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 Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2014 3:28 pm
There were s h a d o w s and d e a t h.
Got out a l i v e but with s c a r s I can't f o r g e t.
I don't know w h a t it was that made a p i e c e of him d i e.
We all have our h o r r o r s and our d e m o n s to fight.
But h o w can I w i n, when I'm p a r a l y z e d?
They c r a w l up on my b e d , w r a p their f i n g e r s around my t h r o a t.
Is this what I get for the c h o i c e s that I've m a d e?
D o n 't g o, I c a n 't do this on my o w n.
S a v e m e from the ones that h a u n t me in the n i g h t.
I c a n ' t l i v e with m y s e l f, so s t a y with me t o n i g h t.
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x ..i am trying to change.. ..the ways that I cannot forget.. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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And it did. As soon as he heard the words leave Adler's mouth and registered their meaning, his eyes lit up and he turned to the man with a happy expression. That would definitely be something. Just the two of them in the forest, soaking up all the nature and the fresh air. With the tall trees to shelter him, Caesar would have to worry about walking around in the daytime without the shadows. It would be perfect for him to get back at least a little bit of his old self.
Looking up at the doctor with a hopeful expression, Caesar wrapped his arms around one of Adler's. "R-Really? You mean it?" At times like this, Caesar really felt like Adler was spoiling him. It also made him further believe that the man cared. The man really had no idea how much he was changing Caesar's opinion on humans everyday. Not all humans are the same, not all are bad. It was something he once believed in and it was something he wanted to reattain. "Would you really be willing to do that?"
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x xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ..trying to get back what was taken....but unable to forget the pain.. If I let you i n, you'd just want o u t.
If I tell you the t r u t h, you'd vie for a l i e.
If I spilt my g u t s, it would make a m e s s we can't c l e a n up.
If you f o l l o w me, you will only get l o s t.
If you try to get c l o s e r, we'll only l o s e touch.
But you already know t o o m u c h, and you're not g o i n g a n y w h e r e.
Tell me that you n e e d me 'cause I l o v e you so much.
Tell me that you l o v e me 'cause I n e e d you so much.
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2014 7:20 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2014 11:48 pm
There were s h a d o w s and d e a t h.
Got out a l i v e but with s c a r s I can't f o r g e t.
I don't know w h a t it was that made a p i e c e of him d i e.
We all have our h o r r o r s and our d e m o n s to fight.
But h o w can I w i n, when I'm p a r a l y z e d?
They c r a w l up on my b e d , w r a p their f i n g e r s around my t h r o a t.
Is this what I get for the c h o i c e s that I've m a d e?
D o n 't g o, I c a n 't do this on my o w n.
S a v e m e from the ones that h a u n t me in the n i g h t.
I c a n ' t l i v e with m y s e l f, so s t a y with me t o n i g h t.
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x..i am trying to change....the ways that I cannot forget..xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx x
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Chuckling softly, Caesar reached up and gave the man a kiss on the cheek. He was already looking forward to going camping with Adler. It would be interesting to see how the man would do. He was also curious to see how he did too. It has been over six thousand or so years since he last stepped foot in a forest. He may be worse off compared to Adler, but he was excited regardless. "That might be good for you. I am sure it has been awhile since you have done an experiment that didn't have something to do with Decius, right?" He must have been after the man for awhile now. Even though Caesar didn't like why he originally wanted him to suffer, he was glad that Fields was no longer completely absorbed with his revenge. Now it seemed like he was less concerned about it compared to when they first met. "A change of pace is nice for everyone."
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xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx..trying to get back what was taken....but unable to forget the pain.. If I let you i n, you'd just want o u t.
If I tell you the t r u t h, you'd vie for a l i e.
If I spilt my g u t s, it would make a m e s s we can't c l e a n up.
If you f o l l o w me, you will only get l o s t.
If you try to get c l o s e r, we'll only l o s e touch.
But you already know t o o m u c h, and you're not g o i n g a n y w h e r e.
Tell me that you n e e d me 'cause I l o v e you so much.
Tell me that you l o v e me 'cause I n e e d you so much.
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Posted: Thu Nov 13, 2014 12:21 am
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Posted: Thu Nov 13, 2014 8:26 am
I no longer kill out of Anger :
I only try to Survive
And I try to Remember what it means to be Alive▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄00000000000000000000000000000000000000I will continue to live , remembering what I have done and what I have taken.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄ He wasn't sure on how Fields felt about them being open on their relationship still. The man often seemed to give mixed signals on how he flt it seemed. One moment he would be too embarrassed for the to touch, and then the next he was holding Caesar tightly to show that he was his. He probably wouldn't ever understand how the man's mind worked; but he could at least understand that public displays of affection were frowned upon by a lot of people. It would have to be something they worked on in the future for sure. He didn't want any women hanging on Fields just because they assumed that him and Caesar were just friends.
