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Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2005 12:59 pm
((but Mie's a sexy mod.... for a girl, hehe)) Isaac could feel the cold sweat on his brow, gathering in the furrows. Toomany eyes. His own were closed but he could feel them as easily as he could feel emotions. His hands push themselves out of their trained routine and he stops, right in the middle of a measure, his hands falling to his lap as his eyes swept open again. He shudders slightly, but it wasn't visible to anyone. He turns his gaze to the teacher, mouthing "sorry" before slowly nodding his head in readiness. She handed him more sheet music. he hated sheet music. Especially when he was so damn dizzy and all of the notes were swimming around the pages darting in and out of the staff, circling clefs, swinging along the bars. He lets out a very soft groan. He already knew this would be a long day, but damn. Why sheet music. Couldn't she had just told him what songs he would be playing? He probably already knew them. The piano wasn't his favorite, but it was his first. He could remember his mother sitting him down infront of the large grand piano they kept in the parlor, having his punch out his scales. He shudders. This would be a very long day. He begins to study the sheet music harder, trying to get it all to stay still for a little bit.
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Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2005 2:57 pm
((I know. cool I'm so damn sexy it makes you sick... with envy. xD Right? *flaunts sexyness by walking around in PJs, tripping occasionally on random stuffed animals and... things*)) Akio was concerned. Why had Isaac stopped? Maybe he wasn't feeling good because of earlier. Stopping all of a sudden like that could make a great shock on the body. And he'd just thrown them out as if it were nothing. Akio walked quickly up to the teacher ((I'm really sorry fullmetalguitar! I'll have Lazzure come into the choir room and be with your chara! ><)) saying, "Umm... Miss, I don't think Isaac is feeling too well today." He explained quickly that they were roomates and fabricated a story that they had been friends since childhood and that sometimes Isaac would get sick. He impressed upon the teacher that it really would be best for Isaac to rest. He didn't need the nurse, no, he hated anything like a hospital because it reminded him of death and only made his symptoms worse. "And I'll just help him to our dorm room and get him whatever he needs." THe teacher finally agreed and Akio hurriedly went to Isaac to help him stand, which would make the story all the more believable.
Lazzure walked in, fasionably late as usual, with his calm smile in place.
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Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2005 5:13 pm
((awww, Mie is so dillusional its cute)) Isaac blinks, watching Akio as he talked to the teacher. He could hear a few words, enough to get the gist of what he was saying. What did he think he was doing? Ok, he thought, calm down. He was just tryingto help him. But Isaac felt powerless. He had been lying to those around him to cover up his mistakes but now he had Akio lying for his mistakes too? It was too much. As Akio came to him, helping him stand, he whispers, "You didn't have to.... I mean... Jesus... Just please don't ever do that again..." His eyes were clouded as he stood, actually needing Akio's help to balance, but hoping that Akio bought it to be a good acting technique too. He is able to walk ok and he gets them out the door as quickly as acting sick would permit. He was sick.... But not innocently. He could feel the stares on him, most of the students unable to hear Akio and not knowing why he was being led out. Almost coldly he pulls from Akio's brace,his own pride unable to stand the look of needing help. He had never needed help before and now shouldn't be different. He felt his own resolve to what he had always thought to be true crumbling along with his composure. Once they were finally out of the door, he turns heading to the exit to the outside. He needed fresh air. He felt like he was either going to vomit or sob and neither were very appealing right now. He suddenly broke for a run to the door, barely making it out before he fell to his knees next to the bushes, giving way to the sickness that was spilling beneath the foliage. Pleasant. He was shaking again and as he straightened up, he held himself trying not to wretch. He glances to Akio, then away, whispering, "Damnit.... I'm sorry.... I'm so so sorry...." But even as Akio tried to console him, as he knew he would, he interupts him, "No.... this is all my fault... I was watching you sleep on our first day here and I promised myself not to corrupt you.... and now I'm bringing you down just as hard. You just lied in there for my sorry a**...... And you shouldn't have to do that...." He wipes at his mouth with the back of his hand. He whispers, trying to keep his eyes away from Akio, "Please just go back to class.... I'm sorry I wasted your time... Choir is the class you love.... go back, please..."
