are a girl, either way I am flattered and creeped.

******** I got interrupted in the middle of typing that and mowed the lawn, got a shower and forgot about replying, and now I missed Dess. I guess it is for the best. I really don't have any way to comfort her. I hate not being able to help people that sucks.