After smiling to himself from seeing Adler blush, Caesar started looking around again. There were more kids and more noise again, but instead of frowning again, the demon watched them with mild curiosity. Children were strange creatures. Not only because of the way they were, but because he was curious as it what if felt like to grow. He couldn't remember if he had already asked, but he suddenly wanted to ask Fields what it was like. Now that he thought about it, Fields never spoke of his family. It made him unsure as to whether or not he should ask just for the fact that he didn't want to end up bringing something up that might make Fields uncomfortable. "I've always wondered what it would have been like to grow. Is it painful to grow? Do you look the same when you are older or do you change entirely?"
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Posted: Wed Nov 19, 2014 11:32 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 20, 2014 12:15 pm
Awesome nerd There, I found someone who fits Caesar's image better.
I only try to Survive
And I try to Remember what it means to be Alive▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄00000000000000000000000000000000000000I will continue to live , remembering what I have done and what I have taken.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄ Caesar gave the man a look of disbelief. When he imagined the man as a child, he could only imagine an adorable boy with a cranky face and unsocial attitude. The idea of there being a smiling and laughing Fields was just as strange as the idea of Caesar having a family. Before he could mull over it further, he heard his lover address him again. His question made the demon sigh as he shoved his hands back into his pocket. "Um...no, not really. I was created how I am now and I never met who created me. On my first week of being created, I had left my original world and came here. I spent about a week or so in that forest I told you about before I cam into the city. A few days into it and I was taken in by that man where I spent 5 years stuck in that room. After I got out...I just spent centuries killing everyone I crossed paths with."
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Posted: Wed Nov 26, 2014 12:55 am
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Posted: Wed Nov 26, 2014 6:49 am
I no longer kill out of Anger :
I only try to Survive
And I try to Remember what it means to be Alive▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄00000000000000000000000000000000000000I will continue to live , remembering what I have done and what I have taken.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄Instead of staring at Fields in astonishment or laughing at the ridiculousness of his statement, the demon silently looked down at the ground. He never really thought about it, but it was a possibility for him. He could create something if he really felt like it, or knew how. If he truly wanted, he could try to create another shadow demon like him. Someone who he could teach and someone who could also teach him. He wouldn't abandon them and him and Adler could take care of the creature. It would start small and have the chance to grow like Adler did and Caesar could have the chance to raise something, to create something instead of destroy it. "I never...I never really considered that idea. I was always so busy paying attention to my suffering that I didn't really think about creating someone, much less have someone else experience the same pain." Lifting his hand for him to see, a dark ball of shadows clustered in his palm. It formed into a black snake with glowing violet eyes that began slithering around his hand and fingers. "Maybe one day I can create something that can grow. A child that can control shadows like me and can grow to learn how the world is so that he or she is ready to face it. If I try, I am sure I can use my shadows to create such a being."
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2014 10:51 am
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Posted: Sun Nov 30, 2014 5:58 pm
I no longer kill out of Anger :
I only try to Survive
And I try to Remember what it means to be Alive▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄00000000000000000000000000000000000000I will continue to live , remembering what I have done and what I have taken.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄Caesar's eyes shifted from the snake slithering around his hand, to Fields. Seeing his reaction, Caesar couldn't help but be worried as he matched the other's pace and walked beside him. He rest a hand on the man's shoulder as he gave the human a look of concern. "I wasn't actually saying I wanted to do that Adler. I was just saying that it never really crossed my mind before you know? I think anyone could tell that I am certainly not ready to take care of another living being if I can't even take care of myself." As he spoke, the snake slithered up his sleeve and made its way to the top of Caesar's jacket, its head poking out. As closer inspection, the black smoke could be seen drifting off its scales and there were small spikes along its head that looked as though they ventured throughout its entire body. "One day I want to be able to create something instead of destroy it, but right now, I need to pick up the pieces that are me. My soul is shattered Adler, and I need to glue it back together and recover from my hatred entirely before I even try to raise a child. I wouldn't want them to become like me or live through the same mistakes I did."
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Posted: Sun Nov 30, 2014 7:23 pm
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Posted: Tue Dec 02, 2014 10:19 pm
I no longer kill out of Anger :
I only try to Survive
And I try to Remember what it means to be Alive▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄00000000000000000000000000000000000000I will continue to live , remembering what I have done and what I have taken.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄Caesar turned towards the man, his expression showing just how puzzled by Adler's words he felt. The man claimed him to be a great potential mentor and that his actions in the past were justified and he shouldn't feel guilty anymore. He didn't really think that his mistakes could be pardoned so easily but it helped to hear the man's words.
As Caesar smiled to himself and moved a little closer to the man, the smoky snake disappears, the black mass seeping into his skin. "Thanks. I know that I can't fully make up for the lives I took but it helps to hear someone say that it'll be okay."
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Posted: Tue Dec 02, 2014 10:36 pm
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