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Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2005 2:38 pm
((I know. =3 I just can't do sexy. It doesn't suit me. Cute, on the other hand...)) Akio blinked and then frowned. Lying wasn't a big deal for him. He did it all the time. He'd been doing it for year. He bent down, one knee on the ground and looked at Isaac for a minute before taking the other boy's head in his hand. He gave Isaac a half glaring, half concoling look that above all was frustrated ((dunno how to describe it... sorta... determined, I guess... Dx)) and said, with a lot of emphasis on the first word, "DON'T try to be selfless. And don't try to fool me." He took his hands away from Isaac's face as he crossed his arms across his chest. "I can lie if I want and I've been doing it for years so don't think I'm some sort of angel. And I don't care about missing that stupid class. If it's between helping you or getting stared at for an hour and a half, my choice is pretty obvious, don't you think?" He really did sound angry, but he wasn't. It was his way of showing concern. He was really worried about Isaac and the selfless act made him worry even more.
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Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2005 3:45 pm
((lol, no, its not that, I'm sure you're sexy and gorgeous and cute beyond all belief.... but its hard for me to describe most girls as being sexy, I'm not really... their type, hehe)) (oh hey, Mie..... How 'bout them Stro's?)((bwahaha)) Isaac blinks, gazing at Akio's face intently, focusing it down so that he only saw double. Whic right now was quite an amount of focus. His head nearly falls into Akio's hand from what seemed to be an odd mixture of shame, embaressment, and self-disgust. He was shocked by the tone of Akio's voice, almost to the point in which he was really frightened that Akio really was that angry at him. But he could see the caring there, he could see the determined will to help clearly through Akio's determined stand. He breaths out a long shakey sigh as Akio releases his face. He stares down at the ground, not focusing on anything, but a thoughtful gaze. Well, this is what he had been reduced to. He glances to the vomit and recoils in another wave of self-disgust. Well, every scum had to pick up somewhere to try and improve. He spits a few time to rid himself of the lingering taste and shakily stands up. He groans, dizzy, but regains balance. He glances to Akio and says softly," Ok..."
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Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:23 pm
((Sorry for not replying. I'm sick. <3 My nose is runny, I have a constant headache, my eyes hurt, I can't hear well for at least an hour after I sneez, I get dizzy spells, and yet, miraculously, I have no fever. So, even though I've been like this since last week, I have yet to miss a day of school. I'm pissed. Yay me. Because I really can't focus and it's stressing because all my teachers are doing reviews for midterms and putting more stress on me. I have no time to do all this work. Most days I go to bed as soon as I get home from school. I barely have time to do what I want with all this. Oh, and speaking of ripping my hair out in frustration, I have some of the most idiotic and senile teachers there can be. And guess what? I'm super-stressed! Most of the time I'm very laid-back but I tend to get these times every few months where I sort of... snap. ^ ^ Allison understands this. She's seen me RL when this happens. My voice sorta becomes all weird and sweet when infact I am being spiteful and streesed. ^ ^ Fake smile, fake voice and tons of torment. <33 Gee, how fun. Oh, and my money was on the white sox, anyway. =o )) Akio smiled. "Good. Now, where do you want to go? THe dorm?" He reached out his hands and helped pull Isaac to his feet, avoiding the pool of sick. "Do you need Tylenol or something? Something to help you sleep? Soup? If there's anything I can do, just tell me."
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Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:50 pm
((Aww, Mie... Don't worry, just try to feel better. I can understand stress, I get it a lot and I'm almost always tense, though most people can't tell until they feel my back and shoulders. But yea, just do what you have to do and don't worry too much about the rp if you need to get caught up. Last thing I want to do is stress you. Midterms always sucked.... I think though, I used to get more stressed out for them then what they were worth. Don't kill ourself trying to study too much, love. Do what you can and thats it, and if you have to lay down or sleep, don't worry about it because there's nothing you can do aboutit at that moment. Drink green tea!! I know, I'm a Jap and its cliche, but I swear its a wonderdrink. Also, take Vitamin C and drink orange juice. Take echinachia too. Good stuff)) Isaac laughs almost gruffly, but it was still a laugh. He says softly, "No soup...." He holds a hand over his stomach and beginning to take slow, almost feeling steps. He didn't look like he'd fall, he just looked kind of unsure if the ground he was stepping on was solid. But he looks a little better. He says after a moment, " I might just have to wait it out... maybe just take something to help me sleep, but the way I feel right now, I think I could sleep for a few hours on my own... No more drugs." He starts to smile, then stops, realizing his casual statement in reference to medicine. He licks his lips, shivering a little bitas they walk back through the trees. He starts to speak again, now very low and so soft in can barely be heard over the crunch of dead leaves, "I'm really sorry..... I gave myself too much this morning.... This is just from... from too much.... But when I don't have any for over a day.... well, there will be more times like this.... You really don't deserve it... I mean, having to take care of me... But I'll do well myself, you're not skipping anymore school for me, ok?" (oh, by the way, sorry for the kind of.... gruesomeness of the last post... I'm a realist, lol, and it often shows up in my dark writing)
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Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2005 3:03 pm
((Thanks for worrying about me. ^ ^ I'm okay, really. I do all of that stuff already. =3 And I'm over my *cough* bitchy ninja PMSing mood, so I'm okay. ^ ^)) "I don't mind missing school," Akio said truthfully. "I know all of it, anyway. I could miss half the year and still be ahead of the rest of the class." He laughed a bit, trying to cheer Isaac up. Mum had always said being happy sped up recovery. No. Don't think about her. Or any of them. He stopped, midstride, and took a deep breath to calm himself. Then he turned to Isaac and smiled as if to tell him not to worry, but behind the smile was something troubled or troubling. He then resumed walking, supporting Isaac as much as the other boy would let him.
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Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2005 3:38 pm
((okie, love, well, I hope YOUR recovery is swift)) Isaac saw Akio stop and stopped as well, gazing at him through sudenly very clear eyes. Akio had been thinking about them. He didn't know who "they" were, but he knew that sometimes Akio got that far away look, that look of trying not to cry. And he had it now, but it was leaving quick, it still touched him though. Even as Akio begins to walk again, Isaac still stands for a few seconds long, then slowly returns to hims side, giving him a small bit of a smile. It was getting ridiculous. Akio really wanted to help him... He lets his pride go for a little while, letting Akio help him. It wasn't as like he desperately needed help.... He could get back just fine and only stumble a few times... He sighs again, not putting any realy weigh on Akio, but letting the sureness of his hands nd arms guide him through. The ground looked like that of one of those large rocking platforms inside fun houses. It seemed to rock to almost a vertical incline to the right, then rocked back just as hard to the left. He sighs, closing his eyes for a moment. Then he remembered that he had driven over here... He groans and says softly, "You can't drive can you...?"
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Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2005 6:45 pm
Akio thought for a minute. "I have my permit. How long have you had your liscence? Legally... I think I'm only allowed to drive one person who isn't ovr twnty-one... or something like that. I never really paid attentiom 'cos I did't need to drive, really. And it's been a while since I've driven... But it's fine." He smiled in what was meant to be a reasuring way, but it didn't inspire too much confedence. "Well, let's go! Umm... where did you park again...?" He sweatdropped and turned slightly pink. ((Ermigawd. I just finished watching one of the DVDs of this old anime. The manga's really good, but the anime... Let's just say it's repetitive, has the same corny music and it takes the couple like... five minutes before they actually kiss. Dx But I <33333333333333 Netflix. cool My supplier of entertainment that doesn't envolve any thought process other than reading subtitles because the English dub is like... horrid. Makes me think of buying voodoo dolls to represent the voice actors so that they never ruin another anime!))
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2005 5:33 am
((Sorry to innerrupt the intensely beautiful moment...and you guys are doing a fantabulous job, but I want to get started with this thing this...roleplaying XD. OMG I watched the English version of FAKE, and it made me cry... Oh how us americans butcher wonderful Japanese yaoi videos. It was so funny, but soooo bad. The Japanese version with english subtitles is the way to go))
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2005 5:00 pm
((I knooow. SUbtitles = yes. mad heart The only English dub I know that is worthy of hearing is the one from Fruits Basket... oh, and Cowboy Bebop. And maybe some of the animes that aren't based off of mangas... =o Oh, the Miyazaki English dubs are pretty good (Spirited Away has the best English dub of his that I rememer... ><). And join in any time. =3 You can either be like, skipping or late to class and run into Isaac and Akio or you could be in the choir room and interact with Lazzure. WHichever you prefure. =o))
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2005 5:33 pm
((yea, this rp really isn't as exclusive as people think it is. Either they refuse to follow rules and we get mad at them, or they post one really good post then leave. Its sad.... and what do you mean "fantabulous job?" Are we like... the daily dose of yaoi for anyone who cares to read?? Cuz Hiroku was reading before and telling me to make my character screw Mie's, lol, good times)) Isaac sighs, relieved. I mean, they were only a few blocks away from the dorm building... what kind of trouble could he possibly get them into in a few blocks worth of driving... Well, then again, Isaac would see how oriented he was when they got to the car. Crossing into the parking lot, Isaac pulls out his keys and suddenly yelps. He stops in midstride, staring down at his pocket like he was witnessing the Apocolypse. He touches his thigh right over his pocket. He touches further down his thigh. He blinks. Nothing. He couldn't feel anything. He could walk and... He blinks,taking a step. He couldn't feel the pressure against his foot. It was like muscle memory without feeling. He pulls out his pocket knife and kneels, pulling up the leg of his pants. he draws into his shin, producing a thin line of blood. Nothing. He couldnt feel it. This was when he realized just how oddly masochistic this must look to Akio. He blushes, feeling suddenly very dizzy. He mumbles, "I can't.... its nothing, see.... it's..." He can't find the words so his points to his leg and inwardly curses himself.
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2005 6:58 pm
Akio looked down at Isaac as if in a dream state. Something was deffinately wrong. He saw the blood, bright red in contrast the everything else which somehow seemed dulled. "Isaac...? WHa-wha-what's... wrong?" He bent down to look at Isaac's leg. He couldn't really see anything wrong with it. But Isaac seemed to be in shock, something that deffinately wasn't good. Akio, knowing nothing else to do, took a handkercheif out of his pocket and whiped up the blood, then tying it around Isaac's leg. He'd had a feeling he would need the handkercheif when he'd packed for school that morning. "Are you okay...?" He obviously wasn't okay, but Akio wasn't sure what to do? His eyes were unfocued and everything seemed sorta blurry. He rubbed at his eys and his thoughts returned to the present. Hecouldn't even remember what he'd been thinking about. Funny how that was happening more and more. He'd have to get that checked, if he was willing to go to the doctor at any point. Arg! No! I'm being side-tracked! With an effort, he brought himself back to the present. "C'mon..." he mumbled a bit shyly after his short mental absence. "Let's get to the car..." ((Eherm, stream of concousness, anyone? xD Just how I think.))
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2005 7:08 pm
((my stream of conscious is more like river rapids, my roommate seems to find my babbling extremely hilarious... its especially fun when you know more than one language and you pop out with crap in latin or gaelic or japanese... thats why it takes me so long to post because i always have to delete the crap i accidently type hat has nothign to do with the rp)) Isaac blinked, looking up at Akio for a moment, as if confused. He looked at the hankerchief and put his hands to it. He ties it tighter, squeezing at it for a moment dazedly. This was beyond odd. he had never been so high that he couldn't feel his own legs, not even when he began cutting them up. He stands slowly, uncertain as if something was carryinghim that he couldnt see. He walks to the car, getting insside slowly on the passengers side and handing the keys to Akio. He says slowly, "You drive.... I can't... I can't feel... What the hell..." He sems very calm all of the sudden, though obviously just a different stage of his own mild shock. he glances down at his legs, suddenly seeing pocket knives and syringes stuck in at every angle, like a twisted accupuncture. He could see the blood spreading into his jeans, staining the car seat. he saw himself bleeding, but couldn't feel it. he tentatively reaches a hands down, groping for the syringes and pocketknives. Nothing there... He shudders, feeling sickened. He closes his eyes, trying to convince his mind that it wasn't really there (it really isnt there, he's hallucinating). he swallows the bile rising and leans his head back. He says softly, "Let's just go..."
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